A/n- So I love Alice and Jasper (duh xxalicexxjasperxx) but I think it's time Jasper and Alice are just friends…. For now or maybe forever? So anyways Alice goes by her first name Mary and she's kind of over weight but she's short. Her black hair is long and she has stunning gray eyes. Jasper (who is secretly a vampire) is the same description in Twilight series. He just moved down from Alaska with his mysterious family. What happens between them?

You're Flawless, You always were

Chapter 1

"Looking at a sunset, just for a second you forget your separateness: you are the sunset. That is the moment when you feel the beauty of it. But the moment you say that it is a beautiful sunset, you are no longer feeling it; you have come back to your separate, enclosed entity of the ego. Now the mind is speaking. And this is one of the mysteries, which the mind can speak, and knows nothing; and the heart knows everything, and cannot speak. Perhaps to know too much makes it difficult to speak; the mind knows so little, it is possible for it to speak. "- Osho

Mary (Alice's) P.O.V

I googled "beauty within quotes and sayings" and found a promising site. I found that quote, it kind of brighten this shallow water mood. I closed my dell laptop and sat on my bed. I looked at the clock it's only 5:30 am and I'm ready for school, I have 30 minutes until I have to start walking to school. I got up and walked to my short mirror and looked at myself, my black hair was straight, shiny, and silky. My skin was pale that looked kind of transparent and my figure, god I'm round and f-fat! Everyone at school is right, thank god only 1 more day till I get out of this hell whole. My dream was to go to New York and become an actress on Broadway. But look how lovely no director or producer would cast me, I'm ugly. Whatever. That dream isn't going to happen.

I ran my fingers through my hair and took a few deep breaths

Beauty is within no one will bite me. I thought as I ran down my tacky staircase and into the damp streets of Forks, Washington. It wasn't raining yet but I put my hood up anyways, and blasted my ipod up till my ears were thumping. I was listening to Believe in me by: Demi Lovato(a/n I love that song so got a problem take it up with my lawyer j.k)

The mirror can lie
Doesn't show you what's inside
And it, it can tell you your full of life
It's amazing what you can hide
(you can hide)
Just by putting on a smile
I don't wanna be afraid
I wanna wake up feeling beautiful.. Today
and know that I'm okay
Cause everyone's perfect in unusual ways
you see, I just wanna believe in me.

I was almost in tears when I walked onto the school campus. I looked around and decided to sit on the damp bench waiting for anyone, I then realized

I'm here before the teachers, I'm such a loser!

I furiously pulled out my earplugs and threw my book bag on the table. I started reading the book The Host by: Stephenie Meyer. I slammed the book shut when Jared said Melanie was beautiful she had to be fiction. I just sat there staring at the woods or maybe just nothing at all.

A hand touched my shoulder causing me to jump up and turn around with my fist in front of my face. It's just Jasper I told myself then I started to laugh. He joined

"Now Mary were you planning on beating the day lights out of me?" he asked jokingly

"No Jasper it's just a reflex, where's Bella and Rosalie?" I asked searching the parking lot, then finally spotting the sliver Volvo.

"Rose is taking Emmett's jeep today and Bella wanted to talk to Edward 'privately'" he explained then flashed me a mocking grin. For no absolute reason

"Now mister don't make me open a can of pixie-whip-ass." I threatened

"Oh, no not a can of pixie-whip-ass" he said hiding his face in his arms; I punched him in his shoulder playfully.

"Ready for another day of torture?" he questioned me because of my silence.

"Your so lucky, you're a senior, I'm a stupid Junior I'm gonna miss you next year" I said pouting then I mentally slapped myself, I'm not going to live anymore after tomorrow and he pulled me into a hug "I have a plan Ms. Mary" he whispered in my left ear. Great I should have never said that.

I pulled away to study his face

"Do I want to know?" I asked

"Yes. I was planning to flunk on purpose so you and I can be together next year. I already explained it to my mom Esme and my dad Carlisle. They agreed." He smiled big revealing his pearl white teeth.

"No, don't you can't, I won't let you" I said then mentally kicking myself, senior year would have rocked with Jazz.

"I want to." He took my tiny hands into his. My breath quickened, he bent down so we were eye level, face to face. He moved his face towards mine looking at my lips. I backed away

"We're going to be late for class" I said looking down at my converse regretting getting close to Jasper. He's a work of art; I'm a painting gone wrong. Jasper might not see it but I do, people make fun of me, Jasper sticks up for me. I won't put him through that misery, especially when I'm gone. I planned it out I'm not going to back out because of a boy. I won't back out for my true love. My best friend. My Jasper.

I ran to building 3 for class. I spotted Bella in a seat next to mine smiling at me. God she's beautiful, Edward and her are amazing together. As for Emmett and Rosalie. Not me and Jasper, he deserves a supermodel girlfriend, wife, someone who can have cute kids with him, and never leave his side. But tomorrow is the day I planned the day before Jasper and his family moved here. I won't back out. I sat down in my seat. I don't deserve to live. In this body. Anyways.

A/N- So, was it good? Did I push this story too far? Did I make Alice (Mary) too depressing? Is it perfect? Should I continue?