Secrets

I look at the clock, it's late but then we are almost finished and then we have the weekend off. I'm really looking forward this time. I met a nice guy last week, Gordon, we're going on a date this evening and I don't want to be at home too late, a woman needs time to prepare.

I hear a heavy sigh and look at Bobby. He's almost finished too and I think he can't wait to get out of here. He was strange today. I must admit he was strange since he became his badge back. I can't say if it's a good or bad strange. We haven't talk about anything but work and when he asked me for drinks or dinner I always said no. Not that I don't like it to spent time with him. I may be that I like it a little bit too much. And it's not because I can't forgave him for his betrayal, it's because there was nothing to forgive. I understood every thing; I would probably do the same. I just think that he needs a little punishment and I want him to suffer, because when I put my gun at him…my world shattered into peaces. I would've never forgive me if I had killed him.

I have one paper left when the phone rings. Bobby doesn't even react to it. I look around the squad but the captain isn't in his office and no one other is left to answer the phone so I pick it up.

"Major Case Squad, New York. This is detective Eames."

"Hey, Alex…this is Gordon. I'm not disturbing anything, am I?"

"No, no, Gordon, it's okay. Why are you calling?"

I hope he doesn't call to cancel our date. Bobby has stopped writing and I'm sure he listens to the phone call.

"Can't I just call to hear your beautiful voice?"

I laugh and Bobby looks now up at me, he watches me with questioning eyes.

"Oh I'm sure you can do this, but you have to wait 'till we alone for more."

Bobby looks shocked. I think he suspects who I'm talking to. I never told him I was meeting Gordon but he is a good enough detective to find it out on his own.

"I can't wait this long. How about we meet right now?"

"But I have to change before!"

"I don't care about your clothes. I'm sure you are sexy with the things you are wearing now."

"But I'm not finished yet, I have paperwork left."

"Can't your partner do this for you?"

"I can't ask him to do every thing alone. I'm sure he has plans, too. But I'm almost done…and then we can meet immediately. How does this sound?"

"Perfect. Hurry, I can't wait any more."

I say my goodbyes and hang up the phone. I know that Bobby is watching me but if he wants to know something he has to ask. But he just stares at me. When I look up I am shocked by what I see in his eyes. There his anger and hurt…he looks really hurt. But a second later his eyes are normal again and I wonder if I just imagined it. But I'm sure that the emotion I saw was hurt, definitive hurt.

"Who is Gordon? You're boyfriend?"

His voice is quiet and low. When he says the word boyfriend the hurt is back in his eyes again but it disappears as fast as it comes.

"Maybe soon, I met him last week. It's so long since I met someone, but I have a good feeling, I think this could last."

"But you just know him since a week, Eames!"

"Oh Bobby, if he's the right you don't need years to figure it out."

Now I'm sure that the emotion in his eyes is hurt. I can see it right now. But why is he hurt? Could it be that he's jealous? Eames had to laugh at this thought. Or is he?

"Are you sure, Eames? I could ran a…"

"Bobby! Why are you so concerned? Are you jealous?"

I don't now why I said it but I would've never imagined his reaction would be like that. I had to laugh seeing him like that.

His mouth was open as if to say something and his eyes were wide open. When he heard me laugh he closed his mouth. He puts his head down and scrambles with the papers in front of him.

My, God, he is jealous. How could I not see this?

"You can go, Eames. I'll finish here." He mumbles and gets up. He leaves the room and heads to the toilets.

I don't want to leave him like this but when my phone rings I leave and hope that Monday every thing will be back to normal.