full summary: It is set after Alex has been cleared as agent. A new mission comes in and Alex is the only one who can save Michael and Nikita, but what happens when untold secrets come to the surface? Is Alex going to change side and join Amanda and Percy or she is going to manage and handle the painful truth? I will always appreciate your reviews and comments!
and I don't own Nikita.
" So what is the lesson today?" Alex asked taking her baby blue eyes away from the window in order to look at her mentor, who was putting a mat in the middle of the loft so that the two women can practice their fighting skills.
It has been only one day since Alex was cleared as agent. But Nikita was too worried to let the day pass calmly. She knew that now Alex is going to be in more danger and the missions will be more difficult and she needed to make sure that her protege could survive the real world.
" Hands to hands combat" Nikita said calmly and she stepped up from the floor.
" Are you still thinking of Tom?" Nikita asked worried when she noticed the sadness rising behind Alex's eyes.
" I would like to keep my thoughts private, Nikita" Alex replied coldly.
She didn't want to talk about Tom. He was her friend, he was falling for her, and she was falling for him, they had an affair and that was a secret, Nikita didn't know about that. Alex knew Nikita's opinion about relationships inside Division, so she kept her in the dark. She didn't want to fight over that with Nikita, it wasn't her business. Alex hadn't planned that, but when she kissed Tom in order to pass Nikita's medication to her and save her life, she felt that something had changed inside her. But like everything else in her life, it didn't work like she wanted and she killed him in selfdefence when she helped Nikita to escape from Division.
" Alex, it wasn't your fault.." Nikita started but she was cut off by Alex.
" Can we finish with the practice, please?" Alex asked trying to avoid the conversation.
" If this is what you want" Nikita replied and looked worried at Alex. She didn't want to press the girl to talk about that.
Alex nodded and made her way to the fighting area, she looked at Nikita and the two of them started fighting.
Nikita tried to punch Alex's face but she avoided that easily and she slapped softly Nikita's face, then Nikita kicked Alex's stomach and Alex had to step back in order to catch her breath. Nikita attacked again and again and Alex was blocking Nikita's attacks all the time. But she was all the time in defence, she didn't attack her.
" Come on Alex" Nikita shouted frustated with the younger girl who denied to play the game and finish the fight.
" I know that you can do better than that!" Nikita continued trying to pull Alex's leg from under her unsuccefully.
This continued for about 10 minutes when Nikita shouted angrily " Enough!"
Alex straighted her body and she went to drink some water, but she stopped when Nikita started to shout
" What the hell is wrong with you? Why you are not fighting back? You want to get yourself killed?"
Alex looked back at her with a look of disbelief.
" Don't look at me like that Alex. You can't trust Division that it is going to have your back." Nikita continued angrily. " Now, tell me what is wrong" Nikita ordered.
" I don't think that you want to know" Alex replied softly. " Just let's finish this battle" she added because she didn't want to continue this conversation and she walked back into the training area but before she could say anything Nikita had taggled her and she fell on the floor hardly releasing the air from her lungs. She was breathless and in shock, and she was trying to catch her breathe again when she felt Nikita's knee in her stomach. She tried to get out of that painful grip but she only managed to make Nikita put more pressure in her stomach and causing her more pain.
" This is cheating" she gasped and she looked up to see Nikita's eyes full of anger.
" You can't trust your enemy that he is going to play with the rules" Nikita replied softly and pressed her knee to Alex's stomach to give some emphasis in her words.
" Tell me what is wrong" Nikita ordered and she released some of the pressure by letting her weight to her other knee which was placed near to Alex's place on the mat
" Nothing" Alex replied calmly " can you please get off me now" she added
" You know that I can kill you right now, right here" Nikita said coldly and caught Alex's throat and turned it to the side causing Alex more pain.
" Yes, I am pretty aware of your skills" Alex said and closed her eyes in an attemp to keep her emotions and pain under control.
" Then why you don't fight me?" Nikita yelled at Alex and pressed her knee to her stomach making Alex to let a little scream of pain.
" Out there Alex, you are going to be alone, you will have to protect yourself from everyone, from Divison, Amanda, your enemies, even from me. I can't be there for you Alex, I can't take care of you without getting you killed." Nikita said calmly with a worried voice.
That was it. Alex couldn't keep her feelings anymore. She suddenly grabbed Nikita's wrist from her throat and she knocked Nikita out of her with her leg, then she twisted Nikita's hand behind her back and she kneel down slowly and she placed carefully her knee on Nikita's back. Now, Nikita was down on the floor and Alex had the control. Nikita tried to look at Alex but she couldn't turn her head enough, so she tried to get rid of Alex's grip but she failed. Alex twisted Nikita's hand a little more causing a certain amound of pain to her mentor in order to make clear to her that she was in control now. And Nikita knew that she had lost this time, so she stayed still.
" I don't really like that so don't push me because I think that you don't want to gain a dislocated shoulder" Alex warned
" You won. Now get out off me" Nikita said in shock. She hadn't seen Alex like that before. Alex was good and she had won Nikita before but she had never threatened Nikita before.
" You started that Nikita, if you want to chat while you are in complete control, there are consequences. So let's chat" Alex said
" I will only say that once, don't try anything stupid" Alex said and she put some more pressure in Nikita's back.
" Oooh. Ok. Ok." Nikita shouted.
" Good. I don't need you to take care of me, I don't need you to come and rescue me. I don't need a nanny. I can take complete care of myself. You came back in my life one year ago and until then I was taking care of myself. You weren't there to help me before, you weren't there to take care of my bruises and cuts when I was being punished and I was left almost dead by the beating, you weren't there when I was tortured, you weren't there when Vlad tried to break me and got me addicted to drugs, you weren't there when I had my withdraws when I was still a sex slave, you weren't there when I had my fucking nightmares before, you weren't there when I was abused and raped again and again in a daily bases for years, you weren't there when I was homeless, but I survive! So don't tell me that you aren't going to be there because you never were before. I can take care of myself. I am sorry that when you found me I wasn't as well-being as you wished in order to wash your guilt, but I survived, Nikita. So stop telling me what I need to do to survive because damn I already know what I have to do. I killed my lover yesterday because I had to survive and take you out of there. So stop telling me that I need a nanny because I DON'T. What I need is you to believe in me. I can survive with or without your trust, but I could not handle my worry for you if I think that you might get yourself in trouble just because you don't trust me enough" Alex said coldly
" Alex..." Nikita tried to say but her voice was shaking and her eyes were full of tears. Alex's outbrust had affected her. She was really worried about her friend and she was hurt to hear her words.
" And, I didn't fight back because I didn't want to hurt you. I have already harmed someone that I care about and love in the last 24hours, I didn't want to double them." Alex finished and let a tear to fall and she slowly released Nikita and she stepped back so that the older woman could stand up.
Nikita was about to say something when Alex's phone rang and she froze as Alex went to pick it up.
" Hello?" Alex said
" Alex. " a female voice answered.
" Amanda, what can I do to you?" Alex said trying to control her temper and looked at Nikita, who was standing still in the floor with her eyes widen in shock.
" A new mission came up, I will debrief you" Amanda said
" Ooh, come on, Amanda give me a clue" Alex said
" Fine. Percy wants you to lead the search for Nikita, and I want you to seduce Michael" Amanda said calmly.
" What?" Alex asked in surprise.
" You sound surprised Alex" Amanda mentioned.
" I am surprised Amanda" Alex said.
" Then come in as soon as you can and I will answer all your questions" Amanda replied and turned off the phone.
Alex hang off and looked her cell phone confused. What the hell was wrong?
" What's wrong?" Nikita asked and approached her friend
" I don't really know. But I think that you are in big trouble" Alex said and she turned to pack her things and go to Division.
" What do you mean?" Nikita asked confused
" I will debrief you as soon as I get debriefed" Alex replied calmly.
" Can we just talk?" Nikita asked and put an arm on Alex's shoulder
" We will talk when I finish with Amanda. Your safety is more important" Alex said and started walking away from Nikita without looking back.
" Be careful" Nikita whispered and sat down to her bed. She was emotional exhausted. She didn't know about Tom and she didn't want to push Alex. She just wanted to be sure that she is going to be ok. And why Alex was so confused after her chat with Amanda? I need to fix that, i need to talk to her she thought and she left some tears to fall down.