Inner turmoil

by Thalia Lestrange

Here is a very short read concerned mostly with Snape's thoughts on loosing Lily. I wrote this a while back and was going to use it as a part of a bigger story but decided against it. I have published this for all the Potterheads who cried for Snape, I know I did. (maybe you didn't cry, but you sure did feel bad for him! Do non lie to me!) Hope you guys like it! Do review!

Snape had watched them for some time now. All anger had seeped out, all that was left was a biting sadness. A sadness that threatened to completely devour him. His heart was in a turmoil that he didn't think it could ever get out of. He had been hurt so deeply that he would carry the scar for life. The worst part was that she didn't even know.

He remembered his first day at Hogwarts like it was just yesterday. Lily was standing next to him, waiting in eager anticipation to be sorted into one of the four houses. He remembered the elation on her face as she joined the Gryffindor table. He had felt sad then that they were not in the same house but she had told him it was okay, that they would always be the best of friends. With the innocence of an eleven year old, he had dreamed of a life with her. Him and Lily, he thought, would always be together.

Today he saw her laughing in James's arms. He saw her looking at him with love in her eyes. He saw her falling for someone else. He saw her drift away from him. They had their differences, He wasn't even sure that they were friends anymore. Despite all that had happened, they would always have a place in each others heart. He knew that just as he would always love Lily, she would always think of him as her friend. But never anything more than that. There was nothing he could do about it. It was a turmoil that he could never get over.