Prologue
Hermione groaned in frustration as she opened her eyes and looked around the dark room. She knew her insomnia was back and there was point in trying to sleep tonight. Angrily, she threw the duvet back and picked up her wand.
"Lumos" she whispered.
Hermione stood up and crossed the room, lighting a candle and falling into a comfortable, worn, leather wing back chair. Her eyes were immediately drawn to the small table beside the chair and they rested on a brown leather bound journal. The journal that had become her addiction, for the past year every night, she would curl up and read it for hours at a time.
"This is the last time," she told herself fiercely picking it up. "I have to let go. I can't keep holding on to him anymore"
Hermione opened the journal and shook her head when she realized she knew all of the words by heart. She could close her eyes and dictate the personal thoughts of the man she had loved, the man she still loved.
"Part one" she said aloud, here eyes still shut tightly. "Concerning Pansy"
The tears fell down her cheeks and she let a sob.
"One day I will stop crying for him" she swore pausing her recitation. Taking a deep breath and wiping the tears from her face. Hermione squared her shoulder and once again, read the journal of her ex lover before falling asleep fitfully in the chair.