These past four days have been taken a toll on my body. I can't eat. Throwing up. Blood. Getting my wisdom teeth out has killed me in so many ways. The worse part of it is, the one person who promised me no matter what they wouldn't leave, left. I've been destroyed ever since. I can't sleep. I can't eat. I can't do anything. Hell I can't even cry. I just hope he knows how much I'm hurting. How much I needed him. But he left me here all alone with no one to turn to. That's not protecting someone. That's taking the easy way out. I'm sick of guys and there games. You can give your whole heart and life to them and it still will never be good enough. I've learned no matter what I do it's never good enough and I will never be good enough. I just have to either keep fighting for my life or give up. And right now I don't know what to do. Every day that passes is one day more I get sicker and one day closer to my final chapter.