-1I don't own Loveless nor do I own any of the characters mentioned in my
story, so please stop trying to sue me! After all, you won't get anything
for I have nothing to give, now go on and enjoy the fic!

Rating: K+ maybe a little higher I duno but I know that you'll like it no
matter the rating.

Paring: Kio/Soubi This pairing needs some love!

Summary: This is the continuation of Looking, might want to read that one
first, but don't really have to. Soubi finally sees Kio for what he could
have been, but is it too late?

This is my fist fic that will challenge Luciferus! We have this whole rival thing going on at the moment! Lol

Seeing

Chapter 1:

Soubi's PoV

'I cant believe he did all that just to save me. I cant believe he's sitting
here dying. I don't know what to do!' I can feel the tears running down my
face unchecked. I try to force myself to stop but for some reason I can't. I
just can't. I see his chest heaving up and down trying to get breath into
his lungs. "Hold on, please just hold on. We can do this ok, please don't
leave. Kio, you can't just leave like this!" I yell at him as his eyes start
to shut. 'How can he be so selfish! How can he just get up and die like that
without considering what I might want or feel.' I can feel blood spelling
out of the wound in his side. "Ok, I can do this, hold on ok, please just
hold on." I whisper in his ear before I stand up, picking him up with me.

I flagged down a cab and got in the back, still holding Kio close to me.
"Hurry to the hospital, my friends dying." I say to the man when he just
stares at me, and Kio. He turns in his seat and takes off down the road
going 80mph in an 45mph lane, twisting in and out of on coming traffic. He
swerves around a huge truck, picking up more speed, and holds steady when he
reaches the front of the window. He rolled down the passenger window and
motioned for the other to do the same. "Hey, I have a man in here who'll
die if we don't get him in the hospital now! Clear the road would you?!" The
man yells at the other man. The man glanced in the back by me, I don't know
what I looked like but it must have been bad because he nodded his head and
started to beep the horn and pick up speed as he forced others to move out
of his way and made a path straight to the hospital.

The cab driver got out of the car and ran in to get a doctor and I just
pulled Kio out of the car, whispering all along that he had to hold on, that
he had to be ok, that he just had to live. He just had to, because I'm not
sure I could live without him. Then the hospital doors opened and a team of
doctors and a stretcher was coming my way. I placed Kio down and showed them
his wound as they started an iv drip. The doctor called for 5 units of A+
blood just before they wheeled Kio into the room and told me to stay behind.
I looked around trying to figure out what to do next. I was always good at
waiting, but for some reason all my patience just seemed to have up and
leave me tonight. I see the two drivers sitting in some seats off to my
right, so I go and sit next to one of them, it's as good a place as any.

I sat there, and sat there, and sat there some more. I could have been there
an minute, an hour, or an eternity but all I knew is my breath caught in my
chest and my heart started to race when the doctor came out of the doors and
started to walk towards us. I closed my eyes and prayed to what ever god was
listening, please let him be ok, please. And then the doctor was there
asking if we knew the patient who came in with the cab. I nodded my head and
he shook my hand.

"Well, you should be glad to know he's alive, even a minute later and he
would have been dead. He will have to stay off his feet for awhile and
somebody needs to make sure he gets the right amount of meds each day." The doctor said as he started to look down at his chart. 'I'll take care of him I swear it! I'm
just glad he's ok.' I nod my head as the doctor tells me what he has to take
and when. "When will he be able to leave?" I ask, knowing that Kio didn't
like hospitals in the slightest. "Well, not until we're sure he's really
ok, so maybe in 2-3 days if he's lucky, but that is one nasty cut. Plus we
have to make sure the wound wasn't self inflicted." The doctor said without
batting an eye at what he suggested what happened.

"You think he hurt himself?" I asked not really sure how to explain his
wounds away. The doctor looked at me finally, and closed his charts. "Can
you tell me how he got the wounds? If so then we don't have to worry, but it
won't be the first time somebody wanted out of the world bad enough to try
and I won't have a dead body on my hands. So until I know, he stays put."
Was all the doctor said before turning on his heel to leave.
'I have no idea how to get him out of this, I mean I can't just go 'hey he
killed the people who were after me and in turn they tried to gut him, but
it's ok now because they're dead.'' Some how I think they wouldn't like that
answer too much. I sigh and close my eyes as I begin to wait for me to be
able to see him.

It was about two hours later when he was all set up in a room for his stay
and told me which room to head to in order to see him. The nurse said I
could stay for a bit but then I would have to leave because visiting hours
were over long ago. She told me I could come back the next day at 11 am and
stay until 8 pm. I wanted to hurt her for daring to try and keep me from
Kio. I just looked at her like she was crazy, "We're partners, and last I
checked, lovers were aloud to stay together," was all I said to the lady.
She blinked before she started to blush. "Oh I'm so sorry, I just assumed,
I'm really sorry, of course you can stay, if there's anything you need just
push the nurses button alright." She said and left with an small blush and
laughed a little. I shook my head, and opened the door.

What I saw scared me even more; machines doing things that Kio should have
been able to do on his own, like breath, keeping his heart moving, making
sure his blood was moving, and that he was being fed. I winced as I sat in
an overly hard chair. "Now look what you went and got yourself into. I told
you when I first met you that hanging around me could be your death. I
remember you just looked at me and laughed. When I asked what was so funny
you just laughed more. I was so angry at you. How could you think that was
funny?! It was a week ago that you answered me, you told me you laughed
because then and still you couldn't think of a better way to die and that
you had hoped to die before me. I was so shocked that I didn't follow you
out the door, and when I tried to reach you after that, I couldn't. I should
have known you would try to do something like this... Really now, you over
did it this time Kio. Not only did you have each and every floor wired to
blow, you made sure you were the bate to get both of the syndicates to come
into one building. I still don't know how you managed that one. Or how you
got all the things you needed, or how you placed every damn bomb, or how any
of the syndicates knew you. So you see, you just have to wake up, because
you have to explain it all to me. Plus it's an order, I'm ordering you to
wake up and be ok. You remember Kio, you said you would follow every order I
gave you." I tell him as I sit there and stare at his pale face.

I look down when I feel a tremble in my lap. My hands were shaking. I'm
afraid that he won't wake up, that I won't get the chance to say thank you,
to yell at him for scaring me that way, to say I love you. To say I'm so
sorry for being the way I had been that way for so long. I was scared,
something I hadn't felt since the day after I had given Kio my ears when I
told him we couldn't be together and feared that he would leave and no
longer stay at my side. He was so upset that day. He punched me in the face
before leaving. At first I had just left him to cool down but when I didn't
see him for almost two weeks, I got worried. I went looking for him, it took
me awhile to find out where he was holding out.

It had been the first time I had disobeyed my master. I need Kio and
wouldn't do as any other pleased until he came back again. When I got there
he had been about to leave. We nearly ran into each other at the door. I
remember he tried to ignore me and leave but I grabbed his hand and
whispered into his ear that we needed to talk. He yanked at his hand, and
looked at me before saying in the most emotionless voice I had ever heard,
"What about, I'm doing as you please and leave. I dropped out of the art
classes and the campus all together, I gave up my room, and I'm moving out
of the city soon enough. You don't have to worry about seeing me ever
again!" I nearly cried when I heard him say the last part. I pulled him
into my chest and kissed him again. We made love that night and the next
morning I walked him back to the room making sure that he let the school
know he was coming back into the classes and was keeping the same room.

I look over and see him now, and wonder why am I not strong enough to pull
him out of this sleep. It should be easy, after all he's right there and all
I have to do is shake him and he should wake up. I look down again to my
shaking hands, I'm afraid that if I shake him he won't wake up. I don't want
that to happen, I don't want to know that he can't come back.

TBC
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