Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight, and the ideas and some words and sentences came from New Moon. Except in Edward's point of view. This whole thing is just New Moon in Edward's POV. So no one sue me.

This story starts out at the beginning of New Moon when Edward is coming over Bella's house.

Eddie's POV

"Do you mind if i come over today?" I asked as we were walking towards her truck after school.

"Of course not," as she responded I could hear the amount of love in her voice. That wouldn't make what I was going to tell any easier.

"Now?" I asked, opening the door of her truck open for her. A few rust specks fell to the asphalt.

"Sure, I was just going to drop a letter for Renee in the mailbox on the way. I'll meet you there."

I looked at the over-sized envelope on the passenger seat. I reached for it and held it in between his arm and body.

"I'll do it, and I'll still beat you there." I tried to smile but the impending conversation made it difficult to do right. I knew she could tell.

She agreed and got in the car. I walked around the huge truck and down to my car at the end of the parking lot. It's for her own good, her own good. I kept repeating this in my head. It didn't seem to help. Maybe the part of the reason was all the voices in my head. Those voices that meant nothing to me. Nothing at all, but I got stuck with them anyways and who really wants to know all the lovey and perverted things they thought. I felt like the entire school was thinking these things just to drive me insane.

By the time I had delivered her letter and drove back to her house, 7 minutes had past. The longest seven minutes of my existence. I got out of my silver Volvo just as her foot touched the ground. I walked to meet her halfway. I pulled her backpack off her shoulder as lightly as possible. I could see the look of confusion on her face when I placed it back in her truck.

"Come for a walk with me." I said, trying to keep all traces of emotion out of my words. I took her hand and led her to the forest. I stopped right at the entrance in clear view of the house.

I took a deep breath and leaned against a nearby tree. I just stared at her. Her amazing beauty. Everything about her screamed at me, telling me to turn around back to that house and be with her. Forever. But I knew that was impossible. I was the most dangerous thing for her. I needed to leave. Leave fast, now. So I would.

"Okay, let's talk." She stated as if she was expecting the conversation to be simple and quick.

I took another breath.

"Bella, we're leaving." I managed to tell her, lingering slightly at her name. Her face seemed relatively panicked but not at all what I expected.

"Why now? Another year-"

"Bella, it's time. How much longer could we stay in Forks, after all? Carlisle barley passes for thirty, and he's claiming thirty-three now. We'd have to start over soon regardless."

Her face was confused again and she started to stare at me. I stared back coldly. It took all my might but I managed to glare at her. Her face then looked solem.

"When you say we-," she whispered.

"I mean my family and myself." It hadn't occurred to me that she would be thinking of going with us.

After a long pause, "Okay, I'll go with you."

"You can't Bella, where we're going...It's not the right place for you."

"Where you are is the right place for me."

"I'm no good for you." I added.

"Don't be ridiculous, your the best part of my life."

"My world is not right for you," my pain was so deep I couldn't imagine anything that could hurt more. Although the worst was yet to come.

"What happened with Jasper- that's nothing, Edward! Nothing!" She was screaming now. Her voice was slightly angry.

"You're right, it's exactly what is to be expected." I responded.

"You promised! In Phoenix, you promised that you would stay-." I couldn't take it. I couldn't think clearly or take those unnecessary breaths. But I couldn't let her see that. I needed to be strong. For her.

"As long as it was good for you." I knew my words back in Phoenix were not exactly the same but she wouldn't remember that.

"This isn't about my soul is it?" She was furious and loud. " Carlisle told me about that, and I don't care, Edward. I don't wan my soul! It is nothing without you--- it's yours already!" I could see tears rolling down her cheeks. Tears of anger or sorrow I didn't know.

I stared at the ground. This was it. This was the one phrase that would let me leave. The one thing that would absolutely destroy me. I tried to think of another way. Any there way. But that would be hurting her. She wouldn't let me leave if I didn't tell her. So I looked up and tried to remove all emotion for my system.

"Bella," I said after about ten minutes," I don't want you to come withe me." There! I said it! I was screaming at he world. Why! Why, why, why. Why did those pain filled eyes hit me. They hit me so hard I was furious with myself. More a couple of seconds I actually thought of just saying, ' Just kidding, Bella, this was all a big fat joke and a lie I really do love you'. But I wouldn't do that. I had to leave. To make her safe I had to leave.

"You....don't...want me?" She asked, hesitant.

"No." I said with no change in facial expressions.

She stared at me. I looked back with a slight glare. I didn't have enough strength to give her a full on cold stare.

"Well, that changes things." She replied with a large amount of reason in her voice. If I didn't know better I would've thought Jasper was standing right next to her. Fiddling with her emotions. I looked into the trees. She was as calm as she was going to get so I went for it.

"Of course, I will always love you..in a way. But what happened the other night made me realize that it's time for a change. Because I'm.. tired," I spat out the last word," Tired of pretending to be human." I looked back into her eyes. "I've let his go on much too long, and I'm sorry for that." The list ran through my head. The list named : All The Other Things I Am Sorry For. I tried to ignore it but it was a challenge.

"Don't," She whispered," Don't do this."

I stared at her once again. I stared in a way that explained that it didn't matter what she said. I was already going.

"You're not good for me, Bella." I wished so much that those words could be flip flopped.

I waited patiently for her response."If that's what you want."

I nodded.

Then a light went on. There was one thing I hadn't mentioned. The thing I did this despicable thing for. To keep her safe.

"I would like to ask one favor, though, if that's not too much."

"Anything."

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid. Do you understand what I'm saying?"

She nodded. There was nothing else she could do.

Oh, no. What if she thought this was because I really loved her. Something I desperately wished she would find out, but I couldn't. I fixed the mishap quickly.

"I'm thinking of Charlie of course. He needs you. Take car of yourself--- for him." Me. Take care of yourself for me.

"I will."

"And I'll make a promise in return. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go no with your life with out any more interferences from me. It will be like I never existed

She started to shake. I wanted to much just to comfort her. To take her in my arms and brush her hair with me hand and say 'It's all okay, your fine'.

"Don't worry," I continued," You're human---your memory is no more than a sieve. Time heals all wounds for your kind.'

"And you're memories?" It seemed like she hadn't said anything for years.

"Well----- we're easily distracted." I tried desperately to smile and a small twitch of the lips set upon my face.

I stepped back. "That's everything, I suppose. We won't bother you anymore."

The we seemed to stick with her.

"Alice is not coming back." I shook my head.

"No they are all gone. I stayed behind to tel you goodbye."

"Alice is gone?" Her voice was filled with disbelief.

"She wanted to say goodbye, but i convinced her a clean break would be better for you."

I looked at her face. Her flawless features. Her wavy dark brown hair and her eyes. The depth of the brown sucked me in. I stared at her for several was the last time I was ever going to see her.

"Goodbye, Bella." I spoke quietly.

"Wait!" Her voice chocked out of her mouth. Her pain. It cut me deeper than my own. She was reaching toward me. I took her wrists and clamped them to her sides. I pressed my lips lightly to her smooth forehead. I slayed there as long as I could without her noticing my pleasure.

"Take car of yourself." The line seemed so out of place.

Then after one more glance at the love of my life. Bella. I ran as fast as I could.

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