As the sun's rays shine through my window, I slowly open my eyes and look to see the beautiful clear blue morning sky. For a moment I feel at peace with my life. Like I have nothing to worry about. No bad memories haunting me, no problems, nothing. But when I look at my clock to check the time, I realize what days it is. Today was supposed to be one of the happiest days of my life. 5 years ago today I was supposed to be married to a man that I thought loved me. Someone who treated me as though I was the center of his world, and he the light of mine. I had waited my whole life for him to come along, to make me happy, and show me what love truly means and is. Like a stupid girl I am, I convinced myself that I could be enough for him. That I was somehow worthy enough of his love. It's on this same day that my world came crashing down, and the one man that I had ever loved broke my heart in more ways than one.

5 years ago….. August 1st

Today is the day. Today I get to marry the man of my dreams. Today I become Mrs. Christian Grey. Following tradition, and on Mia and Kate's strong insistence, I stayed at Carrick and Grace's house and Christian stayed at Escala. Even though Christian wasn't very happy about this decision, Mia knew his soft spots and got him to approve. As I slept in Christian's old room I see all the photos, and the decorations. Looking around I get a glimpse into the shared and unshared childhood past of Christian Grey, the man I love, and in a couple hours will be my husband.

All the ladies are gathered in Mia's room helping me to get ready for the wedding, along with several make-up artists. When I look into the mirror and see the final product, I am taken aback. I had always thought that I was average looking, and could never be as beautiful as a model or a movie star. As I look into the mirror, I am unsure if the person that I am looking at is really me. At this moment I truly feel beautiful, both inside and out. The thing that made this moment even better was when I put my wedding dress on. Looking in the mirror and seeing my reflection I felt like I was in a fairytale. Then I realized that all of my dreams were coming true. It felt like nothing could ruin this moment or this day. Just when everything finally seemed to be going right in my life, I never knew that it would all be destroyed so quickly by one letter.

Mia and Kate are helping me make adjustments to by dress, when there is a knock at the door. Mia cheerfully skips to the door, and before opening it says "Who is it?"

"It's Sawyer Ms. Grey. I have a letter for Ana from Mr. Grey." he says in a somewhat somber but serious tone. It has me wonder why, but I just assumed that he must be tired from all the work and time that he has put in since we started planning our wedding.

Sawyer hands Mia the envelope, she smiles at him, says thank you, and closes the door with utter care and grace. She then walks back over to me, with a big smile on her face.

"Delivery for the beautiful and soon to be Mrs. Grey." says Mia in somewhat of an overly cheerful tone. With excitement and anticipation I take the letter from Mia and open it to see what the man of my dreams and my future husband has written for me, only 2 hours before we say "I Do".

Before I read the letter I had a smile on my face, but as I read it my smile faded and turned into sadness. I tried as hard as I could to fight back the tears, and try not to collapse where I stand. But as hard as I tried I couldn't stay in the room any more. I dropped the letter and ran to the bathroom locking myself in and let the tears fall. All I could ask myself was how could I be so blind. Was I really so desperate to believe that a man like Christian really love and want to spend the rest of his life with someone like me. I can't hold in the tears anymore, all I feel is pain, heartache, and embarrassment. For now all I can do is cry, until I can't anymore.

Kate's POV

As I watch Ana read the letter, slowly I see her smile disappear and tears start to build in her eyes. She drops the letter and runs into the bathroom and locks herself in. All of us are concerned and wonder what is happening. I head to the bathroom door and knock, to ensure that my best friend is ok and try to help her in whatever way I can. She doesn't answer, all I hear is Ana crying and it breaks my heart. Mia, Grace, and I look at each other and exchange looks, trying to understand what is going on.

Mia walks over to where Ana was once happily standing, picks up the letter and starts to read it. She blinks several times, as if she can't believe what she is readying.

"I can't believe this." she said and looks to me and Grace. Grace and I both walk over to her with the same question on our mind. What is on the letter that has Ana so upset? When we reach Mia, we stand on both sides of her and look over her shoulders to read the letter that Christian had sent.

Dear Ana,

I don't know how we got to where we are. But what I do know is that I have to say something before I let this go on any further. I can't do this. I can't marry you. As hard as I tried to believe that I could become the man you think I am, I'm far from it. Like I told you from the moment that I held you in my arms, I'm no good for you. You should also know the truth, and the truth is that I am in love with someone else. Someone who accepts me for who I am, who gives me a sense of control, and is everything that I need and want.

Please know that I will always care about you in some way. But we are two different people from two different circumstances. I hope that you understand. Good-bye Ana.

-Christian Grey

How can he do this to her? Of all days he choose to do this to her on this day. The day of their wedding! All I can feel are a mixture of emotions. I feel anger toward Christian for doing something so horrible to my best friend. Who chooses to leave her in a letter, instead of choosing to be a man and face her. My heart also goes out to Ana, who has just had her heart ripped out after being the happiest I have ever seen her.

Grace is in utter shock and can't believe what is happening. She has her hands over her mouth, in utter astonishment and shock. "I can't believe this. After everything that has happened. Why? Christian has just made the biggest mistake of his life."

I walk back over to the bathroom door, with Ana still locked inside crying. After a few minutes of hearing Ana cry, I couldn't take it anymore and knocked once more.

"Ana please let me in. You don't have to say anything. Just let me in so that I know you're alright." I lean against the door frame and wait with the hope that she opens the door. I hear a click, telling me that the door is unlocked. Slowly I open the door and see Ana, my best friend sitting on the floor in tears. Instead of saying anything I choose to close the door behind me, sit next to her, slowly embrace her, and let her cry.

Present (APOV)

Ever since that day I have slowly tried to put my heart back together. The road has not been easy, but today I prove to myself that I am truly ready to move on. Today I move back to Seattle, a place that holds many memories, and the man who broke my heart.