Disclaimer: Naruto is not owned by me
A/N: After a long time sitting at home with this huge writer's block here I am introducing yet..ANOTHER story.
Passing through the earth and sky. When I land I think only of you, and you FLY.
Mayo-Chin presents:
Clock Work Mirrors
Chapter One: That dream that can never be.
And I held your hand thinking we were going to make it. Make it out that subway door, make it out of high school. Make it out together. Little did I know that we would never make it out that door together, we would never step in nor out of that high school, and we weren't going to hold hands for the rest of our lives. It took us one minute, one second and all my dreams with you disappeared. You left, the train derailed, and our life was officially over. That minute spent looking at your horror stricken face as our bodies tumble everywhere. The single moment where a body flew into us and made me let you go. That second where you reached out to me, where you were struck hard. That single place in time where everything about you froze, where you closed your eyes and decidedly to never open them again. I closed my eyes too, dreaming about holding you, about us marrying, about us living our lives together with kids, about us running in a meadow and about us, sitting in chairs, enjoying the sun as we only think about our life together and we would smile and know that no matter what, we'd always have each other.
Sadly, that dream ended too. I woke up, 3 weeks after that chilling event where it ended my life. I woke up looking at teary eyed friends, solemn faces and wondered why I got out and you were left behind. That night I cried, every muscle in me shook as I sobbed. You weren't coming back. I gripped the blankets, the bedding and I sobbed. Knowing that you would never return to my side, and all those memories with you would fade, I couldn't stand it. I cried and cried until the nurses came and placed constraints on me. I cried till I my tears where nothing but large gasps, until my eyes were dried and red. My life was over. You weren't coming back.
It took me another week before I was released from that place. I missed her funeral; I couldn't even see her for that last time. What a tragic present fate has given me. They take her away, not even leaving me a single ounce of her in my mind. School was nauseating. Every corner I turn would have sad eyes directed to me, pitiful looks from people thinking they understand. Every corner there would be a memory of her, of us, of laughter, of tears, of pure bliss. I squeezed my eyes shut, I wasn't stupid, living in her memory wouldn't get me anywhere, but it was hard. I didn't think I'd be here, regretting all the things I could have said to her when I had the chance to. To be here regretting all the possibilities of making even more memories of her, and of us. Our laughter barrels through my ears, dreaming about chasing each other in the halls and arguing about random crap. A body crashes into me and the bell rings. Fate won't even let me remember her now.
Up on the rooftop I lay there staring at the sky. Are you up there, watching me? I drape an arm across my face to block the sun. I dream about us, every night. Our friends still solemn try their best to move on. You leaving was a huge wake up call to us. Cherish our memories with each other, cherish the feelings and the people around us. Why didn't fate give us enough time. Time was never enough when it comes to you. Why didn't I cherish you longer, why did everything have to disappear just when I realized there is nothing more important in this world then you? Why?
The door slams open and I sit up quickly. Has fate heard my pleas? Have they returned to you? All that stands there is a girl, her brown hair swept around in the wind. She steps out to the sunlight, away from the shadows and looks at me. She looks almost exactly like you, only with brown hair and brown eyes. I called out your name and she looks at me blankly. Her stare, her very blank stare reminds me of mine when I lost you. She turns around, hair still being picked up by the wind and walks back to the door and she is gone. Was that you, coming back to me in another form? Should I chase her calling your name? Would you respond?
That girl from the rooftop I discovered was newly transferred over from another high school. She appeared when I was still in the hospital. Maybe she really was you, coming back for me. I've asked around, people say she never talks, only quietly watching, watching everyone's laughter with a hint of regret. Is she you? Looking at everything you've left behind? Apparently she has been alone for the past 3 weeks she has been here. Is that you? Waiting for us to come get you because you won't settle for anyone but us? Both Ino and Hinata has taken pity on her and invited her to join us at our table. Her introduction was bittersweet. She never spoke, it was Ino who introduced her to us, all she did was nod her head and look down. Your passing is still fresh in our mind, a dulling ache of losing you, but Ino insist she isn't here to replace you, she looks up and her blank eyes flicker with sadness and understanding. Her name is TenTen, named after the heavens. Is she you? A gift given to us for taking you away?
A month since that girl's introduction, I have never heard her speak. I hear Ino and Hinata giggle at jokes and see her tiny smile. It has been two months since you've gone and everyone is moving on. Our group has changed. Hinata is louder and stronger, no longer the meek girl you protected. Ino is less loud, less bossy and more studious. Neji is still the same, only less harsh. Shikamaru sleeps less, more attentive and Naruto is never changing, still the same Naruto, before and after you. And me? I'm still stuck on you, every laughter I give brings me back to you. Every thought is plagued with you. Why do I feel betrayed when I see that girl smile at our jokes. Is it because I feel she is replacing you? But she is you isn't she?
Don't walk further from our dreams. I will be chasing you endlessly Sakura.
- Sasuke Uchiha
