I hadn't been like them, or with them for that long mind you. But I changed because she gave me hope, because she was waiting for me that day. I didn't know it back than, but when I found her, everything changed.

I thought it was a normal existence, moving from place to place, starting our ages as young as we could pass for. Attending high-school, year after boring year. For centuries we went on this way, with her always at my side.

After we settled in Forks, and Edward found Bella, married her, and had a child. We wondered what would happen, but she was always at my side. Through all my turmoil and pain, my frightening little monster was with me.

So when she left, it startled me, it threw me down into such a deep depression. My 'family' feared that I would do what Edward had done when he thought Bella had died, go to the Volturi. How could I quench their fears? I couldn't.

What could I possibly do? The one person that kept me grounded to this existence, to this lifestyle of animal feeding, well she was gone. How was I going to cope without her?

Prelude: It was any other day, rainy, cloudy. The perfect weather for our home in Forks Washington. But something was wrong, devestatingly wrong. My form sprung up from the bed that I usually shared with my wife. Only she wasn't in the bed with me, in fact her side was made up and empty. "A-Alice?" Panic creeped into my voice, and my emotions swirled with the feeling.

Alarm had struck my family downstairs, they had heard me call her name. My sister Rosalie was there in my room in an instant. "Jasper, what's wrong? Wh-" She stopped, feeling the panic and fear emanating forth from me. She was stunned into silence, shaking with fear as she fell to her knee's.

Emmett and Edward were next to arrive, their eyes popping wide at the emotions through the room. Emmett growled at the sight of Rosalie shaking in fear upon the ground, but he knew it wasn't my fault. I couldn't control myself right now, my precious Alice wasn't around. I felt Edward place a hand on my shoulder. "Calm down Jasper...your causing us all to feel this...we'll find her, I swear it!"

I blinked, calming myself down some, at least enough for Rosalie to stand and compose herself. "We better get downstairs and figure this out..." She whispered, as she clung to Emmett for support. I felt bad for my sister, and my brother's. I hadn't meant to cause those feelings to spread, I was usually able to keep myself in control.

As we all neared downstairs, my feelings of fear returned in full force. I had expected my wife to be there, smiling and shaking her head at me. I was dead wrong! Alice...where did you go? I thought outloud inside of my head, earning me a sad stare from Edward. "Jasper...we'll find her." I wanted to believe him, but my entire hope for living was gone.

Esme, Carlisle, Edward, Bella, Emmett, Rosalie, Renesmee, and even the mutt Jacob all stood around feeling the panic and depression set inside of me and the room. "I'm sorry...I don't mean to cause these feelings...its just...my..." I trailed off, falling onto the couch with a heavy thud. Come home Alice...I need you more than you know...why did you leave...Alice...

Okay, well I know it probably sucks and all. But hey, cut me some slack, I'ma southerner ya'll. I was trying to go for more of the feeling of the day that Alice first dissapeared. And than within the next chapter or two I'll go into more of Jasper feeling abandoned, and how long Alice has been gone for. If ya'll have any ideas, please review and let me know. I appreaciate it ya'll, don't ride me too hard though.

-Jazz