Okai well first fanfic and at a mature level at that XD so please be patient with meh senpais~ ^-^

Disclaimer: unfortunately I don't own black butler (Kuroshitsuji) nor do I gain anything from this apart from slight writing confidence if that counts as anything… doubt it but still… ALSO Ciel is about 16 in this one because I'd feel really weird writing it when he's 12-13 so yeah ^.^

'Meow': thoughts

"Meow": speech

Meow: actually story line

Meow: letter or similar

Ciels POV

Waking up from a night's sleep, bad sleep if I'm honest, to see a tray with my breakfast on it 'Sebastian…' he always does everything without me even knowing let alone being able to see him unless I order him to do something personally. I sit up and stretch for a minute or two and realise that Sebastian was standing next to me, those crimson eyes 'Why do I feel like this for him? For one he is my butler and for a second he is a demon as well!'

Looking up at him again to find him gazing down at me with a slight hidden smirk across his face, panic washed over me as I saw a note on my desk, almost out of instinct Sebastian walked over and brought it to me: Earl of Phantomhive, I wish to inform you that Lady Elizabeth will be visiting for the week and will be staying at your estate, I do hope this doesn't prove to be an inconvenience at this time for you. Sincerely Madame Red. P.S. see you soon Ciel.

Sebastian must have realised that I as distressed because he asked: "Master? What seems to be the problem?"

"Elizabeth is coming to stay for the week… this is very inconvenient…"

"Well if I may suggest that you just get this over with, surely it cannot be that bad young master"

"Not that bad? Where have you been for the last year or so?!"

"Sir I believe that I am usually doing the tasks that need attention, which does include over-seeing your well-being. Also if I may say master but you seem rather distant today, is something else on your mind?"

"No… nothing that you need to worry yourself over, thank you for my meal. You are dismissed for the time being."

With that he left me to eat in peace. But also it was not so peaceful… 'Sebastian… that's what's on my mind, but I can't express myself because of so many factors. And also the Elizabeth situation. I have an idea…' it was the middle of winter so it's quite cold at this time of year, opening my windows and stepping out on to the balcony I start to feel cold already and slowly start shivering. Soon after I went back inside to a slightly surprised Sebastian… "Young master. May I ask what you are doing out there?"

"Um… I felt really hot and wanted some fresh air so I went outside…" Shortly after I said this he came over with a blanket and wrapped it around me, I caught his scent on the blanket and held it closer as he picked me up and carefully set me back on my bed, kneeling in front of me so he was at my eye-level, it was too tempting to lean over and kiss him over and over but I kept myself contained and didn't make a move. "What am I going to do with you hm?" 'I can't take it much longer…. He's too gorgeous to resist…' Before I knew what I had done I had my arms around his neck catching him off guard and kissed him as much as I could. Once reality hit me, I let go I hid in the blanket so he wouldn't see my embarrassment, but once I had it was pulled off me and I was in a warm embrace. Sebastian's. The pure shock was unreal, he was hugging me and it wasn't even an order, it was a choice he made in response to my actions. "Se- Sebastian? I'm sorry… I didn't mean to-"I was suddenly silenced by his lips on mine and my mind went blank. When he pulled away I felt lost and empty, like I had lost my heart and I had… to him.

When he stood up standing in front of me I could see the hidden smirk starting to appear on his face, frowning to hide my enjoyment: "Sebastian, let's not speak of this again… that's an order…" 'I suppose it's for the best that I try to stay away and forget everything' "If you wish my lord, shall I go and fetch your clothes for today? Also you have a meeting with the Undertaker today about the current investigation regarding the murder victims"

"Yes, I suppose that I must attend and then could you attend your duties as per usual I would like some time alone if you please"

"Yes master"

After getting dressed and finishing the rest of my breakfast (now cold) I made my way downstairs, to make my way into town. The journey was a long one and it was overly awkward for me and Sebastian, I could practically feel the tension surrounding us. "Something the matter master?"

"No it's nothing important" 'but it was…' I wanted to repeat this mornings 'activities' but in a more intimate manner. He must've sensed that I was troubled after he asked me that because he looked at me with some concern in his eyes, I met his eyes at that moment the carriage stopped. We must've reached the Undertaker's morgue, but it was a quick journey I admit, however it was worth it to spend some time with Sebastian not having to do any work at the time either. He opened the door and stepped out, holding the door open for me like usual 'He's acting like nothing happened…'it hurt a little thinking about it like that but I had to get into my usual cold self before we met with Undertaker.

For what seemed like hours we consulted Undertaker on the murders and he gave us the needed information to carry on the investigation. But we finally started the journey home, and I only realised that I would not see Sebastian until tomorrow because I had ordered him to leave me alone for the rest of the day. So I started a conversation: "Sebastian? You cannot lie can you?"

"No, I cannot young master. Why do you ask?" He said this in a rather curious tone which was unusual even for him.

"No reason in particular I was just curious… but I would like to ask something"

"Anything you wish my lord"

"Can we play a game when we return home? But I would like to make a new rule, that the winner can do anything they desire to the loser, also this is not an order it is a request or a challenge"

"Yes my lord"

At this I lit up with happiness and anticipation, I chose this because I know he won't win against me because of the fear of annoying and upsetting me in the process. Once we reached home I set up my chess board and waited for him to join me, and not a minute later there was knock on the door and Sebastian entered the room. He came and sat opposite me, I raised my gaze to meet his and made my move. 5 minutes later I cornered his King and took his Queen but he also had my King cornered… my next move will decide the winner, this was intense, even Sebastian was tensing up in anticipation but he knew deep down that I would win the game. I moved my Rook to check-mate his King and knocked it over in victory. Smiling I looked up and met his gaze which had a hint of curiosity in it "Well it seems that you have beaten me my lord, what would you like to do with me then?" I pulled him closer by his tie and kissed him, hopefully he got the message by my response. "I think I put that across very well don't you?" smirking at him. There was an unusual feel to this but that's probably because I've never been with a man before. "The fact that I have beaten you means I can do what I want with you so…" pulling him close again so our noses were practically touching "I think you know what I want to do"

"It seems I have an idea sir" at this he lifted me out of the chair and I wrapped my legs around his waist with my arms around his neck, almost clinging on for dear life it would seem. He settled me down on the bed so I was laying down and laid himself next to me. Not satisfied with this I got up and sat on his lap, slowly undoing his tie and throwing it to the floor. He moved his hands to take off my coat (which I didn't realise I even had on) then moved to undo my shirt with ease. Once I got over the sudden chill of the cold I started to undo his waistcoat and shirt to have them join the growing pile of clothing on the floor, but as if on cue the doorbell rang 'why now!' "I suppose I had better see to whoever that is sir?"

"If you must…" I think he could sense I wasn't happy about it but he had to do his job, the other three wouldn't, he redressed himself and left the room to see to our guest or visitor. A few minutes later there was a soft knock at the door "Master are you in a decent state?" I quickly redressed and went to open the door. Standing there with Sebastian was Elizabeth! He looked slightly uncomfortable as he stood there. "Elizabeth- uh what are you doing here so early? I thought you were coming later"

"I came early to see you silly!" she sounded overly cheerful as per usual… she ran to give me a hug but Sebastian stopped her before she could: "Sorry my lady but the young master seems to have caught an illness so he is supposed to stay here and recover, I'm sure your mother wouldn't want you going home with ill now would she?"

"No I suppose not, well I guess I'll come back in a few days and see you again!"