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Authors note- This is my first fan-fiction story, so please be kind and suggestions and comments will be greatly appreciated. I am open to suggestions if you have any ideas for how you want the story to go. This is a work in progress, Spencer is struggling with her feelings and how to deal with them. I hope all of you like it. Thanks
So Ashley and me have been friends for over a year now, I was a nervous, unsure, and slightly shy, she was bold, borderline cocky, and oh so beautiful and she brought me completely out of my shell.
I feel like I can say anything to anybody now, I stand up to my mom now and challenge her bigoted ideals, I dress the way I want to, and I hang out with who I want to and its all because she has given me that confidence that I never knew possible but of course there is one thing I just don't have the audacity to do no matter how hard I try, I can't tell her that the sun rises and sets on her smile, that when she looks at me with those fiery chocolate brown eyes that I melt and that when I see her with someone else, when I imagine someone else keeping her warm at night that my heart twists and breaks in to a million little pieces, a million little pieces that only her laughter can piece together.
God do I want to tell her, how I long to kiss her to feel her body writhing beneath me, but there is 100 reasons why my feelings no matter how strong they are, are not enough, they may never be enough to fight these demons inside my head, to take on the world and all the hate, to finally be happy to finally tell her I love her.
So for now maybe forever I'm going to be her friend , I'm going to keep my self from kissing her no matter how beautiful she looks, I'm going to keep my temper down, I swear I'm not going to punch the next girl that hits on her, I'm not even going to give her next flavor of the week dirty looks, ok maybe I will but hey its my grave I might as well lay in it but the real question is for how long , for how long can I keep these emotions bottled up, I'm like a time bomb and its only a matter of time before I explode.
Feedback would be great, i should have more up for you soon.