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This is my first fic in Sailormoon, so be kind!!! Enjoy!!Goodbye, My Love- Chapter 1
(Darien's Point Of View)""You are a total jerk!" The words echoed in my head. They were painful, especially from my love, but I agreed to them. I was a jerk. The biggest jerk ever born, perhaps. How could I have done something like this to an innocent, beautiful girl? She was my love. She was the only reason I still wanted to be in this twisted world. Now I lost her. 'She helped me when I was beyond depressed. And this is how you repay her!?' I mentally yelled at myself. She must hate me now!!! I did all that….for what?!!…just because of some stupid dream that I don't even know if I should believe… What is wrong with me? How could I have just given her up like that?!!!
I brought up a hand and grabbed a fistful of hair in frustration. Then I sighed. 'No use thinking about it now…it's over…she won't take you back again…just let her go Darien…' Leaning on the side of the car I was in, I thought back to yesterday, the day in which I officially broke up with her…
"Serena, why are you here? I told you, there is no more of us! There is just you and me. We're not a couple anymore! Don't you understand?"
"Darien…But why? What did I do wrong? Please tell me…. I'll fix it. I'll do anything for you. You know that. Just tell me what I'm doing wrong," she voiced silently.
We were on the sidewalk. Our voices echoing into the streets. But no one was there to witness the scene. I felt like hugging her. To have her in my arms. But, I held myself back and put on a stern, cold look, hoping she would just leave, before I could hurt her more than she already was. I don't know if it was possible to hurt her anymore…. But, I didn't want to see her cry or look crushed. She was just making things harder. After a long, awkward silence, I found the courage to speak.
"Serena, just leave, please. There is no more us. Just forget about it! I don't love you! I don't even like you! I don't want to see you again!!!"
My voice raised with each word, and with my desperation. There, I had said it. With that done, I turned. But I still saw the shock and heartbreak etched on her pretty face. It made me walk even faster. Then, she called out to me.
That was when she said it. Loud and clear. "You are a total jerk!!"
The words stabbed me hard in my already broken heart. I ran. My last glance at her, she was on the floor, tears streaming down her cheeks. I turned away, unable to look at her. In the safety of my apartment, the doors closed, I collapsed. Unable to control my sorrow any longer, I cried, a thing a man should not have done. But I couldn't help it. I had lost her.
I can still see the hurt in her eyes. God, I wish I could make it all go away, but there is no way in doing so. I have to leave. She needs to go on. I don't deserve her, and she deserves someone much better than me… I love you, Serena… Always will…Please forgive me someday… And I left…
Please R&R and maybe I'll continue!!
-Teenslayer