Chapter 1 Only One Wish For You

Sam followed close behind as the approached the gate under fire, nothing new to them but it was something they preferred to avoid.

"Daniel dial the gate!" yelled Jack for a distance, as he watched the Stargate activate. All of the team made it back through as Jaffa flooded the gate room firing as the came. Jack looked around to check everyone was okay but Sam was no where in his sight.

Sanding behind Jack stood Sam bowing her head as she looked at her stomach as it smoked. She was hit.

"CARTER!" yelled Jack as he watched her body fall to the ground, oblivious to his surroundings he ran to her side as Janet ran up the ramp.

"Get her onto the gurney" ordered Janet as Jack lifted her up, her blood soaked into his shirt, watching as they wheeled her through the doors, she slowly disappeared.

His heart sank to the floor he let her down, the whole team down. He was supposed to watch her back, to make sure she didn't get hurt, but he had failed her and now he cold lose her forever, one mistake he made and possibly he wouldn't be able to undo.

Jack stormed out of the gate room ignoring Teal'c, Daniel and General Hammond; he had Sam's blood on his hands he needed to get rid of it.

Five hours later and Sam was out of theatre, and wheeled into intensive care. Jack looked upon her still body, she was pail and looked weak, and it was because of him.

"You shouldn't blame yourself for this you know" said Janet as she walked up beside him, placing a hand on his shoulder.

"I am to blame doc, I was supposed to watch her back, and now look at her she is there because of me" replied Jack as he focussed on her face.

"You can't blame yourself for something you don't control, she wouldn't want you to be thinking this way would she" replied Janet as she sat on the side of Sam's bed and looked at Jack.

"I fell behind Janet and she covered my ass so I could get ahead" replied Jack as he took hold of Sam's hand.

"She was doing her job, as were you all, it was accident" replied Janet.

"An accident yeah I'd like to think that" replied Jack as he stood up out of the chair. Placing a kiss on her forehead. "You didn't see that" added Jack as he left the room.

"I never do" replied Janet.

Jack walked down the corridors of the SGC trying to avoid as many people as possible, going straight to his quarters, entering her shut the door and sank to the floor, holding his head in his hands. He felt worse than before he had only seen Sam in that condition once and he never wanted to see her like that again. Stolen moments he may never be able to get back if he lost his one love, moments he would never share with any one else, moments he never wanted to loose.

Jack didn't sleep well that night, his eyes closed and nightmares flooded his dreams, slowing taking over. He was on a planet and Sam was with him searching for the unknown, they came under attack, and were separated. Hours later they were reunited but Sam wasn't the same, she was different she was a goa'uld, as she bought the ribbon device to his head as she tortured him. Standing beside her was Apophis, laughing as Jack slowly grew weak, calling her name for her to stop but it was useless. He died over and over unable to get free from his nightmare.

Jack woke up in a sweat screaming Sam's name as he told himself it was only a dream.

Rubbing his face Jack walked into the infirmary no one was by Sam's side she was alone. Walking in Jack sat beside Sam on her bed, stroking the hair that covered her face out of the way.

"Sam you have to wake up, please" pleaded Jack as he took her hand into his own and placed a gently kiss onto her hand. He knew she wouldn't wake up right that moment but he needed it to be soon. Jack was falling apart and only one person could put him back together.

A further four days passed as Sam's condition improve slightly, moved out of intensive care and into a private room, jack hadn't left her side once. He watched her chest rise and fall, breath by breath, beat by beat, he body fought on.

Jack took her eyes off her for a few seconds as his hand started to contract, looking down Sam was squeezing his hand. For the first time in five days a smile danced across Jack's face.

"Sam can you hear me, open your eyes please" said Jack softly as her grip on his hand grew tighter and tighter, Sam slowly started to open her eyes. The smile on Jack's face grew bigger and bigger every second Sam started to regain conscious.

"Jack?" said Sam as she only just managed to speak.

"I'm here, you ok?" asked Jack as pain swept across her body. "Wait I'll get Janet" added Jack as he let go of her hand and picked up the phone. "DR Fraiser to isolation room four" said Jack as the airmen gave Janet the message.

Janet walked in to see Sam awake, and Jack by her side. "Sam good to see your awake how are feeling?" asked Janet as she checked her heart beat and blood pressure.

"Sore" replied Sam not letting go of Jack's hand.

"Ok well I'll get some pain relief for that do you remember what happened at all?" asked Janet as she administered some pethidine into her drip.

"I remember saving his ass" replied Sam as she remembered, Jack smiled at her humour, "Running back through the gate, I looked down and it all went black" finished Sam as she looked at Jack.

"You were hit twice in the back by a staff blast your lucky to be alive" replied Janet as Jack hung his head taking his eyes off Sam.

"It's not your fault Jack" said Sam as Jack raised his head to meet her gaze.

"Your lying in that bed because of me, it is my fault" replied Jack.

"I was doing my job, nothing more so stop feeling sorry for yourself" replied Sam which was enough for Jack to slap himself in the side of the head, and telling himself to wake up.

"Maybe your right" replied Jack.

"I'm always right" smiled Sam as Jack leaned down to place a kiss on her head.

"Sometimes" replied Jack.

Sam stared up at Jack there was one question she needed to ask. "Am I going to be able to walk again" asked Sam as his face went neutral. Searching his face for an answer she received none.

"They don't know first staff blast hit just two centimetres away from your spine but the second one was closer, there was a bit of damage to your nerves and muscles" replied Jack as he recalled Janet telling him of the severity of her injuries.

"How close Jack, please" replied Sam.

"Three millimetres" replied Jack as he watched a tear slide down her cheek.

"Been through worse huh" replied Sam as she raised her hand to cup his cheek.

"I don't think so Sam" replied Jack as he looked into her eyes.

"We don't know what the future holds" replied Sam as Jack leant down to hold her.

"We will always have this though" replied Jack as he dug his head into her shoulder.

Jack watched Sam slowly drift back to sleep as her body succumbed to the exhaustion. Janet walked back into the room to see Jack leaving.

"I told her doc" said Jack as he brushed past her and out of the door. When Jack was told of how severe Sam's recovery was going to be, he took it even worse than Sam did. If she was never able to walk again he would never be able to forgive himself.

Until further notice SG1 was on stand down until Sam made her recovery, and was able to rejoin, until then Daniel and Teal'c went on missions with other SG teams.