I have seen in movies and books where there is a character who went through something traumatizing. Like rape, abusive boyfriend, death of a family member or something they had witnessed and through the whole story they're struggling to get over it. They have nightmares or flashbacks. I used think why can't they get over it if it happened a long time ago. Can't they just let it go.
Now I know that it's not that simple.
Now I know that traumatizing experience are very hard to get over.
I thought not talking about it and keeping it in would be what best just like everyone else did. Wrong move because it only builds up inside of you.
I thought pushing people away was best. Wrong move because if you push to hard you will have nobody in the end.
I sometimes I used to think what could I do to make myself feel better but I didn't realize it wasn't about what I could do. It was about who could do something for me.
I learned at one point in your life your going to have open your self up to someone. Maybe even let them into your heart.