I'm not usually a big fan of songfics, but this song immediately made me think of Harry, and it's been pestering me in the back of my mind for months, so I figured I'd give it a go. Big thanks to Clover Bay for beta-reading this for me :)
The lyrics included in this story are from the song Machine Gun, by Sara Bareilles. Her creative genius, not mine.
Machine Gun
by: 93 Diagon Alley
Dear Harry,
I've been thinking about what you told me, and I felt the need to say my piece. I'm sorry it's through a letter, but it's the only way I know of that you won't stop me halfway through in protest.
Tell me off in a letter, completely ignore me
Gettin' high off of saying why you don't adore me?
Baby, please
You want my blunt, honest opinion? You're being totally selfish, and stupid. What, am I a liability to you? Is that what you see me as?
I'm well-versed in how I might be cursed
I don't need it articulated
Harry James Potter. You think I don't know what I'm getting myself into? This is my war just as much as it is yours. You seem to forget that I've been possessed by Voldemort, too. Not to mention I come from a family of blood traitors.
Stand in line wastin' all of your time just to hate me
Every dime gone to ways you can find that might bait me
And drag me down
Sight set proudly, bring me to the ground see
You love to be somebody's enemy
You're not the only one in this fight. All these people in the Order? And the D.A.? They're prepared to go into this war with you, Harry. In fact, they're insistent upon it. And they're well aware of the possible consequences.
Maybe nobody loved you when you were young
Maybe boy, when you cry, nobody ever comes
Will you try it once, give up the machine gun?
Machine gun, yeah
I get it; I really do. Your whole life, you've never really had a family. Every time you found someone to fill that void, they were forcibly ripped from your life, permanently. So I can understand why you'd try to go to such lengths to keep me safe. It's almost flattering, really.
Locked and loaded, you're practically floating away now
In your fortress you feel like you're more or less safe now
But let me say
I don't mean harm, oh, but baby, you'd be charming
If you'd come undone, get back where you started from
But Harry, really. Shutting yourself away from your happiness, from the people you love, it's only
going to bring you more pain.
Maybe nobody loved you when you were young
Maybe boy, when you cry, nobody ever comes
Will you try it once, give up the machine gun?
Machine gun
You're fooling yourself, Harry. You need all the happiness, love, and support you can get. And we're willing to give it.
Never mind how you've rationed your time, and the battle is underway
Maybe times are gonna change
Don't just hide in the silence behind what you've really been trying to say
This is a battle for the entire Wizarding World, Harry. Everyone's livelihood is at stake, not just yours, or mine, or my family's.
What a skill, baby
Aiming to kill me
With words you don't mean
So when you tell me you don't want to be with me because it'd make me a target...it's hogwash. Absolute rubbish. I'm already a target; always have been. And you know what? I'm okay with that – because if it affords me a little piece of happiness, be it through being with you, or my family – then stick a target on my forehead, I'm game. All we have for sure in this world is love, Harry. You'd do well to remember that.
Just think about it. That's all I ask.
Maybe nobody loved you when you were young
Maybe boy, when you cry, nobody ever comes
Will you try it once, give up the machine gun?
Machine gun, yeah.
Love,
Ginny
Posted: 21 June 2011
Word Count: 617
