Susan's Struggles

It's been three months since the return from Narnia and Susan had changed. She wasn't the same as she had been before Narnia, and everyone was worried about her. She started to change her friends then her clothes but the scariest of all was the change in her personality. Ever since she was told she would never return she had been acting strangely; she stayed out late and didn't come home until early in the morning. Her new friends were consider the bad kids in their school. She started to smoke and drink but worst of all Peter thought she was doing drugs and he couldn't do anything to stop her. He tried but couldn't break through.

"Susan, where are you going?"

"Its none of your business stay out of my life." With that she ran out the door.

Peter made the choice to take a train to the Professor's, he had to get back to Narnia to get the only one to help Susan and that was Caspian. But before he could even leave his room he was pull back by none other than Aslan and with him was Caspian.

"Caspian you have to come with you need to help Susan you're the only who can heal her heart."

"I can't do that High King Peter I can't abandon my people not even to help her."

But Peter knew deep down in his eyes that he wanted to but wasn't allowed and with that one look into Caspian's eyes he saw nothing but love for Susan. Peter hung his head in defeat as he walked towards the way out when Aslan stop him.

"Peter, Susan must learn on her own how to heal her heart."

"But what if she doesn't learn it in time," Peter said before he turned and walked away.

Meanwhile, Susan was at a party, she was smoking and drinking and watched a man approach her.

"Do you want some of this? It will make all your pain go away," he said.

"What is it?" She asked with a smile on her face.

"It's called heroin and if you really have a lot of pain and you want to cut yourself, all this will make everything go away and more." Susan looked at the drug in his hand and took it, she injected herself with the drug and to her it made all her pain go away the pain ever knowing Caspian.

The next morning Susan came stumbling in and ran to the bathroom where she started to throw up. She started to cry when she finished. She went up to her room and took out her diary and wrote: I hate Aslan I hate him so much why did he ever have to send me to Narnia why did he make me meet Caspian make me fall in love I wish we had never came to Narnia I wish that I never meet and fell in love with Caspian I wish that he never held my heart I wish Caspian wasn't even born. With that she never cried again when it came to Caspian and Narnia, she took out a knife and made one little cut. Then she realized that the man was right it made all her pain go away so she made another cut and another until most of her left arm was full of cuts. She quickly changed in to a long sleeve shirt and went to the door.

She decided to go into town where she would meet up with some friends to do some shopping and give herself a makeover. Once in town she met up with her friends they helped her choose all new clothes, many tended to be the color black. She dyed her hair black and bought new makeup that was also black. They convinced her to pierce her ears , she even got a tattoo.

She became a rebel she was barley home and when she was, she would make fun of her siblings by saying that Narnia was made up.

"You guys need to grow up stop being so childish."

"We're not the one being childish Susan you are! You need to realize that what you are doing is wrong and it needs to stop!" Cried Peter.

"I don't have to listen to you any more Peter and I am sick and tired of this family I never want to see you again."

With that statement Lucy started to cry, she didn't understand and was hurt that Susan would say something like that. Peter was furious that Susan would say that.

"Good riddance, I wouldn't want a druggy for a sister any way."

Susan didn't care she just walked to door and to her party.

She started doing crack and weed along with the heroin and she was still cutting herself, drinking but the one thing she would do was have sex and no one was happy with her they all thought that she was stupid. The reason was she couldn't help herself but feel that her first time was meant for Caspian and no one else but she tried to push that thought out of her head and convince herself that he doesn't exist.

After a few more days of her crazy parties, Susan started to get a fever and she passed out in the middle of the room no one cared they continue to do what they were doing. When suddenly Caspian came into the room and grabbed Susan. He carried her of outside and took her home or in a sense his home, there he was determined to make her better and nothing was going to stop him.

He gently laid her on his bed and whispered "Susan, what has happened to you?"