It wasn't that Heero didn't try to give me everything I wanted and more, it was just that he couldn't. I couldn't always ask either. How did you go about telling someone that you needed to be cuddled and listened to more?
I think that is where Wufei came in. Not like that, what we did, it wasn't sexual. It was about love, but nothing more than love between friends. He gave me what I needed. He was my listener, and the one that held me when I was down.
Heero gave me affection, but he was rough around the edges himself, and still so much a soldier. Hell, sometimes I couldn't even remain in the same bed with him on bad nights. Normally it was only if he just came back from an extended mission with the Preventers, or when something triggered a nightmare.
Which is why it was a natural thing for us both to ask Wufei to move in with us. Of course he was shocked by the offer, and looked confused, but he was my bestfriend. Calm and controlled, but still open enough to be the scholar he had been for years.
He also had a job at a local dojo, and wasn't inclined to go running off planet or having to take missions that left him gone for months sometimes. When I needed comfort, he was there.
Some might find it inconceivable that we'd be able to sleep together at night, curled together, and not be IN love. It wasn't like that, and Heero understood, and wasn't inclined to be jealous of our close friendship. It wasn't unusual for him to tell me not to be stubborn because of our relationship, that he wasn't feeling betrayed and it was okay to go to Wufei for comfort when I needed it.
I guess that was why people outside of our close knit group seemed to think that me and Wufei were a couple, not me and Heero.