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Hi my name is April o'neil and I'm 16 and this is a story about how my life changed from Bad to good through determination and how I proved my self to five family members of mine that I'm not fragile. I'm a deadly human being now, this is my usual summer holiday schedule :

6:00-wake up at the lair, get dressed and have a breakfast eating race with my brothers

7:00-train with master splinter in the dojo room for 3 hours

10:00-help Mikey annoy Raph and watch space heroes with Leo

1:00-eat pizza and hang with donnie in his lab for hours on end

5:00-eat pizza gyoza and make up a plan for topside patrol

10:00-say goodbye to them and go to bed because there is nothing let for me to do

Then the whole day repeats it's self, now you think that might be fun and It was months ago but I have grown tired of it but this night was a little different since tonight I was fighting for my life. I swear my heart was about to explode when I thought I was a goner looking into my brothers eyes until a gleam of hope came to me, how did I get to be in this way you ask well you see it all happened a couple of months ago in the lair...

"hi donnie what are you doing?" "Oh hey April I'm just looking over Leo's battle plans for tonight" he said with a calm happy voice as he never stopped looking at the plan sheet "ooooh hey donnie I want to ask you a question?" "Oh sure April what is it" "oh well I was wondering if I could join you tonight I mean I hardly go up topside with you anymore since we beat karai a couple of months ago in the park with that weird kraang solider and well I thought I need a bit of fresh air what you think?" "Oh well April I don't know you see..." Donnie began to answer but little did they know Leo was listening to there little conversation and decided to but in "hey April don what you talking about then" said Leo looking up at April "oh hey Leo I was just asking donnie If I can go topside since it's been months since I went up and well it's pretty boring on my own here" "I don't know April since you see if the shredder and kraang want you then it's best you stay here when you are out of harms way and anyway were not gone that long just a couple of hours" "but Le-" said April with disappointment in her eyes but before she could say anything else donnie butted in "April he's right you must stay here where your safe and anyway Leo the plans all look good want to head out" donnie quickly try to change the subject "we will see you later April" said donnie "HEY ! GUYS ! Come on we got to go" said Leo with a stern voice on trying to sound all tough and as he left the lab donnie followed.

They left April to her thoughts but just when she thought they left she heard whispers ahead and thanks to master splinters training she could hear them without being near them Raph was the first she heard "what and she just believed you haha that's soooo gullible of her and I thought she was the witty one" "hey Raph shut up it's not her fault she's a little clumsy" said Mikey pushing Raph a little which did nothing "a little clumsy Mikey she always gets in our way when shes in battle with us to be honest she should do more training before even considers herself a kunoichi yet I mean she has hardly any training and she sucks to be honest with you" "RAPH she does not suck" "oh come off it don you know she's clumsy and you know it" "well..."said donnie scratching the back of his neck and looking down but before he could respond April walked out from the other side of the room and shouted "what you think im not a good kunoichi and I'm clumsy?" everything went silent as they stood there in shock that she heard that "don? I'm waiting" she said with attitude on her voice with tears welling in her eyes but before he could answer master splinter came in and saw April welling up hardly keeping herself standing straight "april what's wrong?" "Don't worry about me master splinter in fact you don't have to worry about me ever again I'm leaving for good this time" and as April stormed through the brothers, Mikey gently grabbed her on her arm and said "April please don't leave we didn't mean anything by it" but before she said anything she swatted her arm out of his hand and turned around "don't worry you won't have to worry about me getting in your way again" and she turned and left with echoes of them saying "no come back it's dangerous or like no April we love you don't leave us sis" but she never turned back and as soon as she got out the lair, she ran all the way back to her apartment since she felt like she didn't want her aunt to ask her questions and when she got there she just hid her face in the pillow and cried all night.

She woke up with a wet face so she got Out of bed got dark purple (almost black) hair dye she had a couple of months ago from her godparents thinking it was a good present for her birthday when she got it she never thought she would ever use it but she thought that if she should prove herself she should look the part like all intimidating not the nerd of the whole school and had a shower while dying her hair, got different clothes out of her wardrobe she got out black jeans, a white top with spikes on she got years ago for christmas also from her godparentswith boots they also gave her which were black and had silver studs and she got out a leather jacket her dad had given her which was his when he was young then she got make up out she had which she hardly ever wore and then she put foundation, eyeliner, mascara and a dark red lipstick on her face them put her hair up in a bun tied with a silver and red flower at the side of it and when she looked in the mirror she looked like a totally different person. She went through her dads study draws and got out a yellow book and found ninjuitsu training group about 4 and a half hours away and it was affordable so she booked a hotel, train and the lessons for full training for 5 months so she packed up her bag of clothes, money and just essentials like that but she also brought a picture of her dad her mum and herself in the park the summer before she died she hugged the picture and put It in her big gym bag with all her clothes and she kissed her fingers and placed it on her apartment door and whispered "don't worry the turtles don't believe in me but I know you do dad and I promise we will be back to normal one day" and after that she left for one last stop Before she left for Rhoda Island...

Later that day the turtles were feeling horrible all they could do was sit and regret what they said to poor April they didn't mean it in a bad way, well Raph kind of did but he still didn't want her to know what he said and anyways she took it the wrong way right ? "Leo kept thinking that to himself but he knew he was wrong and they all felt terrible "HEY ! Guys should we go visit-" before Leo was going to finish his sentence he heard a manhole cover move a couple of splashes before he heard the cover shut again "what Leo what should we do" said donnie honestly not listening to him or even caring anyway "shhhhh hey did you hear that come on guys follow me" "omg Leo what now can't i just read my comic in peace ever" said Raph pretending he didn't care about anything but to honest he hated what he said about April and regretted it greatly ever since he saw how much he actually hurt her. "No really I heard something, follow me this way" and as they all followed leo he turned around the corner and saw the cover half open and the wind making a piece of paper shake and Mikey ran to it while Raph closed the cover and snatched the piece paper from Mikey's greasy pizza hands and began to read aloud...

Hey Guys

I have just left this note to inform you that I have now moved out of your lives and I will be away for about 5-6 months to learn ninjuitsu from someone who I won't get in the way of.

I'm sorry i annoyed you and messed up your missions soooo badly I mean I knew I wasn't as good as you guys but I thought I was doing great progress but I guess not. I thought we were a true family because when I lost my mother I never had brothers or sisters to look out for or for them to look out for me but when my dad got kidnapped you guys were my only family I had and well I loved you guys

But I guess you didn't love me you just saw me as a burden but don't worry I am going to lift that weight off your shoulders and please when I do come back do not speak to me since I have been hurt enough and being so alone will be good for me.

From...oh who cares you know it's me and whats the point in saying my name you are only going to forget me bye forever guys ps I have left my t-phone and a couple of other things that you gave to that you might want back they are on the floor in my old bedroom.

"What no April !" Said Mikey with tears streaming down his face and as he looked up to his brothers he saw they they were walking off with tears down their faces even Raph and he never showed emotion but since spike got mutated he never seemed as hard shelled as he was and when they got to the lair they hardly spoke unless they had to and when they showed splinter the letter he sheaded a tear but dismissed the boys for no training to day since they were to upset and shocked on what the letter said and sooo donnie went back up at night to Aprils apartment and he went to pick up the stuff she left behind as soon as he walked through her window into her room smelt like lavender but everything was smashed with anger and he saw clothes everywhere with a packet for hair dye in the bin but he was to upset to even consider what happened in there and he left with one more glance of the room and in a blink of an eye he was gone...5 months later