The lyrics are from the song "My Immortal" by Evanescence. I don't own any lyrics or characters mentioned in this story.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
'Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
Why am I still here? There's nothing else to live for. Almost everyone I ever cared for is gone. Why should I be alive when so many others are dead? There's nothing left for me in this world. I know you're gone, so why won't you leave? Why do images of you still plague me in my sleep, in all my waking moments?
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
It gets better with time, people say. That's a lie. It still hurts just as much. I don't think the pain will ever go away. You were more than my sister; you were my friend. You were someone special, irreplaceable, who's now left a gaping hole in my heart that can never be filled.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've always tried to be there for you in any way I could. But that time, that one time, I just couldn't save you. And I'm so, so sorry for that.
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
You didn't deserve to die. You were still so young. There was still so much you didn't get a chance to do. Now you've gone and left me behind just like everyone else has done. Left me behind, tied up to this miserable existence. I hear your voice echoing through my head. I see your face every time I close my eyes. But you're no longer here, aren't you? All that's left is agony.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You were the ray of light in my life. Now everything is grey, bleak, and dead. You had grown into such a mature young lady, no longer the frail, needy girl I left behind at the reaping. Tell me, where did that little girl go? You stopped needing me a long time ago, but now I'm the one who needs you.
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
She's dead. She's dead and she's not coming back. I keep telling myself this over and over again, as if it would somehow lift the crushing weight off my chest, as if repeating the cold, hard truth will make a difference. You're only a thought away, but you can't be here with me. Never again will I see your smile or hear your laugh. Never again will I share your company. I'm alone, so alone.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me...
All of me...
All of me...
I'd do anything to see you again. I wish I could join you, wherever you are now. I hope you're in a better place, somewhere safe and warm, where no one can ever hurt you again. I miss you, Prim. I miss you so bad.