General P.O.V.
Sirius grinned eagerly, looking out the sooty window of the Hogwarts express. He had just spotted his best friend James heading towards the door closest to the compartment that he was currently residing in. Sirius watched as James sauntered closer until Lily Evans walked past, he waited for James to make another one of his pathetic moves on her but surprisingly he completely ignored her and kept walking. Evans was obviously surprised, Sirius had seen her starting to cringe as she got closer to James but when he walked past she stopped in her tracks, mouth wide open.
'Mate!' Sirius exclaimed when James entered the compartment, 'I'm impressed, you didn't even glance at Evans, what is going on!?'
'Huh? Evans? I didn't even notice she was there, I don't think I'm that into her anymore.'
'Thank god, your pathetic attempts at asking her out are finally over' sighed Sirius, 'anyway, where is moony and peter?'
James shrugged, looking out the window.
'Hey, are you all right? You seem a little…distant.'
'Nah, im fine'
'Right…ok what's wrong? Im not fooled, James, since when are you ever this quiet?'
'I dunno'
Sirius chose to drop it seeing as James wasn't prepared to go past saying any words over 2 syllables long. After a bit both Peter and Remus joined them in the compartment, as soon as they sat down the train began to pull out of the station. Sirius didn't even bother looking out the window to wave to his family as many others would, he hated his parents. His mum was a cold-hearted bitch who believed that she was better than most because of the pureblood that ran through her veins. His father was not as bad but was never around so they didn't have much of a relationship. In fact it wasn't just his parents who were like that, except for him his whole family were into the pureblood are better and mud bloods should be culled kind of thing. Even his younger brother Regulas had succumbed to his family's madness. Sirius believed himself to be the only sane one from his entire family, though he did have the tendency to be arrogant and righteous at times. His life when he was younger was full of silence. His mum didn't care about him because he wasn't into the pureblood thing so she instead doted on Regulas giving him all the love that should have been split between them, though Sirius was sure that this probably wasn't a good thing and maybe "love" wasn't the right word to describe it.
"Sirius, mate? Are you okay?" Remus was speaking and waving his hand in front of Sirius's eyes.
He nodded, and looked at Remus who was looking concernedly at him, at that moment he noticed the way the sunlight hit Remus's hair making it almost an auburn colour. Sirius shook himself, what on earth am I thinking? Have I gone insane? He smiled at Remus to show that he was fine.
James P.O.V
I sat looking out the window so that I wouldn't have to look at his beautiful face. Lily no longer mattered to me, she was not important anymore since I had realized what I was. I wasn't straight like I had originally thought, I was gay and it cut me deep that I had to feel this way especially about one of the marauders. It was bad enough that I was gay but couldn't it have been anyone else? Of all the people it could have been it had to be him. He wouldn't understand and that's why I could never tell him unless I felt that it was the completely right time. I know that I would be mocked if I let anything slip so I would have to pretend that everything was fine and normal even though it wasn't and already it was showing, Sirius had already caught on that something wasn't right and he was concerned but I wouldn't tell. Never.