Welcome to my new story so here are the notes of all the important info you need to know before reading:
Takes place after Drop The World but Eli doesn't crash his car and they don't break up. This is A/U and pretty much everyone is ooc, a little or a lot.
Drew and Bianca never went out, he did date Alli and did cheat on her with Bianca. Alli breaks up with him still before going to the girls school and he still becomes girl kryptonite at DeGrassi but he and Bianca never date. Alli is back at DeGrassi now.
Fitz got out of juvie early for good behavior not because he found jesus but he did apologize.
This is rated M don't read it if you get offended. Of course if you've read anything else I've written you'll be fine.
There is a smattering of drama but this mostly raunchy, smutty sexy fluffy fun.
Lastly dedicating this to HelloKitty Swag as she requested it, not sure this is what she had in mind but it's how I'm doing it.
Okay enough notes enjoy chapter 1.
Ch. 1 Don't Get Mad Get Even
(CLARE)
"Fiona asked me to help her work on costumes for the play; I'm meeting her at the Dot so I can't eat lunch with you." Alli tells me as I put books in my locker.
"That's okay Alli I can work on my article for the school newspaper," I assure my best girl friend.
She smiles and walks off, I grab my lunch and notepad heading for the picnic tables outside since I could use some fresh air. When I get outside though I get a glimpse of Eli getting into Morty and it looks like he's getting in with someone else. Eli and I had gone through a rough spot but we'd made it through. Starting with Fitz getting out of juvie, Eli finding him at my house and Eli begging me not to leave him then he wrote his story and I got a little scared and told him to go to the convention without me. Then he showed up at the dance turned off the music, got on stage and told me he loved me and he couldn't lose me and begged me to go to the convention. I agreed and we talked on the whole drive down, he promised to be less cave man like, his exact words.
We didn't spend any more time together during spring break and when we got back to school last week I started on the newspaper and Eli had started on the play. He was busy, really busy with play stuff but things were good between us and I no longer felt like I was suffocating. We still spent time together, went on a date this last Saturday and ate lunch together with Adam when they didn't have play stuff. Everything seemed to be perfect or so I thought but I had just seen him get into his car with what appeared to be another girl. I dropped my lunch and notebook and snuck over to Morty trying to convince myself that they were only talking, in his car, away from everyone else. I snuck over to the car next to Morty, peeked over the window and my heart stopped! Eli was making out with Imogen! She was new at the school, she'd transferred after spring break but she'd been very eager to work with Eli on his play and now I knew why.
I turned around again sinking to the ground and letting out a painful breath. My chest felt tight, it hurt to breathe, hot painful tears broke free and ran down my cheeks. I looked again, hoping I'd been seeing things, hoping they were not kissing, hoping that I'd gone crazy. They weren't just making out; Eli was leaning over her, her hair mashed up against the passenger side window they were really going at it. Even from here I could see how heated it was as the window began to steam up. I wanted to go over there, to yell and scream at them but my feet couldn't seem to go in that direction and instead I found myself running the other way. I wasn't really paying attention to where I was going I just wanted to be as far away from Eli as possible. I could feel my heart breaking and something in me snapped, I actually heard it, a breaking sound resonating through my body.
"How could he?! He begged me not to leave him, pleaded with me! Professed his love to me in front of the whole school and then he cheats on me with Imogen! He's never kissed me like that! Is she the reason he's been so busy lately? Are they even working on the play? I'm so angry at him but the worst part is I still love him. What am I supposed to do? Confront him? Break up with him…no I have a better idea."
The ranting in my head stops and a pleased smile creeps across my face as I find myself across from the back of the Dot and sipping a soda on a crate in the alley is Fitz. I wipe the tears from my face and march over to him. He looks up when he sees me and smiles then looks a little confused. I just smile back and open the back door that leads to the kitchen, pantry and employee lounge of the Dot.
"Clare you can't go in there," Fitz calls after me.
I ignore him and grab the key for Above the Dot, then go back out and take Fitz's hand. "Come with me," I insist leading him to the stairs for the club.
"How did you know where the club key was?" Fitz asks when I start unlocking the door.
"Peter opened the club; he dated my sister and was like an older brother to me." I explain pulling him inside and locking the door again.
"What are we doing up here?" Fitz questions as I pull him to the sofa in the back of the club.
"Shhh, just sit." I command him.
I push him to sit on the sofa and I straddle his lap, putting my arms around his neck and smashing my lips to his. It takes no time at all for Fitz to respond but he stops after a few seconds taking my arms and pulling me back a little.
"Clare what…" he starts but I put my finger on his lips to stop him.
"Don't talk," I command him and replace my finger with my lips again.
It appears that Fitz needs no further convincing because his hands move to my waist and his tongue slides across my bottom lip requesting access between my lips and I grant it. His tongue slips into my mouth, it's strong, hot and wet, caressing my tongue so nicely. All my anger, frustration and hurt over Eli and Imogen is being turned into an incredible fervor in my kiss with Fitz. He begins moving me up and down on his lap a little, in a rhythm sort of like riding a horse and I can feel how turned on he's getting just by our kissing. Knowing I have this power, this ability to make him hard and want me with a mere kiss only makes me kiss him harder.
After a while the anger and frustration begins to fade but not the hurt. As wrong as I know using Fitz is, this fevered make out session with Fitz is making me feel so much better. That thing that snapped in me a short time ago mends, I can feel it mending, it mends sort of twisted but it mends none the less. Eli broke me in a way and Fitz sort of fixed me. I'm so engrossed in making out with Fitz, I lose track of time until his phone beeps and we stop kissing so he can pull it from his pocket and look at it.
"Shit I have to get back to work," he remarks looking at his phone.
I turn it so I can see the time. "And I have to get back to school too."
I get off his lap and head for the door to unlock it but he grabs my arm and stops me before I can.
"Wait what was this? Did you and Eli break up?" He questions.
I did just spend half an hour making out with the boy I suppose he does deserve an explanation.
"No Eli and I are still together." I reply.
"Then why'd you pull me up to the empty club for the best make out session like ever?" He queries.
"I just found out Eli is cheating on me with the new girl, probably has been since last week and well you know the old saying don't get mad get even." I enlighten him.
"Eli's been cheating on you? Wait you just cheated on him with me! You used me." Fitz comments slowly like he can't believe it.
"Yeah, sorry but I was really angry and hurt. Eli begged me not to leave him and proclaimed his love for me in front of the whole school at the dance and then he betrays me with the crazy new girl." I confess to him.
"So are you going to break up with Eli?" Fitz asks with a hopeful tone.
"No I can't do that, I still love him." I reply.
"But he's cheating on you." Fitz counters.
"I know but he still loves me and anyway I just cheated on him with you." I remind Fitz wiping my lip gloss from his lips.
"He's going to cheat on you again Clare, you just told me you think he's been doing it since school resumed after spring break." Fitz counters.
"Yeah he probably will cheat on me again and then I'll cheat on him again." I tell Fitz.
"So you're just going to what come find me for a hot make out session every time you think he's with that girl?" Fitz inquires.
"Pretty much yeah, but if you don't want to then I'm sure I can find someone else." I respond unlocking the door and opening it.
Fitz lays his hand on the door, pushes it closed again, cupping my chin and putting our lips together for a feather soft kiss.
"I didn't say that." He smiles.
"Okay rules, no one can know, this stays a secret. Eli doesn't know I know he's cheating and I don't want him or anyone else to know. That means you can't say anything to anyone and you can't let on to Eli about us. I have to get back to school but I'll try and find you later." I tell him.
Fitz smiles, takes his hand off the door and I run down the stairs and back to school. Now that I'm not madly making out with Fitz I'm starting to feel tinges of guilt for it. I get to my locker and start opening it when I'm flooded with emotion, I can't see straight and I'm having trouble opening the lock. Tears start trickling down my cheeks and I'm shaking.
"Clare," a voice says from beside me and I jump, a hand comes onto my shoulder as I look to my side to see the owner of the voice and can just make out Drew through my tears. "Are you okay?" He asks.
I swallow hard and wipe the tears away quickly. "Yeah I'm fine, did you need something Drew?" I question.
"Uh this is your notebook isn't it?" He asks handing me back the notebook I dropped. "It has your name on it, I found it outside by the steps with a lunch but that was pretty smashed up I didn't think you wanted that back. Are you sure everything's okay? You seem pretty upset and you dropped your stuff." Drew says rubbing my arm gently.
"What's going on?" Eli asks with that same jealous tone he had with Fitz a couple weeks ago.
Well I know he still cares and loves me and he still gets jealous despite the fact that he's cheating. This isn't helping the mix of emotions I'm feeling and I take a deep breath to hold it together. We both look over at Eli and Drew immediately takes his hand away from my arm, which sucks because I was finding comfort in his touch.
"Yeah everything's fine, I was upset because I thought I lost my notebook but Drew found it and returned it to me. Thanks Drew." I smile at him.
Drew knits his eyebrows together just slightly knowing I'm lying at least in part but he doesn't say anything.
"Yeah no problem, I should get to class." Drew says and walks away.
Eli comes over and opens my locker for me, I start putting my books in and he kisses my cheek. His touch calms me a little and repulses me more, mostly because I know his lips were kissing Imogen's just a few minutes ago.
"You sure you're okay?" Eli asks as I get out my backpack, put in my notebook and I nod. I close my locker as Eli puts his arm around me and we begin walking to English. "Sorry I couldn't have lunch with you, I had a lot of stuff to work on for the play." Eli tells me.
Now all other emotions wash away except for anger and betrayal. "You mean you had a lot of Imogen to work on." Runs through my head as my fists clench of their own accord. "That's okay I had newspaper stuff anyway. I know how important this play is to you and it seems to be helping you." I remark making my voice as sincere as possible.
"You have no idea," Eli smiles with a lustful glint in his eye and I feel a stab of hurt go through me.
"What's wrong you look like you were crying?" Adam inquires when Eli and I enter English class.
"She was freaking out because she lost her notebook but Drew found it. Everything's fine now." Eli explains as the three of us sit down.
Adam smiles at me as class begins. I smile back at Adam to assure him I'm okay. I'm certain that Adam has no idea that Eli's been cheating on me with Imogen. Adam is good at keeping secrets but he'd never keep that a secret from me. Which means Eli's been lying to him too, then again so am I. I feel bad about lying to Adam but less bad about cheating on Eli now. Our assignment for today involves breaking into groups of three so of course Eli, Adam and I group. Eli turns his desk around so we can work and puts his backpack on his desk. When class is nearly done and Miss Dawes asks for our papers Eli gets up to take up front and I get up to turn his desk around or so I tell Adam. Actually I get Eli's cell phone from his backpack and slip it into mine without Adam noticing.
"Hey you want to go for coffee after school? You know before I have play stuff to do and you have newspaper stuff to do." Eli asks putting his arm around me as we walk out of class.
"Sure, that sounds great." I say slowly.
Eli smiles and kisses my cheek, walking away to his next class. I try to keep walking to my class but Adam grabs my hand and stops me.
"Are you sure you're okay? I know that face, something's floating around in that head." Adam says.
"Just glad I found my notebook, really Adam I'm fine." I assure him with a smile.
"How did Drew get your notebook anyway?" Adam questions.
"I was rushing and didn't zip up my backpack; it must have fallen out with my lunch. I'm fine Adam I promise and Drew was just being nice. I have to get to MI I'll see you later." I tell my male best friend and dash away towards MI but stop after turning the corner.
I have no intention of going to class and sitting across from Dave and Connor while all I can think about is Eli kissing Imogen in his car. I go out through a side door, one of many escape routes Darcy told me about. I sink down against the wall and pull out Eli's phone from my backpack. I know this is wrong but I have to know. I put in his password and find his contacts and Imogen is in there. Not only is she in there but the logs show calls every day, I try to tell myself it's all play business and it almost works until I see their texts starting last Wednesday, two days after school resumed.
Imogen: I had fun last night.
Eli: I had fun too and I can still taste your cherry lip gloss.
Imogen: I have it with me, I'll put some on when I meet you at lunch.
Eli: Can't wait, I'll tell Clare I have to work on the script.
It goes on like that, over 150 texts in the last week. There are ones of them making plans to meet when Eli told me he had play stuff or family stuff. A lot talk about how very much they like kissing each other and can't wait to do it again. The feeling of my heart breaking returns, actually it feels like my heart is being crushed, I feel like I can't breathe. I can feel tears in my eyes and take a deep painful breath but it doesn't help. It took all of two days after coming back from spring break for Eli to betray me. All feelings of guilt I had for making out with Fitz entirely wash away and have been replaced by anger and hurt.
"Whoa I must be hallucinating St. Clare skipping class?" Owen's sudden mocking voice from my side scares me and I stuff Eli's phone in my purse.
"What are you doing out here don't you have class?" I snap at him, I don't really mean to but I'm not in the best of moods.
He chooses to sit down next to me as I wipe away my tears. "Yeah French, I hate French well speaking it anyway, I like French kissing." Owen says with a slick smile.
"Tell me are all men pigs or just the ones in our school?" I ask with my voice full of venom.
"Pretty much all men," Owen replies, looking me over. "Boyfriend troubles I'm guessing? What did Eli do? Do I need to beat him up? I hate to see pretty girls cry." Owen smiles.
I look over at him with a cocked eyebrow and dubious smile. "You know Alli is one of my best friends and she told me everything you did and said to her on Vegas night." I inform him and he gives me a sheepish smile. I sigh, looking at the time and trying to repress all my feelings of anger and hurt so I can meet Eli for coffee. I stand up and look at Owen as I pick up my backpack and purse. "Still your offer is tempting but I have to go, we're going for coffee. It's one of those things happy normal couples do." I say maybe a bit too bitterly.
Owen stands up and puts his hand on my shoulder. "So you going to tell me what he did?" Owen requests.
"No and I'd appreciate if you didn't tell anyone I was out here. I'm fine really, in fact I'm peachy and I have to go." I tell him running toward the front of the school.
I wait at the bottom of the steps for Eli and we start walking to the Dot, his arm goes around me and I slip his phone back into his backpack. When we walk into the Dot Fitz glares at Eli but he doesn't notice. We sit at a table near the window and also close to the counter, Eli's choice not mine. Fitz comes over staring daggers at Eli, I shoot Fitz a warning look and he stops.
"So what can I get you guys?" Fitz asks.
"Caramel latte," I order.
"Coffee black," says Eli.
Fitz writes it down and walks away to the counter; Eli reaches across the table and takes my hands. I see Fitz glare at Eli again from behind the counter and I shoot him another warning look.
"I'm sorry this play is taking up so much of my time." Eli says in a completely sincere tone, if I didn't know any better I would think he actually was spending all his time on the play.
I force a smile on my face and to meet his eyes. "It's okay I told you I know this is important to you. Besides I have newspaper and other stuff of my own it's not as though I sit around all day waiting to spend time with you." I tell him.
"Aww you don't?" Eli says with mock hurt in his voice but part of me thinks he hopes I actually am sitting around waiting for him.
Fitz brings us our coffee and manages to not stare daggers at Eli this time. We sip at our coffee for a short time making small talk about classes and our friends. How can you love someone so much and still want to stab them repeatedly with your spoon? It's taking all my will power to not just yell at him, to throw my latte in his face and call him out for being a cheating bastard and demand to know how he could betray me. When all the emotions start making my chest tight and I can feel tears threatening to break free I know it's time for breath.
"I'm going to use the washroom." I tell him getting up.
"I'm going on my break," Fitz says to the other waiter as I pass the counter for the back.
There's a door that separates the washrooms from the employees only part of the café and Fitz takes my hand pulling me through it. He pulls into the employee lounge and shuts the door behind us, locking it and pushing me against it just a little roughly so that my breathing hitches in my throat. His lips assail mine, kissing me hard, with such fervor and wanting it almost takes my breath away. I part my lips and his tongue shoots in, his hands explore my curves as my hands comb into his hair, pulling at the short hairs on the side of his head. Our kiss is emanating such a heat that my lips get hot and so does the rest of me. The need for air is what finally breaks us apart, my hands move to his shoulders as I take deep breath to fill my lungs.
"I can't believe you're here with him!" Fitz says in an almost accusing tone.
"He is my boyfriend Fitz, we had this discussion remember? Eli can't know, what we do is secret. Just like what he does with Imogen but I still love him and he still loves me. We're going to spend time together Fitz, not like you and I spend time together but we will spend time together and you're going to have to handle it." I tell him.
Fitz scrunches his face and kind of growls, then softens and caresses my cheek. "I can handle it." He finally sighs.
"Good, now I need to get back out there before Eli comes looking for me." I say, gripping his shirt and standing on my tiptoes to mash our lips together one more time.
When I take my lips away Fitz moves so I can open the door, I go back out to the front and sit at the table with Eli again.
"That was a long washroom trip," Eli remarks.
"Sorry I was just saying hi to the kitchen staff." I lie taking the last few sips of coffee.
"I didn't know you knew the kitchen staff," Eli replies finishing his coffee.
"Oh yeah Ed and Oscar have worked here for years, back when Spinner was in charge." I tell him and can't help glancing at Fitz.
"Well I have just enough time to take you home before I have to meet Adam and the others to work on the play." Eli comments standing up.
"I can get home on my own; you don't have to take me." I reply.
"I want to Blue Eyes, I am your boyfriend it's my job to make sure you get home safe." Eli tells me as he escorts me out.
We make the quick walk back to school and get in his car. I feel physically ill as soon as I'm in the passenger seat, knowing that she was in this spot just a few hours ago making out with my boyfriend. Eli starts driving and I take deep breath, thinking about kissing Fitz in the employee lounge keeps me from strangling Eli. We pull up to my house, Eli gets out walking me to the door, I put my key in and open the lock and turn to say goodbye to Eli.
"Thanks for getting me home safe," I say with as much sincerity as I can.
He opens his mouth to reply when we hear banging coming from inside, I open the door and Eli follows me in. My mom's car is gone and I know she's at work, Dad doesn't come to the house anymore he signed it over to Mom so nobody should be home.
"Hello?" I call into the kitchen as Eli and I come through the entry.
I may be very mad and hurt by him but I still know he'll protect me if it's a robber or something. As it turns out it's not a robber, as Jake pops up from behind the counter shirtless.
"Oh hey Clare, Eli." Jake smiles.
"Jake? What are you doing here?" I question.
"Your mom hired me and my dad to renovate the downstairs, my dad ran out to get some more tile." Jake explains.
"You always do that with no shirt on?" Eli questions in a hard and jealous tone as his arm goes around my waist and pulls me to him tightly.
"Really Eli? You're still going to be jealous and protective of me but make out with Imogen in your car?! Lie to me about where you are because you're with her?! But get mad because Jake's in my kitchen with no shirt." I scream at him in my head but my face remains calm.
"Yes actually." Jake replies with a cocky smile.
"Okay well I have homework so I'm going to my room." I announce and turn to the stairs, Eli starts following me up and I turn back to him. "Don't you have things you need to do for the play?" I question as I don't have the energy to keep up this act right now.
"And leave you here with shirtless Jake?" Eli snarls but quietly at least.
"Eli I've known Jake since I was six, I told you that when he came to school last Monday. He use to throw frogs at me and pull my pigtails, I have no interest in Jake Martin." I assure my boyfriend.
"What if he has an interest in you?" Eli questions.
"Then I'll tell him to get lost because I have a boyfriend," I assert, "and someone to cheat on him with already." I add in my head.
"If he tries anything…" Eli starts but I cut him off.
"I can take care of myself Eli, I'll be fine. Everyone is going to be expecting the playwright and director at rehearsal you should go." I insist. "Back to your mistress!" I add silently.
"Okay I'll see you tomorrow." Eli says, cupping my face and putting his lips on mine.
Kissing my boyfriend should not make me want to wretch and yet it does. The kiss only lasts a couple of seconds and feels nothing like it used to. Eli smiles at me, glares toward the kitchen and I watch him disappear through the front door. A few seconds later I hear Morty start up and drive away and I turn ascending the stairs again.
"I think your boyfriend was jealous," Jake remarks in a cocky tone from the bottom of the stairs.
"Don't let it go to your head Jake, Eli gets jealous easily now leave me alone I have homework and an article to write." I tell him without turning to look at him and close my door.
I finish my article and get about an hour of homework done before there's a knock at my door. After I call come in the door opens and Jake is standing there still with no shirt on.
"My dad left to go meet your mom for dinner, said they were going to discuss options. He also said we should order a pizza for dinner." Jake tells me.
"Okay so order us a pizza then, I don't like sausage, mushrooms or tomatoes. I'm going to take a shower." I reply.
Getting up from my desk I walk past Jake, still leaning in my doorway, to the washroom closing and locking the door behind me. At first I cry in the shower, then I laugh, then I feel like I can't breathe and then I want to be kissing Fitz again. Maybe that part of me that snapped and mended again didn't mend all the way. Turning off the water and stepping out of the shower I wrap a towel around myself I open the washroom door to find Jake standing there and I gasp.
"Pizzas here." He informs me with a smile and looking me over.
"You could have called up the stairs," I reply going into my room and shutting the door. When I'm dressed again I go downstairs and grab a plate and two slices of pizza then I turn and head back up the stairs.
"Where are you going?" Jake asks.
"To eat in my room," I reply.
"You're not afraid of me are you Clare?" Jake asks in a joking tone.
"If I was afraid of you I would have asked Eli to stay." I respond and go up to my room shutting my door. "If I were really afraid of you I'd go find Fitz again."
(FITZ)
I had a dream about Clare last night, I've had dreams about her before but this was different. She wanted me, she came to me, she belonged to me and not Eli. I get to the Dot at eight for my shift and am sickened to see Eli is here with Imogen! I want so badly to confront him, tell him how he hurt Clare, how she came to me but Clare wants us to be secret and I don't want to upset her. Anyway I'm not a complete idiot, I'm not going to fool myself into thinking that Clare's about to leave him for me. That I really mean anything more to her than revenge on Emo boy but I don't care. Having her in any little way is heaven to me and I care about her, more than Eli does I'm sure. I'll keep our secret and I'll be here when she needs me and I can stare Eli down when she's not around.
"Fitz give me the usual." Owen requests breaking me out of my glaring at Eli and Imogen.
"Huh? Oh one usual coming up." I reply.
Owen turns his head to see what I was glaring at. "Dude again? Let her go man, she's with Eli, they're all in love or whatever." Owen advises.
"No he's…" I stop myself before I tell Owen but he's looking at me expectantly, waiting for me to finish the thought. "He's not good enough for her." I say which is true.
"Yeah well that's not really your call to make bro." Owen remarks as I hand him his order and he pays.
"It kind of is now." I argue in my head but I'm not about to get into it with him.
Owen gives me a look but he leaves, I keep working but glare at Eli and Imogen every time I can. Then Clare walks through the door, curls bouncing and that beautiful smile on her face that disappears when she sees Eli and Imogen. I want to talk to her but Eli sees her first and waves to her. I see the forced smile spread across her face and she walks over to their table, I start cleaning a nearby table so I can hear their conversation and hit him if I need to.
"Morning, didn't expect to see you guys here so early." Clare says doing an amazing job of keeping the bitterness out of her voice.
"We were just going over the latest pages for the script." Imogene squeaks and her voice makes my stomach turn.
"Great well I just came in for my morning caffeine fix I have to get to the paper. See you guys at school." Clare says keeping her voice amazingly even, if I was her I would have slapped Imogene or Eli or both.
Clare walks to the counter and I go over to take her order, she holds her smile until her back is to them and then she scowls.
"What will it be?" I ask loud enough for everyone to hear. "You okay?" I question almost in a whisper.
"Caramel latte to go," she says in her normal voice. "I'm peachy watching my boyfriend and his mistress be all cute, it's what every girl wants to see." She whispers.
She puts money on the counter and I get her coffee, sliding it across the counter to her as I put the money in the register.
"Upstairs, five minutes." I whisper to her and she smiles at me.
I watch her walk out and disappear around the corner, it doesn't escape my attention that Eli watches her too and Imogen watches him. When Nate gets back from his break I go out the back grabbing the keys to the club on my way out. Clare is waiting for me at the top of the stairs and I run up to her, unlocking the door we go in. She sets down her coffee cup, I pick her up and sit down in the first chair I see setting her in my lap and ensnaring her lips. I know she's really upset because she's kissing me really hard and almost frenzied. Her hands comb through my hair as I caress her back, her lips part and my tongue goes in to her mouth. The coffee made her mouth extra warm and taste like caramel. I want to keep kissing her but I know I have to get back downstairs and so I pull away even though I really don't want to.
"Feel better now?" I ask.
"Much," she smiles.
"I can go back down and deck him." I offer.
"Now we wouldn't be much of a secret then would we? I have to get to school and I'm assuming you have to get back to work. When's your lunch?" She asks.
"Noon and your lunch is at 12:30 but that gives us a half hour." I point out.
"Yes but I have free period before lunch so leave the door unlocked and I will meet you up here at noon. Don't be late." She commands.
"You know I'll be here." I smile at her, brushing a curl behind her ear.
I walk with her down the stairs and give her one last kiss before we part ways, going back into the café with a smile on my face.
(CLARE)
"I hate gym," Alli complains as we leave the locker room. "You want to have lunch today?" She asks.
"I have newspaper stuff actually but if I finish early I'll come find you." I tell her.
"I thought you were going to say you were eating with Eli." Alli responds.
"Eli's always busy with the play." I inform her managing to keep the pain and anger out of my voice.
"That doesn't bother you?" She queries.
"No I have my own things," I inform her.
Alli reaches her locker and I wave to her as I keep walking, Fitz's lunch isn't for half an hour yet but I head there anyway. Not the Dot I go straight to Above the Dot, flipping on some of the lights and sitting on the sofa. I start on some homework while I wait for Fitz, when I hear him coming up the stairs I put my homework away. The door opens; he smiles at me, turns off the lights again and comes to the sofa sitting next to me. His fingers gently brush along my cheek before he affixes his lips to mine. He leans me back on the sofa, brushing a curl back from my face. Then his hand grazes down my jaw and neck, when he reaches the hem of my shirt his hand goes up it and my stomach muscles tense.
"Slow down Fitz," I whisper against his lips.
"Sorry," he apologizes.
I don't answer just put our lips together again, parting my lips and joining our tongues. After kissing for several more minutes I'm beginning to change my mind about slowing down. I want Fitz to touch me and I want to feel more of him, I grip his shirt and he breaks from the kiss to help me take it off.
"What happened to slowing down?" He laughs as he drops his shirt to the floor.
"I changed my mind; just remember I'm in charge." I tell him.
"Yes Ma'am," he smiles and captures my lips again.
Now that his shirt is off I trail my fingers over his sculpted chest as we kiss. It's so funny how it feels so very different kissing Fitz than it does Eli. K.C. and I never made it past pecking and seven minutes in heaven with Wes does not count. I thought Eli was a great kisser but honestly Fitz is much better. We keep making out until the alarm on my phone goes off and I gently push him off me.
"I have to get back to school," I say standing up from the sofa.
"You're always running off from me," Fitz complains.
"We're not dating Fitz, we're cheating." I remind him as I pick up my backpack.
"I know," he says standing up and putting his shirt on, "doesn't mean I don't wish we could have some time together where you weren't making out with me like crazy because you're mad at your two timing pathetic boyfriend."
"Fitz!" I admonish for the dig on Eli. "What you don't like making out like crazy?" I ask him as I help him straighten his work shirt.
"I didn't say that," he smiles cupping my chin and kissing me softly again.
"Then don't complain now I have to go eat before lunch is over." I tell him.
"Yeah I guess I should eat too." He sighs.
I kiss his cheek and walk out; I have a smile on my face all the way back to school. It vanishes when I walk past the parking lot seeing Eli and Imogen getting out of Morty. Out of the back of Morty and Eli is zipping his fly! My chest goes tight, all that anger and hurt comes back and I hide so they won't see me.
"That was fantastic! Julia never gave such good head and Clare will barely kiss me." Eli smirks.
"Poor baby you have needs and I'm happy to take care of them. If you're up for it I'll do it again after school." Imogen coos at him.
She smiles at him and walks off; Eli waits for her to get about 20 paces ahead before he starts walking. I feel my heart being squeezed again; they aren't just kissing, not anymore. I've lost my appetite now, all I feel is anger, betrayal and hurt. My first instinct is to run back to Fitz but I can't, school is starting soon and I'm going to have sit through a whole English class with Eli which is the last thing I want to do right now.
Update soon with more Fitz, more Owen and more Drew and of course more of the misfits. Also watch for my other new story Between Love and Darkness which is Drew/Clare and will be out on Tuesday.