The Letter

O/S By: Peggy McDaniel McCombs

Pairing; Jasper and Bella

Rating: T.

Genre: Romance, Friendship

Summary: This is a story where Bella figures out what happened during her time with the Cullen's and after seeing Jasper she sits down and writes him a letter hoping he will respond.

Beta: SassYNoles

Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended

My Dearest Jasper;

As I sit here with pen in hand, wondering if what I'm about to do is the right thing to do, but as I write this I am informed by my friends, which are also friends of yours I might add, are telling me that it has to be done. So please bear with me Jasper as I go through all that is on my mind before getting to the point, and please read this alone, for I want you to process it all before you say anything to anyone…please. You will hear me refer to the Cullen's, as for them to me, you are not one…You are a Whitlock, not a Cullen, and so with that said I will begin.

It has been five years since the Cullen's left me alone to fend for myself, mainly Edward who left me alone deep in the woods, with words of disdain, causing me great pain, and I wondered at the time if he did it on purpose, hoping I'd be killed by the wild animals that lived there so he wouldn't have to deal with the weak human as well as the Volturi who he and the rest of the family feared would learn of their law breaking secret that they left a human alive and unturned.

They say that humans are weak, but I think they are the weak ones. Why not turn me or just kill me from the beginning as Rosalie wanted or let you, Jasper do it as you wanted to from the very start? No they snuck off silently in the night, running from their obligation, hoping I'd die before the Volturi learned of their secret.

But as the years crawled along I had time to go over that year and a half that I spent with them. I realize a lot of what happened to me was my fault. Not that I didn't run as fast as I could once I found out what they were, what you were, because I'm not sorry for that because if I had run I never would have met you.

What I do mean is by the way they manipulated me. I was so dazzled by their way of life and my love for Edward that I let them do what they did to me.

Rosalie was the only one that told me the truth, but I wouldn't listen, I was so caught up in my own selfishness, that I couldn't see that all she said was the truth, of course she was always put in her place with Alice and Edward pulling me away and not hearing with my human ears what they said at vampire speed to her, but at the time I didn't care…I should have cared and listened.

Jasper you wanted to sneak into my room at night and put an end to me, but the Cullen's would not hear of it, and the only reason I know this was because Rosalie made a point to tell me.

I think she did it trying to scare me away, but of course Carlisle would silence her causing her to storm out to the room.

I should have listened, I should have known better. I may have been seventeen at the time, but I had lived a hard life up until then and even a harder life after meeting them.

I was more mature than that, I shouldn't have let it go on the way I did.

I thought at the time that this was my time to relax, to let someone else care for me.

I had led a life of caring for my hair brained mother, who acted much younger than I at the time. Leaving me to pay the bills on time and feed myself. If it was left up to her I wouldn't have had utilities to study by or to keep myself clean or the house clean as far as that goes, and I probably would have starved. I was ecstatic when she met Phil her now younger husband who cares for her, and allowed me to move to my father's place there in Forks.

He was better but not much. He at least paid the bills, but that was all. I still had to shop and cook the meals, unless I wanted to live on pizza for the rest of my stay with him.

I also had to do the cleaning, and laundry for he wasn't good with that either. He also kept to himself, like me he never showed much affection, and when he noticed strange things going on around him, he'd close his mind to it. He just never wanted to know anything about it. I think it scared him, so I didn't say or try to explain anything about whatever happened during that time.

Once Edward and the Cullen's came into my life and started showing me the affection I didn't even realize I deeply needed.

I let them care for me mostly to a fault, and although I thought I needed this at the time, there was something even then in the back of my mind that knew this was wrong so I fought them when they took it to far, especially Edward, and in the end I always gave them their way.

There was something about you though, Jasper that always drew me to you, and every time I got to close and wanted to talk to you, Edward or Alice would pull me away telling me you were too dangerous to be around. I didn't allow myself to believe this though. If you were going to attack me you would have done it already. I had been around the Cullen's for ages and you hadn't killed me yet or even offered too, and after that fiasco in Phoenix, Arizona where James attacked me, where Alice and you, Jasper took me to that expensive hotel to protect me.

I thought I wasn't worth all the Cullen's were doing to help me, Jasper. But you step up to me, you took my hand in yours, and then looked me straight in the eyes and told me to stop thinking I wasn't worth it because I was, you then kissed my forehead before sending me to the only bedroom to rest while Alice was out getting me something to eat. That's when I knew for sure you would never cause me any harm.

Even at my eighteenth birthday party that Alice planned for me the one that I didn't want and Edward told me that I was being selfish about not allowing her to have for me. After later consideration or years I guess I should say I came to the conclusion that it was all a set up.

And what I mean by that as I think back to that time was that you, Jasper as well as myself were the main characters in this dilemma that caused Edward to finally leave me. I knew at the time that Alice had seen this outcome…hell she saw everything, which brought me to this conclusion.

That day when I cut my finger on the envelope, the only envelope among all the others, where cards were in the gift bags without their covers, all of them knowing how clumsy I was, leaves me to believe that I was set up.

Why not just leave the envelope off? When all they had to do was place the tickets Carlisle and Esme gave me so I could visit my mother in Florida in a gift bag as the others had. It stands to reason that they were thinking ahead of time that I might or would if my calculations are right that she saw I would cut myself, why leave just the one?

Also there was what I overheard before the party started by not one person but two.

First it was you, Jasper complaining to Alice about her thinking that you helping her decorate the living room where the party was to be held more important than you feeding? She stopped you from feeding, Jasper knowing you wouldn't have enough time to go before the party started…huh…?

The second one being Emmett asking Alice what was with all the glass plates when it was only me that would be eating. Of course Alice replied something about etiquette or some bullshit telling him that it was beyond his area of reasoning which got her a look from hell from, Rosalie.

It still remains that if she took precaution for my safety with other things then why not with the placing of the glass plates? They were just as dangerous to me as the envelopes.

Then once I cut my finger I realize now that you, Jasper being an empath could feel all the others bloodlust, especially Edward's and I was his singer, he craved my blood more than the others.

I could tell as I think back that you, Jasper were fighting your hunger, and it was then that Edward threw me into the well placed dishes causing me to cut myself further.

I think now that once Edward pushed me that you, Jasper were not coming for me but for Edward for causing me more harm, but with Emmett and Carlisle ignorant of this fact grabbed you and once they had you under control Carlisle ordered Rose and Emmett to take you outside.

Carlisle came to me and while they thought no one was looking I remember looking at Alice as she looked over at Edward and I swear she had a smile on her face, but it disappeared as fast as it happened replacing it with one of despair.

I didn't think anything of it at the time, but once I had a talk with the friends that I mentioned earlier it all came to light of what had happened and why, and I will explain, but first I need to explain how I felt once I graduated High School.

I was a mess when I graduated although I was much better than I was when they all left me.

I lay in that damp forest for what seemed hours until Sam Uley the Alpha of the Wolf pack found me and took me home. I was catatonic for months, until I finally thought enough was enough.

I started hanging out with my friend Jacob Black the chief of the Quileute tribe son, and it was he who brought me back from the brink of certain death. Thank god for him and the pack for it was then that Victoria and Laurent began to show up.

They had killed Laurent as soon as he made his appearance, but it took months before they finally killed Victoria.

But during those months she had killed many some of them belonging to the Quileute Tribe and for that I was asked to leave. They blamed me rightfully so for their deaths. If I hadn't had anything to do with the Cullen's none of this would have happened so I agreed to go.

I said my goodbyes to Charlie and headed to College and it's where I met our friends. They took me in after learning who I was and they helped me figure out what had gone wrong with my connection with the Cullen's. I don't know what it is about your species, but I seem to be drawn to them and our friends are the same as you Jasper. After graduating from college they turned me and I've been living with them ever since.

My friends, Jasper are Peter and Charlotte Whitlock, and after you read this letter I hope to hear from you…you, Jasper not any of the other Cullen's I can't stress that enough, and if you have a problem with that I truly understand. I just hope I see you sometime throughout our existence.

To answer the unspoken question, I'm sure you have to be asking yourself about now is of how I got this letter to you and how did I know where you were?… Well it's simple really. Charlotte and I went to New York to do some shopping and I saw you. I didn't know how you would react by seeing me again, so I sat down that night and wrote this and secretly pinned it to your Ducati. Char and I left after leaving you this letter.

There's one more thing you need to know, Jasper.

Peter tells me that Alice isn't your true mate and I'd have to agree, because I've learned a thing or two about how this mating thing works and I have to say that that is why Alice and Edward worked so hard to keep us apart…You my dear are my true mate and they knew this all along, and did all they could besides kill me to keep us apart.

So now you know the truth and I will leave the rest up to you my mate. I hope to hear from you soon. Oh and by the way, we're at Pete and Char's house in Texas. They say you know where that is.

Yours for eternity

Bella Whitlock.

P.S. I love you, Jasper and I miss you so much. Till we meet again…

Char was my lookout as I pinned the letter to Jasper's bike hidden enough so prying eyes wouldn't see, but outward enough for Jasper to find and we left for the airport to make our way to Texas where we live.

After meeting Peter at the airport in Texas we went home to wait and see if Jasper would take what I had to say to heart, and believe my story which was all true of course.

Months went by with no word and we were just about to give up and move to one of their other houses when we heard a car driving up the long driveway.

"Go," Peter said grabbing Char and holding her so she wouldn't follow me as I nervously made my way to the front porch.

As I stood and watched, Jasper's Ducati pulled up in front of the house and climbed of his bike taking off his helmet and stood there looking up at me. He smiled and then spoke, and the words that came from his mouth sent my now silent heart soaring.

"I love you too Darlin'." He put out his arms wanting for me to come to him and that's just what I did. I ran into his arms as his arms circled me and I haven't felt this good in all my life.

The End.