Goodnight, Quiet City
A/N: I had to write this. I've been wanting to for a while. The song is "Goodnight, Quiet City" by Dead and Divine.
Disclaimer: I don't own the song, I don't own Zoey 101.
You were Pretty, enough to be in Magazines. You meant everything to me. You weren't some front-page fuck for this month. You was confident and strong; you were different. You weren't like other girls.
I missyou. I haven't left my room for days. I cant live without you. Your my everything; your my life. You were the only reason I pulled myself out of bed every morning. Your smile was the highlight of my life. Our fights made my days special. You were the world to me.
I never got to tell you. I wanted to, I did. I wanted so badly to tell you.
It won't matter now if the cameras come, cause they won't recognize who they're taking pictures of. I cant bare to remember it. There's so much blood, so much. I don't want to remember. I don't want to live. Nothing means anything without you here with me.
Babe, We'll make history tonight, I promise.
You radiate for Miles. You were beautiful, stunning, gorgeous. There aren't any words to describe you. You were you. You were Dana. You were the world to me. I love you. I love everything about you. I loved your personality; I loved your originality. You were special. One in a million.
I love it how you always said, "When I go down, I'm going down in style."
Well, here's your wish. You made headline news. You were famous. You were on all the channels, and in all the newspapers. Everyone knew who you were. But they never knew you. They knew your name. They knew your story. But they never knew you. They never knew what you meant to me; you never knew what you meant to me.
The engines on, the breaks are shot.
I still refuse to believe it. I cant live without you. You make me whole. You make me, me. Without you, I'm simply a shell of a guy. You took my heart to the grave with you. I can still remember your last words to me. I'd never forget them. "Logan, Don't ever forget me." Its funny, cause even when your dead, I still do what you want. Don't worry, babe. I haven't forgotten. I'll never forget. If it's the last thing I do, I'll do what you wanted me to. I'll remember you.
We'll make history tonight, and we'll take it down with us.
I didn't want to get out of bed. I cant live my life without you; it wont be the same. I refuse to live my life without you. I'll admit, it's been hard these past few days, Dana. They all tried their best to cheer me up; really, they did, but its no use. I can't smile anymore; I can't laugh; I can't be happy. I don't want to be happy. It doesn't feel right when your not here beside me. I wish you hadn't done it. You could have been happy; we could have been happy.
It doesn't feel right to smile. I've been frowning the same from since the day you left us. I'm sorry I didn't come to the funeral. I couldn't bring myself to see you like that. I just wanted to be able to hold onto my memories. The memories of you, an independent, carefree, determined girl. The memories of the girl I fell in love with.
I never thought this would be how I died; next to you, as dead as when you were alive. I'm Sorry Dana. It's not the same. Life isn't life without you in it. I hope you can hear me. I hope you understand why I have to do this.
I cried for you Dana, everyday; especially the day after. I couldn't bring myself to cry when it happened. I was too shocked. I was too hurt. I was too lost.
I'm sorry I never told you Dana. I'm Sorry that I never told you how much you meant to me. I'm sorry I never told you that I loved you.
Do it for Love, but what's love, right?
Dana, I never got my one last kiss. I never got a first one either. You were my world. I hope you know that. I miss you so much. I'm crying now. Life doesn't have a meaning anymore. At least now, I won't hurt anymore. I know its selfish Dana, but I hope you can forgive me. I don't want to live without you. I don't want my heart to beat another beat when your not here. I don't want to breath a single breath without you in my life.
This is my one last chance to look back. I can remember everything. I wish I didn't have to. That day; I was crushed. I hated you for doing it. I hated you for hurting me this way. I can look back and remember the immense pain I was feeling. That was when I lost my will to live.
I wish I had one last kiss, but it looks like I'm never going to get that, am I? I wish I had. I wish I had told you. I think I've blamed myself for this twenty times over. I can't let go. If only I had done something, you'd be here; you wouldn't be…I cant even bring myself to say it.
One last chance to look back, and forget. I wish I could. The scene torments me everyday. This is the last time I'll ever get to replay it; it's the last time I'll ever have to replay it. Its over.
I'm Sorry Dana; I've made up my mind. This is what I have to do. I want you to know that I love you. I love you with everything I have; with my heart, my soul, my entire being. I can't live without you here. I wish I could've mustered up the courage to tell you; I didn't, and I'll regret that for the rest of my life; which will be over soon anyways. I'm telling you now Dana. I love you. I always have and always will. Forever and for eternity.
This is the last time I'll ever visit your grave. This is the last time I'll ever talk to you. I hope you can hear this, and I hope you love me too.
And with that, Goodnight.