The Pain Of Living Without You Here
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It's only been a week since Sonny Monroe committed suicide and left me to fend for myself. She had a reason for ending her life. That reason was me. I broke her heart amazing huh? I hurt the girl I love the most. Now she's gone, gone from this world and she's never coming back. Before she died she left a note apologizing for what she had done and told me not to blame myself for what took place. Yet I still do because if I didn't cheat on her with her best friend she would still be here. Every time I reflect on this I ask myself why I did this and why I broke the heart of the only girl that truly mattered to me. The girl I fell in love with at first sight. It's too late now. When I close my eyes I see her smiling at me. I miss her. More than anything. I would give up everything I have just to see her beautiful face and flawless smile. I now realize what "the randoms" say about me is true I am a jerk and a big one at that. My own cast even blames me for the death of my Sonshine. In all of this trauma there was one person that helped me through it all. Zora. When the days are long she tells me to go visit her and I do so every Sunday. Today is Sunday so I am on my way to visit her. I arrive and walk up to her grave and begin to talk to her. "Hey Sonny I know i've said the many times but I'm sorry you didn't deserve the pain and suffering I put you through. I want you to know that I love you and always will no matter what okay? I'd better go I'll see you soon I love you" and with that I left to go back to my Beverly Hills mansion I have to be up early tomorrow. I try to fall asleep but I can't. I keep seeing her. When I do fall asleep I dream of the two of us together and happy as if I hadn't broke her heart. I can't do this anymore. It's too hard. Too hard for me to forget everything that we had. It's hard walking into the studio everyday and not being able to see her face. I've made a decision. It may be 3 in the morning but I have to do this. For her. For us. So I grab my keys and drive to the cliff Sonny jumped off of. Before I get out of my car I rethink this would she want this? I decide to go through with this so I walk up to the cliff and jump. The pain is unbearable. "I'm sorry Sonny" I say. "I just couldn't bear the pain of living without you