Hi, I am so sorry I don't update my stories but I just got this idea for a story. Loosely based on me and my 'crush' story, this story promises to be a good one.

Chapter 1: a sorry

Syaoran just reached his home, switched on his answering machine.

"You have 1 message waiting for you" the electronic voice said.

"Sakura, here" the sweet yet sad voice caught his attention and he stopped. Staring at the answering machine, he listened.

"Want to meet you, will be waiting for you at Penguin Park at 5"

He checked his watch; it was 15 minutes past 5. He still had time.

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She stood waiting for him to arrive. What if he hadn't received her message? She was leaving tonight and she wanted to apologise.

Her auburn hair flew with the wind as her face remained practically emotionless and she stood staring at her shoes when she heard him coming.

"Hi" he answered, panting heavily.

She looked up and her eyes met his.

Her eyes, full of remorse and his' full of hope.

"So..." he said, not knowing what to say. Too many questions on his mind but too less words to convey them.

She turned around; she could not look directly in his eyes and say. It needed more courage than she ever had.

"Syaoran, i am sorry" tears welled up in her eyes but she knew how to control them, she always had controlled it.

"I am sorry? What do you mean by that? Is this all?" infuriation sounded clearly in his voice.

"I am sorry" she repeated.

Beauty king of only fifteen
he had some trouble with herself
she was always there to help him
he always belonged to someone else

At this, he caught hold of her arm and turned her around. His hands firmly clasping her arm, his eyes burning with anger.

She winced at this sudden action. Her eyes closed, she couldn't say anything.

"Why are you doing this to me? Why? What have i done wrong? Why me? Sakura?"

"You're hurting me" were her words.

"I want to know the reason...the reason for which you did all this...why we ended up like this"

"You want to know the reason but it's a very long story, very long story"

"I'll give you my lifetime, but i want to know it"

"You won't understand the logic, you won't understand the reasons"

"I don't care" he grunted.

"Leave my hand" she stated clearly.

His hands left her arm.

"Listen" she took out a diary from her bag. When she opened it, a dried flower of poppy fell on the ground. She picked it up lightly and kept it back on the page where it belonged.

She sat down, legs crossed and her back took the support of the cherry blossom tree under which the scene was taking place. He following her suit sat down facing her.

"Remember, 19th November 2004?"

"19th?"

She starts reading her diary entry.

"19th November, 2004.

Dear diary,

You won't believe what happened today. It was all so unprecedented but it just happened. I'm in love. And I'm not joking. I don't know why but it's all so clear...I'm in love. Today i went to st. Gabriel's academy's annual function. You know that guy who comes at Sara aunt's tuitions, the one that daidouji talked about, he was there. And i don't know why but i think I'm in love with him. Gosh, it feels so cool. I mean i just couldn't help but glance sideways where he was and no matter how easy it was to engage myself with others, i just couldn't help but notice him. It's so clear...i got a crush on you.

Now you remember?"

"19th that was the annual fest, ya I remember."

She looked at him with hopeful eyes.

"Wait a minute, you mean that guy was me? But you didn't know me and neither did i know you. How can you fall in love with me?"

"Hurry up, there are some seats there." sakura hurried over to the seats reserved for their school. Her friend's chiharu, rika and naoko sat to her left and tomoyo to her right.

"He's there" Tomoyo giggled.

"Who is where?" sakura asked her.

"See Syaoran, he's there"

"C'mon tomoyo, can you please do me a favour of thinking beyond Syaoran"

"No" she replied her eyes scanning the guy 'Syaoran'.

"Cut it off tomoyo. I thought we were here to see the function and not guys."

"Ok, ok sakura. But look at him he's so cute."

"Forget it" but somehow i followed tomoyo's gaze and well my eyes landed on a...cute guy. I was just acquainted with who he was, but never met him personally. And no matter how much i tried, i couldn't help but notice that he was indeed cute.

I mentally slapped myself. C'mon he was Syaoran; i had seen him umpteenth times but now such a sudden interest. Gosh, something's wrong with me. Something's so wrong with me.

But he is damn cute...look at him.

Forget it.

While her insides kept waging at war, sakura could feel the need to clap her hand to her forehead again and again.

But suddenly there was another urge, the urge to see the guy...again and again.

"Sakura?" tomoyo waved her hand before sakura's eyes.

"Looks like we lost her" naoko stated.

"Earth to sakura" tomoyo said.

"Huh?" sakura was out of her reverie.

"Lost in thoughts of someone" tomoyo teased her.

"Shut up, tomoyo, I don't fantasize about guys" sakura suddenly got on her defence.

"Oh, we didn't know that" tomoyo lips curved in a big 'o'.

And sakura just plain rolled her eyes.

Sakura, you're in love.

"What?" she cried out loud, surprised at her own thoughts.

"Hey, what happened?" tomoyo and all looked at her if she were an alien.

"Nothing" she went crimson.

And her friends started laughing.

"Stop it, naa" sakura protested.

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Time went past and she didn't even realize.

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"We all appreciate your kind presence at our function and now we request you to stand up for the national anthem" the host said.

At last, the function had ended.

After they sang the national anthem, sakura and the gang went to the parking lot to retrieve their bicycles.

It was crowded but sakura managed to get out before everyone else.

She had to wait outside. So she stood on the side while groups of people were walking past her.

And well, she again saw him. Cycling past her, he didn't notice her. But she did. And again felt her heart beat quicken like anything.

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"Touya, I'm home" sakura barged in while her brother was preparing dinner.

"So how was the function" touya asked her as she sat down on the sofa.

"It was nice" sakura replied dreamily. "It was cool"

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I love you, I just cant believe it………..i know this is just a crush but it feels so cool from day one. I mean this is so clear, so cool. What should I do? Just can't get you out of my head. Your amber eyes…..they were so cool….so nice. Oh god, I'm in love, this is so cool, so damn cool, ultra cool!

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"It was love…love can happen anywhere. Why do you try to find logic in everything?" sakura replied.

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so I know this isn't a hotshot, meant to be on top kind of story but I wanted to write it because it speaks of me……….though not the entire storyline but the beginning does.

life's not always chocolates and candies,

sakshi (that's my name!)