Alone.
I have always been alone. I was alone in the crèche. I was not accepted by the others. I was alone as an initiate. I was the token fall guy. The masters ignored me. The children mocked me. And though others surrounded me I was still alone. I was alone when I left for Bandomeer. I was alone when I arrived. I was not alone the moment you called my Padawan.
I spent years reveling in the joy of not being alone anymore. But as time went on I realized I was not alone, but I was lonely. We never connected as well as we should have. Then you died. I was alone again. I trained Anakin. But we were both alone. Neither of us could reach out and touch. Then Anakin turned and I became solitary. Master Yoda says I am not alone. Laugh at that. I have always been alone.
I am alone on a desert planet. I feel that if I met Luke I could have a chance of not being alone. And I am happy about that for we will meet. But I will not live long after that. And I will die alone. The same way I lived. Luke is lucky. You are lucky. Neither of you have ever been alone.
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I know. Way short. Still hope you liked this!
~Meri