Summary: After being practically raped by her boyfriend over the summer, Hermione wonders if all girls experience the same thing she did. With the help of her friends, she comes to the conclusion that it isn't her fault, and learns to open up again.

****Not HBP/DH compliant. This is their 7th year, but b/c everyone skipped a year for the war (at least in my story it was 6th year-Harry won, obviously) Ginny is with them and there is no Head Girl or Boy. The teachers decided that whoever had highest grades by half term would be Heads for the rest of the year.****

Disclaimer: If I actually owned Harry Potter, it wouldn't be about Harry, it'd be about Draco and Hermione, so I obviously don't own it…

Ch. 1

After being woken up for the millionth time in two weeks by her crying, the girls in Hermione's dorm decided that they were going to have to confront their friend. She had been waking them all up with her loud sobs and exclamations of "No! Stop!" at least two times a night, and they were getting very worried about her.

"Hermione," Ginny called, shaking her shoulders. When she didn't respond, Ginny shook her harder and forcefully said, "Mione! Wake up!"

"Wha- yawn -what do you want?" Hermione sleepily said. "What time is it?"

"It's 1 o'clock, Hermione," Lavender replied. "You woke all of us up again, with all of your blubbering." Ginny and Parvati gave her a glare-they were supposed to ease Hermione into telling them why she cried, not straight out tell her! Lavender managed to look sheepish, but still grumpy. Of course she was worried about Hermione, they were good friends, but a girl has to get her sleep sometime!

"What are you talking about?" Hermione questioned, with a slight blush. She was pretty sure she knew what they were going on about, but she didn't want to have to tell them. They might not want to be her friends anymore! And she couldn't handle that on top of the other looming weight in her mind.

"We know something must have happened, Hermione. You've been so quiet these first two weeks back at Hogwarts, and usually you're all excited about being back in school!" Parvati scrunched up her nose at that, as though smelling rotten eggs.

"Yeah, you usually run around practically kissing everything-especially the books- and sometimes knock people over with big hugs!" Lavender commented, a smile on her face at the thought of that.

"What we're trying to say," said Ginny, giving a sharp glance at the other two," is that we're really worried about you Hermione. You haven't been eating. You barely go to the Library. You avoid guys like the plague. You're even semi-avoiding Harry and Ron; and even though they're pretty thick headed, they're even starting to wonder what's wrong. We want to help you, Mione, but we can't do anything if you don't tell us what's up."

Hermione looked at her three friends, and was suddenly overwhelmed by how caring and loving her girls were. How could she have doubted them? They wouldn't toss away their friendship just because of what happened. And she did want to know about their experiences…

She sighed. "Alright, I'll tell you, but you've got to promise not to breathe a word of it to anyone else." She gave a meaningful look to Lavender and Parvati, knowing how much they loved to gossip.

"We promise Hermione!" they all said together, now very worried. What could be so bad that they weren't even allowed to tell her best friends, Harry and Ron?

"Okay. I can do this," Hermione said to herself. "You know how this summer I decided to spend the whole time at my house, instead of coming to the Burrow for the last two weeks?" she said, directing the question to Ginny and Lavender, Ron's girlfriend.

They both nodded. "Well, um, that was because I met this guy…a muggle guy, who was so sweet and nice, and asked me to be his girlfriend. He understood that it was only for the summer, because he knew that I go to a boarding school. Things got really serious between the two of us, and, um, I told him that I thought I loved him."

Hermione took a deep breath, and said, "And then he totally changed. He started doing things to me-with me-that I wasn't completely comfortable with. And he kept saying that if I really loved him, I let it go further. Well, I didn't want him to think I didn't love him, so… Well, let's just say I told him a little ways in that I wanted to stop. I kept telling him that, but he kept going. He ended up pretty much……." By this time, Hermione had tears streaming down her face, and her friends were listening in horror. How could someone do this to their friend, this beautiful, smart, wonderful girl who opened her heart to everyone?

"…raping me." Hermione whispered.

"Oh Merlin, how could he?" Lavender said.

"What?!" Ginny screeched.

"Hermione, I'm so sorry!" Parvati said.

Hermione turned to them with wide eyes, and softly said, "Don't be sorry. It was all my fault."

At this, all three girls gasped and exclaimed that it was in no way her fault.

"Yes, it was," Hermione said with a sardonic smile, "he told me it was. I was the one who would do anything to prove that I loved him."

"Hermione, do NOT tell me that you're protecting him! Why, I should find that bastard and Avada him. No! Better yet, I'll Imperious him, have him cut off his balls, and then make him eat them while he's helpless to stop! Then I'll…." As Ginny kept muttering her plans for revenge under her breath, the other girls took up the line.

"Hermione, did he tell you that he loved you back?" Parvati questioned. Hermione nodded.

"Then if he really loved you, he would have stopped the second you told him to! He would've cared more for your feelings of not being ready than his own need to be satisfied!" Lavender exclaimed.

Hermione looked at her friends in wonder. "So…it had nothing to do with me?"

They all answered a resounding, "No!"

"Oh, thank Merlin!" she said as she fell back into her bed. "I thought that it was all my fault, that I was a tease and a bad person because I played with his heart to get what I wanted!"

"Did he tell you that?" Ginny asked, still plotting the downfall of the terrible boy. "Because that is not right at all."

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A/N: No, this has never happened to me or anyone I know, thank goodness! The story just popped into my head when I was thinking about something random.

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