Love (Or A Reasonable Facsimile)
By Me Gots No Name
Disclaimer: Aw, you guys know by now. I don't have to say anything.
Darkness and emptiness. That's what nothing feels like. A deep, dark, empty pit sitting in your heart is what you're left with when you forsake and are forsaken. It's all that I've known since Rezo gave me this cursed form. And it was okay…for a while.
It seems like centuries have gone by since I felt any kind of emotions, especially fond ones, towards anyone. The only feeling I really had was hatred for Rezo. It consumed me until the void that was created was all. Sometime I wonder if I can feel things like happiness or friendship or love anymore.
Love? Oh no, I'm turning soft. Wait, is that bad? I mean, I don't even know what I mean anymore. I guess love is okay, but is that how I feel? About who?
Oh, why did I have to ask anyway?
Every single time, without even meaning to, my mind makes this connotation between love and Amelia. Maybe it's simply a matter of evaluation. She's beautiful, kind, strong-willed, everything most guys look for in a potential love. Wait, is that just a general description of facts, or am I stating opinion?
Damn…
Do I act that way towards her? Like I feel something about her? Lina's been trying to push me towards her since the beginning, noting every single time I blush about something. Granted, most of the time, yes, I was around Amelia, but was it because of her? It's the kind of thing that can drive a person crazy, especially when it may be true…
Am I even capable of feeling love? I can dissect it scientifically; cutting it open & searching through it like some kind of animal, but can I really understand what it is and how it feels? Or can I feel something like it, the same way a blind person can "see" their surroundings by touch? And would Amelia accept it as the genuine article?
I doubt I will ever admit it to anyone, but from everything I know about the subject, my feelings for Amelia are love…
…Or a reasonable facsimile…
End.
By Me Gots No Name
Disclaimer: Aw, you guys know by now. I don't have to say anything.
Darkness and emptiness. That's what nothing feels like. A deep, dark, empty pit sitting in your heart is what you're left with when you forsake and are forsaken. It's all that I've known since Rezo gave me this cursed form. And it was okay…for a while.
It seems like centuries have gone by since I felt any kind of emotions, especially fond ones, towards anyone. The only feeling I really had was hatred for Rezo. It consumed me until the void that was created was all. Sometime I wonder if I can feel things like happiness or friendship or love anymore.
Love? Oh no, I'm turning soft. Wait, is that bad? I mean, I don't even know what I mean anymore. I guess love is okay, but is that how I feel? About who?
Oh, why did I have to ask anyway?
Every single time, without even meaning to, my mind makes this connotation between love and Amelia. Maybe it's simply a matter of evaluation. She's beautiful, kind, strong-willed, everything most guys look for in a potential love. Wait, is that just a general description of facts, or am I stating opinion?
Damn…
Do I act that way towards her? Like I feel something about her? Lina's been trying to push me towards her since the beginning, noting every single time I blush about something. Granted, most of the time, yes, I was around Amelia, but was it because of her? It's the kind of thing that can drive a person crazy, especially when it may be true…
Am I even capable of feeling love? I can dissect it scientifically; cutting it open & searching through it like some kind of animal, but can I really understand what it is and how it feels? Or can I feel something like it, the same way a blind person can "see" their surroundings by touch? And would Amelia accept it as the genuine article?
I doubt I will ever admit it to anyone, but from everything I know about the subject, my feelings for Amelia are love…
…Or a reasonable facsimile…
End.