*DISCLAIMER I own none of the characters, unless I make them up as I go which isn't likely. Only thing that is mine is the plot, unless I'm referencing something from the books then it's obviously from the wonderful mind of Richelle Mead

RPOV

"Love fades. Mine has."

Four simple words tore my fragile world apart. I felt like Bella in New Moon. I knew I wasn't good enough for him. Except unlike Edward, Dimitri meant his words; I could see it in those deep brown eyes no longer rimed in crimson red.

At least when you were a strigoi you NEEDED ME, not Lissa…Yet just because she is the one who drove the stake through your heart…Wait… "YOU give up on ME?" I exclaimed.

Dimitri didn't respond, he just continued to stare me down. Once upon a time that stare would have been loving and playful, maybe even hunger driven by lust, but never this. This cold and empty stare was void of anything familiar. I wanted to scream at the top of my lungs, but I couldn't find the breath to do so.

Wrapping my arms around myself, I slowly began to back away. I kept looking for some sign in his eyes, or something in his posture to clue me in on this joke, but there was nothing. At the end of the isle, I lingered, only for a few extra seconds, before turning to face down the length of the church toward the exit. Without knowing where I was headed, I let my feet carry me from the scene as fast as they could.

I didn't take in anything around me, his words kept replaying in my head. "I've given up on you, love fades. Mine has." Over and over, and on and on; it played in my head like a broken record. All this time and effort and this is where it's gotten me. I'll never emotionally commit to someone, EVER again. Not after ALL of this.

I slowed to a jog, and finally just a brisk walk. I needed to get out of my own head for a while, I needed… "Adrian!" I yelled trying to get his attention. He was walking, taking what must have been a smoke break from whatever he was doing. He was just a little ways in front of me, I probably would have ran right into his back had I not finally started paying attention. He turned around and saw who called his name, and promptly kept walking.

When I caught up with him, he was only a few feet from his bedroom door. Don't think, just act. I grabbed his wrist and turned him around towards me. As Adrian took in my features, his face softened, but that's not what I wanted right now. I didn't want his sympathy, I wanted him. I pulled his face towards mine while backing him into the door. Our lips locked, and my mind tried arguing that this wasn't the best idea. Well look where the best ideas have gotten me! Thrown away like some doll he no longer wants. Love fades…

Adrian pulled away from me and sounded a little breathless, "What are you doing?"

It was soft and caring, not hard and angry. He was confused, but I didn't want to explain. I didn't want to talk.

I reached around him to open his door, and walked in past him. He followed me in, closed the door and asked me again, what was I doing?

I didn't answer, instead I walked towards his bedroom and started taking my clothes off; leaving a trail behind me, only pausing when I got to the bedroom door to give him a side glance. I stepped into the room and unhooked my bra, tossing it back out for him to see. I made my way to the bed and let my hair down, shaking it out as I ran my fingers through it. My hair was long enough that it hung just below my breasts.

I turned around to see Adrian standing in the door way, hesitant.

"This is a dream. If I touch you am I going to wake up?" Adrian asked in a husky far away voice. I could see the growing bulge pressing against his tight pants, asking to be set free.

I'm done playing by the rules…

I lifted my hand; using my fingers I beckoned him closer, "Come find out."

I waited as he crossed the large room, until he was just a few steps in front of me. I leapt at him, wrapping my legs around his waist and crashing my lips into his. His hands held my thighs as he made his way to the bed. I tore the top of his shirt open, the buttons popping and flying in all directions. I kissed his cheek and down his neck. As he lay me down against the bed, I opened the rest of his shirt in a fumbling hurry.

It felt so right being here under him, weather it was love or lust, this was right. I had been struggling with his belt when he took over, then pulled his pants down. Adrian leaned back in and then paused, "Are you sure this is what you want?"

I answered by pulling him towards me, this wasn't something I was familiar with but hell if I'd let the scare me off. I gave him a soft kiss, "Where do you keep your condoms?"

He reached over into his bedside table and opened a drawer; he pulled out what must've been two feet of condoms and gave me a smirk. I ripped off the bottom one and he set the rest on top of the table. I handed it to him and went to slide my panties down but he pushed my hands away and replaced them with his own gentle hands. He trailed kisses from my knee to the inside of my thigh, nibbling softly as he went further towards my center.

"You can do it," I breathed softly. I wasn't sure he'd even heard me but he pulled back and looked at me; so many emotions flashed in his eyes.

"Rose…" he let my name hang in the air.

"I want you to, it's okay Adrian. I want you." I pleaded with him, but he was Adrian and I didn't have to beg too much before he was kissing down my chest back towards my nether regions. As his teeth grazed my thigh again I let out a soft moan of pleasure and ran my fingers through his hair, my grip tightening as he sunk his teeth into me and loosening as the endorphins kicked in.

I could have sprouted wings and flown, I was so high. And it's only going to get better from here.

*and this is where I leave it guys. If you want more your going to have to come back I'm really excited about this! Please read and review, let me know what y'all think. And i promise the rest should be longer :)