The View of Tai
Its funny how when your alone your mind starts to wonder when you are alone. I looked up from my trainers and saw the surrounding forest; it was dark, green and looked sinister. I can't believe he's gone; he was probably my best friend. I didn't realise it until it was too late. Now I will never have the chance to say so. I pushed this thought out of my mind as I carried on through the woods. Up on the Cliffside I could see the lodge we were staying in, the lights were on dimly and it had the same if not even more depressed look to it as out here. I slowly walked up the hillside still thinking about it. If it had not been for me this wouldn't have happened. If only I had thought then he wouldn't be gone, he would be with us in the Lodge. The atmosphere wouldn't be depressed. I climbed up the rest of the way and opened the lodge door. Sora was slowly unpacking the suitcase with Mimi, both looking into space as they did so. Joe was sitting in the corner, burying himself in a book to try and avoid thought. Izzy sat in another corner doing something on his laptop, also trying not to think about it. I walked through this room and into the next; there I saw T.K and Kari together. T.K was crying into a cushion whilst Kari tried to comfort him, and herself. It then dawned on me that it was my fault. If only I had thought about my actions he would be here, Matt is gone because of me. T.K looked up from his cushion and gave me a look that made my stomach turn; he knew it was my fault as well. All of a sudden I lost control of my body and it slumped to the floor. Then my eyes open and tears ran down my cheeks. My best friend Matt is gone because of what I had done. If only for once I had thought for a second he would still be here. I couldn't get that thought out my head "If only I had thought he would be here". I got to my feet and ran out the door. I then ran through the next room and kept running until I got to the edge of the cliff. The thought ran through my head again, it was my fault he was gone. I stepped closer to the edge and looked over it, its all my fault. It was a long way down, but I guess I wasn't thinking clearly at the time. The only thing that was going through my head was that it was my fault. I took another step towards it. I then placed all my weight on my back foot, brought it forward and dangled it over the edge. As I leaned forward I heard a voice behind me. It was Kari. "No Tai! Don't do it!" She pleaded. But she didn't know, she didn't know that it was my fault. I leaned forward even more tilted over the edge. The last thoughts running through my mind before I hit were "Its all my fault". I landed with a crunch; I knew all my bones were broken. I looked up to see the face of Kari, Kari crying. My eyelids felt heavy; I could hardly keep them open. I let them shut and out I passed into darkness. The next thing I remember is the voice of Matt. I looked up and there he was. "Don't feel bad about what you did to me Tai, it's not your fault. I chose to step in the way, don't feel bad. Now is not your time to go." With that final word my eyelids opened again and I was in the lodge. Kari and Sora were staring at me. Kari's eyes filled with tears and Sora brightened up a little. I went to sit up but I was met with a shooting pain. I lay back down and saw T.K staring at me. Even though Matt forgave me I don't think T.K will. "Just rest" Kari said to me before I passed out again.
Its funny how when your alone your mind starts to wonder when you are alone. I looked up from my trainers and saw the surrounding forest; it was dark, green and looked sinister. I can't believe he's gone; he was probably my best friend. I didn't realise it until it was too late. Now I will never have the chance to say so. I pushed this thought out of my mind as I carried on through the woods. Up on the Cliffside I could see the lodge we were staying in, the lights were on dimly and it had the same if not even more depressed look to it as out here. I slowly walked up the hillside still thinking about it. If it had not been for me this wouldn't have happened. If only I had thought then he wouldn't be gone, he would be with us in the Lodge. The atmosphere wouldn't be depressed. I climbed up the rest of the way and opened the lodge door. Sora was slowly unpacking the suitcase with Mimi, both looking into space as they did so. Joe was sitting in the corner, burying himself in a book to try and avoid thought. Izzy sat in another corner doing something on his laptop, also trying not to think about it. I walked through this room and into the next; there I saw T.K and Kari together. T.K was crying into a cushion whilst Kari tried to comfort him, and herself. It then dawned on me that it was my fault. If only I had thought about my actions he would be here, Matt is gone because of me. T.K looked up from his cushion and gave me a look that made my stomach turn; he knew it was my fault as well. All of a sudden I lost control of my body and it slumped to the floor. Then my eyes open and tears ran down my cheeks. My best friend Matt is gone because of what I had done. If only for once I had thought for a second he would still be here. I couldn't get that thought out my head "If only I had thought he would be here". I got to my feet and ran out the door. I then ran through the next room and kept running until I got to the edge of the cliff. The thought ran through my head again, it was my fault he was gone. I stepped closer to the edge and looked over it, its all my fault. It was a long way down, but I guess I wasn't thinking clearly at the time. The only thing that was going through my head was that it was my fault. I took another step towards it. I then placed all my weight on my back foot, brought it forward and dangled it over the edge. As I leaned forward I heard a voice behind me. It was Kari. "No Tai! Don't do it!" She pleaded. But she didn't know, she didn't know that it was my fault. I leaned forward even more tilted over the edge. The last thoughts running through my mind before I hit were "Its all my fault". I landed with a crunch; I knew all my bones were broken. I looked up to see the face of Kari, Kari crying. My eyelids felt heavy; I could hardly keep them open. I let them shut and out I passed into darkness. The next thing I remember is the voice of Matt. I looked up and there he was. "Don't feel bad about what you did to me Tai, it's not your fault. I chose to step in the way, don't feel bad. Now is not your time to go." With that final word my eyelids opened again and I was in the lodge. Kari and Sora were staring at me. Kari's eyes filled with tears and Sora brightened up a little. I went to sit up but I was met with a shooting pain. I lay back down and saw T.K staring at me. Even though Matt forgave me I don't think T.K will. "Just rest" Kari said to me before I passed out again.