Clary walks with her head down, her red hair tucked in a jacket hoodie, and boots that slosh in the mud while she was walking in the pouring rain. Luke, as usual was beside her mother at the hospitial. "Where I should be" She thought, shaking her head. Headlights flash her direction every once in a while, and the drivers give her curious glances at the girl that puts herself in the pouring rain. Not that she minds the looks, she herself is wondering why she's doing this.
She stops at the corner of the institute, her destination. Lyrics from Maroon 5 suddenly pop into her head. I don't mind spending everyday, out on your corner in the pouring rain... to bad its not the one inside with a broken smile, its her. She's the one that gotten heartbroken after Jace told her that he would just be her brother. "
"Which I shouldn't be" She thought angrily. He is, indeed, her brother. Her love for her brother has to be sisterly, not...this. Not this love you would feel with a husband. Or a lover. So, she shouldn't feel like she was betrayed. Like, she was lead on this whole time...
But she did, because how dare he? How dare he twist her words around to change the meaning of them? How dare he kiss her, then leave her wanting more? How dare he make her want him? ...How dare he move on so quickly.
Tears were running down her cheeks, in hot streams. It mixed with rain water, and fell in big droplets on the pavement. And onlookers only see a girl on a corner, but Clary knew that she was the girl with the broken smile. And she will never be loved by the one she wants to be loved from.
And yet, despite all the rejection and pain, here she was. Here she was, on the Institute's doorstep, considering going in and checking on everyone. On him, more than the rest. She laid her hand flat on the door, debating whether or not she should ask permission to enter. She knew that the institute would let her in, it knows her as well as it knows the lightwoods.
She thought of everything, every reason on why she should not have come back. She thought of all the trouble, she thought about how much Alec hated her. She thought about one sided love, and how she won't even been able to look at Jace. She sighed and began to ask entrance into the building. Because she, he, and everyone else knew what she will always do. She was always be back at his door.