Self Loathing
Notes: I just like to point out right now that just because I own the manga, doesn't mean I understand it. Most of this fic is based on guess work.
Sure, I've been rejected by a lot of boys. And occasionally it's because they are interested in someone else. I'll admit that I would get jealous of the other person but I wouldn't get that obsessed about it and after shedding a few tears I would usually get over it.
But with Natuki it's different.
He may act like a jerk and he may treat me coldly but that's all just an act. I've seen how he acts when his friends aren't looking, I heard what he really thinks of me.
When he talks about me, when his voice is filled with admiration, I like all my dreams have come true and that I've found everything I've ever wanted. Yet at the same time my heart breaks a little because he's not really talking about me at all.
He's talking about her.
Except me and her is the same person. But as far as Natuki knows 'Momoko the childish hero manic' and 'Blossom the leader of the Powerpuff Girls Z' are two different people.
You can see my problem here, I'm jealous of myself!
I was completely against the whole secret identity thing. Sometimes I wish I can just forget about the promise I made to Miss Bellum and tell Natuki that I am Blossom. But whenever I try, Miyako and Kaoru always stop me.
It's not fair! Miyako got to reveal to her Bubbly Knight that she is Bubbles! So why is she stopping me from telling my true love that I am Blossom?
Why hasn't Natuki figured it out for himself?
Of course I'm not expecting him to recognise my physical appearance or my voice when I'm Blossom. No one recognises a super heroine when she transformed. That's as well established as 'the leader always wears red or pink'.
But surely he noticed that me and her act alike.
I'm not trying to hide my personality. I don't act any differently as Momoko than I do as Blossom. Or at least I don't think I do.
One time I was actually worried about fighting Mojo in front of Kuriko for fear of her figuring out my identity. I thought that if anyone could put two and two together and figure out that I am Blossom it would be my little sister. I later discovered that I needn't have worried since she doesn't really pay that much attention to Blossom anyway!
Except Blossom is Natuki's favourite Powerpuff Girl. Blossom managed to earn the attention that somehow eluded me. Why can't he see that me and her are the same person?
Do I really act that differently when I transform?
Am I really that unrecognisable from Blossom?
Someone please tell me...
What does Blossom have that I don't?