Named after the song, Ashes and Wine, by a Fine Frenzy.
Law and Order: Special Victims Unit
Ashes and Wine
Chapter 1
Hurt Like Me
"Is there a chance, a fragment of light at the end of the tunnel, a reason to fight? Is there a chance you may change your mind, or are we ashes and wine?"
-A Fine Frenzy
He had contemplated it for years, whether to tell her or not. He was coming to a realization, he needed to tell her. She was the woman of his dream, who he loved, didn't she deserve to know?
She was always in his mind. She was like a permanent tumor, stuck in his brain.
He wanted to tell her his secret, but he didn't know how. What would her reaction be? Would she be mad, sad, angry?
He started to think about something else. He had two secrets, one was his feelings about her, and the other was his deepest darkest secret.
She was so serene to him. The way she moved her pen across the paper. Actually, the way she did everything.
"Elliot!" Cragen's voice said, jerking him back to reality.
The captain's tone, made Elliot jump a bit. He spun around in his chair.
"Yeah captain?" Elliot asked
"I want you and Olivia to go stake-out the Johanson's place, and get your head out of the clouds." Cragen said sternly.
Olivia had her eyes trained on the house, she was starting to get restless. It was the most boring part of the job. She went for the easiest subject, his kids.
"How are the kids?" she asked knowing it was random but the quiet was killing her.
"They seem good." He stated, "I hardly see Maureen anymore though because she is in college. Kathleen, brings the twins around all the time, which is good because being in the same room with Kathy can get hostile."
"Yeah," Olivia agreed
"You tell me everything right?" Elliot asked
Olivia looked at him, and for some reason she found his question amusing, "What?"
"Olivia, just answer the question, please." Elliot said
"Well, eventually I tell you everything." Olivia said knowing that she has kept a lot of things from him. "Do you tell me everything?"
She redirected the question, this was not good. There was a couple of minutes of silence.
"Elliot?" Olivia said with question, "Do you tell me everything?"
She said that sentence with so much force, Elliot knew she was mad.
"No," Elliot said quietly.
There was a pause.
"Do you mean like you're keeping some things from me or that you don't tell me stuff I don't want to know?" Olivia asked
Elliot sighed, "Both."
Olivia's eyes started to get really moist, she looked out the window to avoid Elliot's gaze. He was the only man she ever trusted with everything but her whole heart. She was going to be mad but then she realized something, she was keeping him from the truth. She loved him and she had never told him before.
"What are you keeping from me?" She demanded, not really intending to.
She wanted to know so bad.
"I…I can't tell you." Elliot said solemnly.
What is the secret? Reveiw to find out.