Into the darkness

January 19th 1992 I was born. My name is Emme Bethany- Louise Walker. I was born to my parents in the ambulance on the way to Parramatta hospital. Mum never made it that far. I was a cute little cherub apparently my parent had always told me, but I would never be prepared for what my life had in store for me.

Now eleven years on and my parents Liz and Tom are expecting their third child. Another girl. I was the eldest at eleven, then Skye she was six and now another to add to the bunch. Mum and Dad said that they would focus on me this year, as I was starting high school next year and I couldn't wait for it to start. All the old year sixers from our school always say things to scare us like "They flush your head down the toilet, or they'll bash us up!" I'm sure we will do it to the next year sixers. I guess they won't have time now with the new baby and so forth. Oh well.

The baby was born within a week of her due date. Mum did make it to the hospital though this time. (Skye was born in our car on the way to the hospital) mum just had no timing skills. Skye and I were allowed to see our sister as soon as we could. Mum propped her up so we could see her.

"Girls, this is your sister Jessa Olivia- Anne Walker!" she said proudly. Jessa smiled a little. Then went back to sleep. The thing with mum and two middle names is that she only had one so she thought that we should be extra special and have two! Mine is Bethany- Louise and Skye's is Elizabeth- Lee. Dad had given Skye some money for the vending machine and I think it was just a way to get her away.

"Emme?" Mum asked when she had put Jessa in the crib next to her bed

"Yes?" I asked

"Your father and I know that we said that we would concentrate on you this year, but I just don't think I will be able too. We don't think that we should do that to you so we are sending you to New York to live with your Aunty Kate, just for sometime till we get used to having the baby around okay?" I looked up at them. Tears started up in my eyes "I DON'T WANT TO GO, YOU CAN'T MAKE ME!" then I screamed and kicked the chair back it bumped the cot and the baby went off its head. Then I ran out of the room crying. Dad was going to go after her but Mum held his arm.

"Tom, don't just let her calm down she will come round you'll see...I hope?" Elizabeth told her husband.

"You shouldn't have sprang it on Emme that she was going away, jeez Liz do you have any feelings?" then he walked to the door

"Great what are we gonna tell Jessa when she is older, that her older sister did want to leave because we wanted to bond with the baby?" then she shook her head

"Elizabeth that's enough, if you want time to bond with Jessa, then how come your not sending Skye away with Emme?"at the moment a mars bar eating Skye came in.

"Where's Emme going, she has the car out front and is trying to start it!" Tom leaped out of the chair and outdoors he ran to there car there was a sobbing Emme."Oh Emme, Darling it's okay. You don't have to go if you don't want to."

So Emme didn't end up going.

3 months after Jessa birth.

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