Here's the first chapter, hope you like it!

Chapter 1

McGee is showing Gibbs further information on the current case, "Then tony came up with the idea of checking his routine schedule. Maybe there's someone who meets up with him, a little too often." Gibbs and McGee look at Tony, who is sitting at his desk.

"Good thinking DiNozzo." Gibbs told him, but Tony didn't budge. He sat there with his head on his hands, staring at the empty desk across from his.

"He misses her, Boss." McGee whispers to Gibbs and Gibbs nods. Tony then mumbles something. "Did you say something Tony?" McGee asked.

"It just isn't fair." Tony says a little louder; like a whisper.

"I'm sorry Tony, what?"

"I said," Tony stands up, "it just isn't fair!" Tony then walks to the back elevator. McGee looks at Gibbs, and Gibbs shrugs.

*Ding* Tony steps into the elevator. Just as it's about to close, the doors are stopped. "Oh, hi Boss." Tony said. "Going to see Ducky?"

"Yeah, Ducky." Gibbs smirked. The elevator doors closed, and they started going down. Tony puts his head back, but jolted forward when Gibbs stopped the elevator.

"Boss, I've got to go see Abby. Can you let me do that?" Tony asked.

"Talk to me." Gibbs demanded. "I'm not letting you go until you do. I know Abby doesn't have to see you, and you don't have to see her."

"Boss, I do have to see her."

"No you don't. Now talk."

"Boss, it's nothing. I mean, why do all these great people get murdered? They put their lives out on the line to protect their country, so save others, not to be murdered for any reason!? It's never bothered me until now. Who knows, our last John Doe, he could have left kids behind, or a significant other. And with Petty Officer Tatro, it could be the same. In fact, he left his three biological kids, and two step-kids; is youngest, only a 10 month old daughter. She's never going to be able to see her father again. And the step-kids, they actually got along with Tatro. His mother needed him the most. She's dyeing, and he was the only thing holder her together." Tony paused and took a breath. "Can I go see her now?" Tony asked.

"Yeah." Gibbs turned around and flipped the switch back on. "DiNozzo, those are the risks a Marine takes." Gibbs responded. Gibbs knew something else was bothering him, but just didn't know how to get Tony to talk.

"Yeah, well murder isn't one of them." Then Tony remains quiet.

The elevator reaches Abby's lab, and Tony gets out. As he walks to Abby's lab, he hears the door ding, and turns around to make sure Gibbs didn't follow him. "Hey Abby." Tony said.

Abby turned around and smiled "Oh hi Tony!" Then she slumped down like him. "Why do you look grumpy?" Abby said, trying not to giggle.

Tony shakes his head. "I just got done telling Gibbs; I don't feel like explaining it again." Tony then straightens up. "Did you get the blood analysis done?"

Abby stands up, "Tony, if I did, I would have called, and you know that." Abby then tilts her head in question. "Are you sure you're alright?" Abby asked.

"Yeah, Abs. I'm fine. Well, I'm going to go back up now if there isn't anything." Tony turns around.

"Tony, could you have Gibbs come down?" Abby asked.

"He's down with Ducky." Tony answered.

"Ok, thanks." Abby turns around, and Tony leaves. Abby sets up a video call to Autopsy, and sees Ducky cleaning up. "I don't get to see anything?" Abby giggles.

"Abigail! Do you need something?" Ducky asked.

"I'm looking for Gibbs; Tony said he's down by you." Abby answered.

"I'm afraid he's not with me, and he hasn't been."

"Well, then where is he?"

"Right here." Gibbs said, walking in.

"Oh, he's here. Talk to you later Ducky!" Abby closed the chat.

"What do you need me for?"

"Why did you tell Tony you were with Ducky if you weren't?" Abby asked.

Gibbs sighs, "I told Tony that because I was trying to get him to talk, so I did so in the elevator."

"Oh, well he said that he told you what was bothering him, and I want to know. That's why I called you down here." Abby said.

"What he told me isn't the thing bothering him. I know him, and it's never bothered him before."

"Poor Tony. You know what! I'll get him to talk! I'm good at it Gibbs." Abby explained.

"No, Abs. We will let Tony tell us ourselves." Gibbs walks away.

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It's midnight, and Gibbs is in the basement working on his boat. As he's working on it, he hears the steps creak. Without looking, he says, "Can't sleep? Is it bothering you that much?" Then he turns around.

"How did you know it was me?" Tony asked.

"Because DiNozzo, I know." Gibbs grabs two glasses, and walks over by the liquor. "Want a glass?"

Tony nods. "Boss," Tony walks over by him. "what I told you in the elevator, is not what is bothering me."

Gibbs pours a little into a glass, and hands it to Tony. "I know." Gibbs then gives himself a little.

"Then why did you respond the way you did?" Tony asked.

"It's best if I let you tell on your own, instead of letting others get it out of you."

Tony then takes a sip. "It's Ziva." Tony sits on the table. "I can't stand it with her being gone. But most of the time, she just wants to murder me, and I don't like it, but yet I do. I annoy her on purpose, but why?" tony takes another sip. "I don't understand why I feel like this, Boss?"

"Tony," Gibbs walks over next to him, and sits down beside him. "you feel like this way for a reason."

"That's the thing, I don't know the reason!" Tony stands up. "Tell me Boss, tell me why I feel this way."

Gibbs takes a sip and says, "It's called love, DiNozzo."

Tony freezes, then snaps back into reality. He walks to the table, set the cup down, and says, "No, Boss. It isn't love. She's my co-worker, and rule 12. No, I can't love her." Tony then leaves.

"Yeah, but you do." Gibbs tells himself.

I hope you liked it. I had to change it a few times. Leave reviews for suggestions. And this book isn't going to have any McAbby.