Disclaimer: I don't own MASH. If I did, it would've been even slashier than it already was, if that's humanly possible.
A/N: Response to Lisa's 10-minute challenge with the prompt of regret. Funny, but regret has played a part in most of my fics. Heey…written in less than 10 minutes! I'm amazed…I still have like 3 minutes left. Yay! I even kinda like it!
I have a lot of regrets. One of the biggest ones is that I never told Hawkeye the truth. Three words, and I was too afraid to say them. I always told myself it was because of Peg, but that wasn't it, not entirely. I just didn't want to tell him. I didn't want to know what his reaction would be. I mean, he wouldn't have been disgusted. I'm quite sure of that, mostly because of all the times we had sex. But I was worried that he wouldn't feel the same. Or worse, that he would.
I wish I'd told him when I had the chance. I didn't want to--I mean, he was married. He had a kid. I didn't want to make things any harder for him than I already had. He was torn up with guilt over everything we'd done--if he knew how much it meant to me, how much he meant to me--he'd probably feel even more guilty. And I didn't want that. And okay, I was afraid. Every time I've ever told anyone that, they'd broken my heart. And I didn't want that either.
"I loved you."