disclaimer : I don't own the characters

This story is a sequel to ' Waiting for you .' i really suggest you read that story first or else you'll just have a hard time knowing all the characters ,

Past refelections , Prologue

Dear diary ,

It's been a month since everything happened.I just got back from my break.I had a lot time to think things through. I really miss Zen , a lot. But that won't bring her back. I feel sorry for her. She died confession her love for me when i hold her and i couldn't even tell her i loved her too. I guess i just couldn't bring myself to say those words.I never said them before , not to anyone. Well at least , not to anyone who wasn't family.

Michiru has been a great friend , it made me wonder why i wanted to hate her in the first place.Looking back at the previous pages , i see this is the last page left. i think i won't start on another journal , simply because i don't feel like it.

Everything seems to be peaceful now but i don't buy it.I guess i'm just doomed to feel this way forever.The fear of failing your loved ones. I never returned home though , Ranna and my mother visit me sometimes but that's it. I think i'm losing contact with them and that draws we closer to Michiru. Speaking of Michiru , i think i'm coming down with a highschool crush , i think.Maybe it's true love but i don't know , hell i'm not sure of anything anymore except , Michiru won't ever love me back.She's straight. Of what i heard she was secretly dating Heiichi back then , but that's never proven and i don't think it's my place to ask her.

Anyway i once talked to Michiru about all kinds of things like , god. She said she believed in god but i can't understand why.She's hurt to bad , she has seen it all and still she had faith.That's what i love about her , she never gives up. But i wonder if there really is a god because ,

If there really is a god , Then why is it that Michiru's father is still alive ?

Yes alive , He didn't die.Kind of weird though , Raika shot him five times and he seemed death to me. But i heard his body just dissapeared without leaving any trail. I wonder if he will come back to take revenge. But i'll just sit this one out.

If that bastard comes near me again i'm sure i'll kill him , really kill him...

Tenoh , Haruka

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