Chapter One- Meeting Kim
Disclaimer I do not own the Twilight series or anything to do with it. I only own the plot for this story.
A/N this is only my second fan fiction. I have never written for Twilight before but love Jared and Kim so much I thought I would give it a try. You might find this chapter a little slow but I want to build Kim up. Please keep reading and review. It will get better. If there is anything you think I can improve tell me I'd love to hear it. I want to improve. I want to write long chapters so the updates won't be super quick and I'm going on holiday soon but I should be able to write more there then update when I get back. Though I would like to know if people want to read more.
Sorry for the long Author's note. Please read and I hope you enjoy.
Summary
Kim and her family have moved back to La Push after ten years away and she only started school a year ago but instantly fell for Jared Miller. Gorgeous and charming but like everyone he ignores her. But after a year of obsession he finally speaks to her. How will Kim react when her life starts to get weird with her family and Jared and only keeps getting weirder?
My stomach clenched nervously as my lungs stop working. My heart vibrates so quickly I was afraid it had stopped. I couldn't move; my whole body felt stiff and tingled.
"Kim breathe" I suck in air through tight lips "exhale" I blow out "repeat constantly" I suck in more air. "It won't be that bad it's just like starting high school again" Way to put it mum that's exactly what it was. Just this time I knew no one and it was the middle of my time here. Not at the beginning when everyone was new. No, everyone knew everyone!
"Kim?" She expected an answer. All my other siblings would answer they would be bubbling with excitement, not hyperventilating nearly paralyzed with fear. My mother loved children, well not children she loved babies then out going teenagers. She wouldn't mind skipping the part in between. That's why I think she had so many so she could ignore those kids going through that stage. Or in my case the kid that is quite. Prefers reading to playing sports and drawing, to going out to every party there was. The one who had only one friend that was now in a completely different state.
"Yeah" I mange to get out.
"Yeah what?" My mum when she wasn't ignoring me was always trying to get me to 'open up' or 'have fun' or my personal favourite 'why can't you be more like Katie'. What she didn't understand was that going to parties and joining the volleyball team was my personal version of hell. I'd rather listen to music and read and one very important thing I was nothing like my sister Katie! I couldn't more different from her, while she was outgoing and bubbly with thousands of friends, who fit in anywhere. I was shy and quiet with now zero friends. I didn't think Mary would bother to keep in touch I wasn't worth it.
"Yeah it'll be fine"
Now I know your thinking 'but your sisters surely you look alike!' Well think again. Yes we both have black hair, mine is uncontrollable hers like a shampoo advert. My face too wide, hers a perfect heart shape. Now I was lying there are two things we have in common we both have clear skin and a slim figure but she seems to be able to do things with them. I just, well exist. Now you probably thinking oh poor little Kim sitting there being all sorry for herself it can't be all that bad. Sarcastically of course and if I was at all optimistic I would probably be able to look back and see one bright spot in my life when I was happy. But since I'm not I can't. Not even seeing my dad when he comes back from work. As the twins and Kellan and Hannah take up his attention. I get a little attention the usual kiss on the head the hug and the you're my special girl. But how can I be when I'm one of five! That's only the girls I have three brothers! Getting the bathroom in the morning is pure hell let me tell you.
"Kim we're here" My mum pulls up to a stop and I unbuckle my hands shaking. Now usually I would be squashed in the back of the minivan with my brother kicking me or some other horrible things, which if I was really unlucky involved a bodily function. But since I had been ill the first three days of term I was starting now. My siblings had already been here and made the usual impact. According to them it was small but still great there were some really 'cool dudes!' And 'cute guys!' And a 'very impressive library for such as small establishment'.
"Thanks mum" I mumble stepping out of the car. And the only reason I was travelling with my Mother instead of them is because I had gotten the bathroom last again which had me running late but then to add to that I had a panic attack. Whoa go me!
"Have fun sweetie" She sings brightly "try to relax don't do what you usually do and shield away. You'll make friends so much easier!"
"Uh huh" My heart had started to boom now informing me it was defently still working. As I get out of the car. My legs shake.
"You have to catch the bus back with the others. Kellan should have money for a ticket!" Then the door was slammed shut and the car was driving away. It was drizzling like it always was. The past five days I'd been here. I'd been ill so I had nothing better to do that look outside the window. The box with my books in it hadn't arrived yet.
"Come on Kim we can do this" Great now I looked like loser who talked to myself. Great! I take the steps up to the school. A few people still ran to the door I had managed to arrive nearly on time. I take the steps up to the plain old looking building slowly, my breathing beginning to become erratic and I heard myself gasp. Great huge genetically altered butterflies smashed around my stomach, I'm sure intent of turning it into a giant pile of mashed up guts. Eww I disgusted myself. This is why I didn't go anywhere new this is why we should never have move back to my parent's home. I made disgusting images in my head that I would no doubt blurt out to the next person who spoke to me. I turn the corner only to be knocked off my feet and fall straight forward hitting the muddy wet ground hard. My arms stung where I had tried to catch myself. I felt hands pull on my arms yanking me roughly up.
"Shit! Are you ok?" I look up only to look into warm brown eyes.
"Genetically altered butterflies" Oh no. I did it. I actually did it! I feel my cheeks turn hot. The brown eyes seem to melt as he chuckles a low deep chuckle that set my butterflies off somersaulting and my brain to turn to mush. The chuckle came with a crooked smile showing perfect white teeth. The guy holding me up laughing was the most heavenly looking guy ever. His hair was long and scruffy falling over his forehead into his eyes. I wanted to brush it back.
"I take that as a yes?" He was talking to me. What do I do? I nod feeling my cheeks getting hotter.
"Sorry for knocking you over I'm late, so are you who do you have, you look new?" He removed his hands and I felt my knee's buckle but I lock them.
"Erm" I fiddle with the piece of paper with a map and time table on it. I knew some people didn't like looking at the map but I didn't like getting lost more.
"English with Mrs. Kirkham"
"Ooo not good, she hates you being late. So what's your name?"
"K-k-Kim" I stammer he was talking to me. This god like creature.
"Hi, I'm Jared" He frowns a second before his eyes light up "hey your Kellan and Katie's sister right?" Great.
"Yeah"
"Cool they mentioned you your brother is one hell of a baseball player" Yeah that and any other sport you can think off. I nod.
"Well we better get to class" I nod again feeling like one of those nodding dogs you get for the car. Then he turns to walk off strolling down the corridor his shoes squeaking slightly on the wet floor. I stand looking after him.
"Kim!" He turns catching me looking he smirks slightly before motioning to him "You coming?" Me? I nod shakily then follow. Nearly slipping again to catch up to him.
"Just smile sweetly at Mrs. Kirkham and listen at all times she likes to pick on people randomly. I nod once again and we walk in silence then till we reach the class room. I was shocked when Jared opened the door and pushed me inside. My back tingled where his hand touched me before stepping in behind me. A woman with light brown hair tied back in a loose bun and intelligent green eyes behind trendy glasses. She was young and annoyed by the look of things.
"Hey miss" Jared greets and I can hear the smile in his voice. I was frozen I didn't know how to move my body had forgotten.
"Hello Jared nice of you to join us and you brought a friend how nice" she turns to look to me "and you are?"
"K-Kim" I stutter I hear a familiar sigh and look to my left to see Katie. Oh yeah forgot to mention. She's my twin. No freaky mind reading there let me tell you.
"Ah yes Kim do take a seat" She motions to a free seat next to Katie and I hold back a groan. I take a step forward dragging my feet wishing I still couldn't remember how to walk. I slump into my seat as Katie moves her stuff closer to her side of the desk.
"Right since everyone is here we can start class properly, Oh but" She turns to look to the back of the class room. This was as tatty looking as the rest of the school with multicoloured paper covering up walls with huge cracks in them. I follow her eyes to the corner where Jared and another boy who was wearing a smile and a frown at the same time were talking. "Only when Mr Miller and Turner are ready of course" I was starting to like this teacher I just hope I never get on her bad side.
"A few more minutes miss" Jared smiles.
"A few minutes after school in detention sounds better" At that and a raised eyebrow they boys were silent. The lesson started it was ok. The only problem was Katie.
"Oh my god you walked in with Jared Miller!" She whispered when we were working. I nodded knowing where she was going with this. Of course she thought Jared was cute. Not that he was, he was more than cute he was breath taking.
"Kim!" She exclaims loudly at my lack of excitement. Not that I wasn't jumping inside. Mrs. Kirkham gives us a sharp look. Katie just rolls her eyes. "Are you blind!"
"No" I answer pretending I didn't know where she was going.
"You are so annoying!" She gives up as I knew she would if I just ignored her. She would start off gushing about how amazingly handsome he was then move on to who he's dating/dated and then everything else about his life that only stalkers know. My sister always did that the first day. Find out everything about anyone she thought fit to be friends with. She was a terrible gossip. I just shrug at her pout. While I resisted asking her about him she would just ask why then never let go of the fact that I liked him. The rest of the lesson and day was spent with her sulking with me. I had every lesson with her except one. History. My favourite lesson now not only because of the subject. No. It was because Jared sat next to me. Right next to me. My heart had nearly given up it had such a fit. But it was that lesson that my day went from normal to terrible. He didn't speak to me in fact he hardly noticed me. He was talking to that boy who smiled and frowned though mostly it was just an angry frown. I didn't let the whole ignored thing get to me I was use to it. That's why I was moping when I went to find Kellan at the end of the day. He was hanging out with the usual type he liked. Loud and constantly goofing around.
"Erm Kellan!" I say louder than usual for him to hear me over the racket they were making.
"Hey! Little sis" He had to point out I was half his size. Kellan was 18, huge and loud. Pretty stereotypical but then I had a stereotypical family.
"Hi, do you have the money mum gave you?" He looks to me blankly. His friends were all staring at me. Looking confused.
"Is this Katie's twin?"
"Yeah they're not identical" Kellan asks not looking away from me but frowning. He'd forgotten surprise surprise.
"Oh" One boy sighs sounding disappointed. "She's hot it would have been nice to have two of them"
"Hey!" Kellan looks to the boy now angry. "Don't talk about my sister that way!" Did he just defend me? "Your not going near Katie!" No. I swallow the hurt.
"Kellan?" I remind him I was there. Looking at his left shoulder to keep my eyes averted from his friends a few staring at me quizzically, no doubt trying to find some resemblance between Katie and me.
"Oh yeah the money" He turns around back to face me calmer. That was Kellan quick temper and quick cool down.
"Can I have it?"
"Well about that…" He scratched the back of his neck nervously "I forgot it was for you I bought lunch with it" I try not to let my anger control me when I got angry I cried it was annoying. I also went bright red and tended to make a fool of myself. Great now I was walking.
"Do you know if Katie or Hannah have any money?"
"Nope" As in nope they don't or don't know. I was going to ask but I had been forgotten. Kellan now talking with his friends. One who I found with great embarrassment was still looking at me. I turn bright red and head off to find Hannah or Katie. Katie was only 14 but was already taking eleventh grade maths. Mum and dad had refused to let her skip years though wanting her to have a normal upbringing. Ha! It was raining now not drizzling and I groan as my search was fruitless. They had already left. I look to the long road ahead praying that it wouldn't rain harder. As I take my first few steps the clouds break. Big cold drops of rain pelt down on me soaking me in an instant. I hold back a sob as I continue to slog through the rain. Home wasn't that far away just far away enough to make walking a hard work. Defiently in the rain.
I got home an hour later after tripping and spilling the content of my bag in a puddle. I went straight to my room to dry my books but Katie caught me on the stairs.
"Oh my god why are you soaking and a hour late?" I close my eyes keeping the tears in. I'd had a crap day. I was tiered and now my sister was asking me stupid questions.
"I had to walk home" I mumble quietly.
"Did Kellan spend the money?" I nod. "Why didn't you find me? I could have gotten you a lift with me or given you my money" It was harder holding in this sob but I managed.
"I did try to find you, you'd left"
"Oh" She pauses for a moment before smiling "dinners ready" I nod my head dropping.
"I have to change… I'll be a minute"
"OK" Katie says distracted her phone had rung. I run upstairs changing quickly as I breathe deeply. I put my books out to dry then make my way to the dinning room. Everyone was seated and eating. My plate had been put down and I noticed some food was already missing. I sigh as I take a seat. It takes a moment for my mother to notice I had arrived.
"Kim!" She shouts over the noise the rest of the family were making. The Ten year old twins Louise and Gina were arguing between themselves in a pitch I'm sure only dogs could hear. Josh was laughing at something Kellan was telling him loudly. Katie had been talking to my mum. Probably about the party she had been invited to at third period. The only people missing where my dad and my oldest brother Caleb who was at college. I look up from my plate.
"Why are you late to dinner?"
"I told Katie I was going to change I was wet from walking home" I mumble to her. Her eyes widen as her eyebrows rose. It was telling off face.
"Don't you bring your sister into this and why were you walking home I told you Kellan had your money"
"He spent it on lunch" Mum rounded on Kellan.
"Kellan Bell! I told you!" Kellan looks sheepish.
"Sorry I was hungry" Mum rolls her eyes but looks back to me.
"Why didn't you call me I would have picked you up when I picked up the twins" Katie and I were never called the twins.
"I did you were busy" I mumbled looking down. I had phoned her it went straight to voice mail. Three times.
"Sorry love" She smiles sadly at me "I'll give you the money tomorrow" I nod my thanks as I start to each what was left of my meal. Conversation carried on. A few minutes later the door opened and the twins squealed.
"DADDY!" It was freaky how they looked alike and could do the whole talking together thing. I also knew they snored at he same time.
"Hey sugar plums" My dad smiles tiredly as he moves to take a seat at the table. My mum pecks him on the cheek before getting him a plate. Katie hugs him, he pats Kellan's shoulder proudly, ruffles Josh's hair. Then pats me on the head. It wasn't like Kellan it was just some way to show affection. He didn't understand I wanted a hug like Katie. He thought because we were so different I didn't want my dad to hug me like Katie. I suck in a sharp breath at the usual stab of pain it caused me. None of my family understood me. It was that simple. I tried to make them but it never worked. I know all teenagers feel that way but not all of their life and not like I do.
"So how was your day?" My dad ask looking to me. I smile slightly before opening my mouth.
"It was-"
"Great!" Kellan booms over the top of me. I shrink back in my seat as my siblings take over. Not once was I drawn into conversation again and when I tried I was talked over. Not till the subject of the party Katie was invited to came up.
"Katie take your sister" My mum commands.
"Muuuuum!" Katie whines her head tilting to the side as her lips forming a perfect pout. I take pity on her.
"It's alright mum I wasn't invited and I don't want to go anyway"
"Kim!" My mum shrieks "Why don't you want to go?" She doesn't ask why I wasn't invited.
"You know I don't like parties and I was hoping my books would have arrived by then" Suddenly the table went quiet. My whole family looked anywhere but at me.
"Mum?" I ask dread filling my stomach.
"Kim Honey, now it was a mistake we thought you wanted them to go to the charity shop" My eyes grew tingly and I felt water build up "Now you have to understand when I came home and the box was just waiting at the bottom of the stairs, you have to admit it looked like that"
"I told you I was waiting for my books" I whisper looking down to my plate.
"No you didn't honey"
"Yes I did" The tears were getting harder and harder to hold back.
"Well we can get you some more. I hear a lot of people are reading this series oh what is it? Its about a teenage girl around your age going through high school. Apparently its really funny. I'll pick some up for you if you want" I try to smile but I couldn't. I stand.
"Can I be excused?" I don't wait for an answer but leave quickly but not before I heard Katie.
"I don't know why she's so upset they're just books"
"Me neither" My mother sighs and I can see her shaking her head. That's the problem they never understand! I didn't want to read about a funny teenager. I wanted to escape into my world of magic. I wanted my old books back that offered comfort. Mum hadn't listened to me. She didn't know what books I liked but I bet she knew what lip balm Katie preferred.
I ran up the stairs to my room. I was lucky that I shared my room with my Louise and Gina Katie had insisted and had a strop till my parents gave in a gave her a room of her own. The twins liked to play down stairs so I had a few hours to myself. I managed to keep my self under control till I was sat on my bed. Curling my knees under my chin I finally aloud myself to break down. Tears hot and salty ran down my cheeks as silent sobs caused my body to tremble. I had felt so small, so lost, so alone all day. I was ignored and even when the teachers forced people to talk to me they looked to me like I was freak and I had tried to be open. That's what hurt the most I had tried! I hated it. Every second. Couldn't I have stayed in my old school? There I had a friend. I close my eyes when I finally had no tears to cry. It should be different at home. My family should understand me. They shouldn't just think I was completely different form them because I was quieter and didn't express all my emotions loudly and passionately like them. It would be nice just once to be noticed by one person for them to look at me, not just because they're trying to see if I resemble Katie at all. To like me and talk to me because they want to not because they've been told to. I want some one to love me. To hold me when I was upset. Some one to be with me. As I hated feeling this alone. I smile to myself when I remember one person talking to me. Helping me. I knew I would remember that for ever. He hadn't noticed me again but there were years ahead. I groan to myself when I realise I was crushing on Jared Miller, and I had only known him a day. My eyes feel heavy and gritty as sleep pulls to me. As I fell asleep I saw his perfect grin and smiled back.
A year as past since then and he hasn't noticed me only to ask for a pencil a few times. But I've grown worse. I now had a serious crush for Jared Miller. I wrote out names together with girly hearts around it in all my note books. My History grade was suffering as I couldn't concentrate with him right next to me. Also I had become obsessed with gossip when it involved him. I knew everything about him even down to the fact he didn't like mayo and on Thursday's he always had pepperoni pizza for lunch with a coke. I was a girl obsessed. But the worse thing was he hadn't been in school for three weeks! My History grade was even lower! I looked for each day but he never turned up. I heard people thought he was ill, but what illness could be that bad to keep you from school for three weeks! Each day I was hopeful as I was when I stepped off the bus today.