Ok peoples Rose here. Umm hi. Ok well I dont own Gundam Wing, You all know that I hope. Well anyways I'm not making money off this and probably never will. Now on with the story.

PROLOGUE

I stared into the sky watching the clouds floating by change into familiar and imaginary objects. Mostly imaginary considering that I was staring at a life-less lump of condensed water. ' Jeez I just sucked the fun out of this activity.' I was a soldier without a war. I didn't have anything to do, of course there was always peacekeeping duty, but I was always trained to kill and protect, not to stop small squabbles.

"What is this emotion I feel. What is this overwhelming sensation I keep having." I asked myself.

I was in the local park near my apartment building, laying on a grassy hill-side with my hands behind my head. I was staring at the clouds but now I was just thinking.

Everything was so familiar to me, yet so different and new. It was almost like I had come to a completely new place. The war had changed everything I knew and the rebellion that formed shortly after but failed in its endeavor made life even more complicated.

I felt an emptiness inside. Almost like someone had gutted all meaning for life out. I had a weird longing inside for something I never realized I had within my grasp. This place held so many memories for me, that had always brought on happiness, but now it just reminded me of how alone I really was. I always had someone here with me on this base, my friends, my fellow cadets, and of course my sister. I also had Derek. I thought he was the true love of my life.

I guess I never realized that I was on the verge of true happiness when I turned him down. When I left him there thinking he had me forever, I was afraid of the commitment, the life-long goal I was facing. I wasn't sure I could spend the rest of my life with him. I was scared and young. It was a tradition in my family to marry at 16, and it was also tradition to be betrothed, and Derek Lensar just to be "the one" for me. It was in my parents will for me to marry him, but my sister understood my need to still be free. So she got me an application to the military academy in Italy, and secretly got me out of there before anyone knew where I had gone.

I was so afraid of him. I was afraid of my life with him. Would my life with him bring sadness and constant problems? Or would I be happy? I don't even remember why I was so scared. I guess I will never know how it would of turned out.

Oh well, I'm somewhat happy now and, I guess that's all that matters.