The Secret

By Silverwolf

Matt, Adam, Jeff, Amy

Jeff sits on the hotel room bed tired from the day. He couldn't sleep even though he was tired. "God, I hate these long nights without you," he says talking to the air. He thought I should call at least then I will be able to hear his voice. Jeff didn't really want to wake him, but he couldn't live without hearing the sound of his voice. He picks up the phone and dials the number. It rings twice and then Matt picks the phone up. "Hello." "Hey, how are things there?" "Okay." Jeff's heart raced as he was hung on every word Matt said. He couldn't believe how stupid it was to be in love with his own blood.

They talked for awhile before Matt told him that he had to let him go in order to take a shower. Jeff hung up the phone. 'Take a shower'; he tried to picture the image.

Lying back on the bed Jeff imagines Matt walking across a room similar to his own. Opening the door Matt steps inside the bathroom. Turning on the shower Matt pulls off his shirt and steps out of his pants. Pulling back his hair Matt steps into the shower. Jeff thinks of the soft black curls, hot water, and the thick muscle along his back as he washes his body.

Jeff thinks how can I put myself in my own brain. Let's see: add steam. Damn, that's perfect. Now add me. Because of the steam Matt cannot see Jeff slide in the shower behind him. Jeff glides his hands along Matt's back. Matt turns around and slides an arm around his slim waist. Jeff looks into deep brown eyes. Matt glances towards Jeff's hungry green eyes but cannot break the gaze. Jeff holds the gaze too long. He can't hold back any longer. He kisses Matt. It is quick and hesitant. Matt first looks shocked, but then kisses Jeff. Jeff jerks back from the returned kiss. He can't believe what just happened. Matt looks hurt and that bothers Jeff. Jeff can't help it he kisses Matt. Matt can feel Jeff's tongue along his lips. Matt allows Jeff access. He can feel Jeff's tongue ravage his mouth.

Jeff's thoughts are interrupted by a knock at the door. He looks towards the door but doesn't answer it. "Come on Jeff open the damn door!" Jeff lies on the bed not bothered by her shouting. "Jeff open the door before I tell Matt how much you would like to…" Jeff opens the door for Amy and eyes her annoyed. "Just remember honey two can play. I have dirt on you. Spill even the slightest bit and Adam will know of how much you fanaticize about jumping his bone." Amy buries her reddened face along the pillows of the other bed. "I would never tell!"

Matt's Hotel Room

Matt looks over to the other bed where Adam slept. "God, I wish you weren't blonde," he states lowly. Matt sits thinking about what Jeff could possibly be doing.

He lies back on the bed; "I'm really screwed up this time. I think constantly about my younger brother. I feel so pathetic and dirty." Matt tried to sleep. The heat of the night didn't keep the mood he was in. "Lil bro are you sleeping right now?" Matt eyes the ceiling as he asks, "please give me a hint." Matt forced himself into sleep frustrated again.

Jeff's Hotel Room

Jeff slept lightly. Amy looks towards him once before turning to sleep for herself, "you had never tell Adam anything." Amy falls asleep after her statement.

Matt's Hotel Room

Matt awoke and checked his watch: seven-thirty. He rolled over and tried to return to his dream world of a king size mattress and not being alone at night.

Matt glances towards Adam's bed. He isn't sleeping. Adam finally steps out of the bathroom dressed in blue jeans and a sweatshirt. He is drying his blonde curls. Matt thought you have no idea how much that annoys me. Matt notices Adam speaking to him. Hey, you seem a little distracted. You okay?" Matt smirks, "I'm fine. I'm trying to decide whether or not I should tell someone a really important fact." "If it's important then you should tell." "I don't know." "Hey I can't make you I can make suggestions."

Matt turns away from Adam lost in thought. He then reaches for the phone after Adam leaves the room. He dials the number to Jeff's hotel room. Matt hears the voice on the other end. It's Amy. "Can I speak to Jeff?"

Matt hears Amy wake Jeff and hands him the phone. Jeff yawns. "Hello?" Hey. I was hoping you would call." "Amy didn't have to wake you." "That's okay. I would've been mad if she didn't" I have something to tell you." Jeff couldn't believe it. His heart was racing. Jeff thought could this really be happening. "Yeah?" "Umm…good luck in your match tonight." "Thanks." Matt could tell there was some disappointment in his voice. What was he hoping for me to say?

Jeff's Hotel Room

Amy looks at Jeff's face. "It didn't happen, huh?" Jeff doesn't say anything to Amy. Jeff buries his face in the pillow and forces himself back to sleep. Amy dials Matt's cell number. She can't tell him.

Matt's Hotel Room

Adam enters the room. "So?" "So what?" "Matt, did you take my advice?" "I couldn't tell him." "Tell who what? Maybe I could help you." "Tell Jeff." "What Matt?" "I can't tell you." "Well then let's try this. I guess and you nod yes or no." Matt nods.

Adam takes several guesses but they aren't correct. The phone rings and Adam snatches it up. He isn't on it very long before hanging up. Matt looks at him inquiringly. "That was Vince. Tonight's show is cancelled and we should start our way towards Charlotte. We got to perform there tomorrow night." Matt's eyes light up. Charlotte, yes, Jeff please be there. We can talk there. His mind is racing. He dials Jeff's cell phone. There isn't any answer. Matt panics. No! This isn't right. He leaves a message and prays for Jeff to call back.

Jeff Hotel Room

Amy fights with Jeff to wake him up. He finally does. "What?" "You're cell has been ringing for the past few minutes." Jeff picks up his cell and dials the numbers to get his messages. Amy watches his eyes light up. "Matt's coming here. Their show was cancelled!" Jeff is jumping around the room. Amy glances towards Jeff. "Are you sure you want him to see you dressed in those," she points towards the cutoffs Jeff slept in. Jeff laughs but goes to take a shower and change.

Matt's Car

Matt sits pondering what to do. He believes that Jeff should know, but could Matt ever bring himself to tell Jeff.

Jeff's Hotel Room

Jeff appears wearing a pair of black leather pants and a long-sleeve, ribbed, midriff-style T-shirt. He slides on a pair of black boots and ties a bandana against his wet hair.

Matt's Arrival

Matt can't tell Jeff or can he? He enters the hotel and watches Adam check into a room. Adam and Amy will share this room tonight and tomorrow. Matt already asked her if it was okay. He would spend the next few nights with Jeff. He thought please get the courage you stupid SOB.

Jeff's Hotel Room

Amy has her things packed. She hasn't told Jeff about what she and Matt decided upon. Amy receives a phone call of the hotel room number she will share with Adam. She's excited. Jeff looks at her, "what's going on?" "It's a surprise." "I hate surprises." "You'll like this one."

Amy leaves to join Adam after he's settled in. this leaves Jeff alone until there is a knock at the door. Jeff opens the door without thinking about it. Matt stands on the other side of the door. Jeff looks at him as he enters the room and places his stuff down. "Amy decided that I should stay with you. Well actually I kinda asked her to let me stay with you."

Adam's Hotel Room

Amy finally gets the nerve to tell Adam about her feelings. "Hey Adam. What would you say if I told you I like you?" "I would say it just won't work out." "Why?" "You're not my type." "So what is your type?" "If I told you I would kill ya. Naw, just playing." "Tell me." "I could show you later." It was time for Amy to leave with Jeff for the arena.

Jeff's Hotel Room

Jeff knows he has to go. He doesn't want to. He leaves still disappointed about what he wants to hear not being said. Jeff walks to Amy's room. She opens the door. Jeff steps into the room. Adam smirks and turns away. Amy and Jeff leave.

The Hallway

"What was the smirk about?" Amy stands disappointed. She understood, but she wasn't gonna tell Jeff. "I don't know. So did you tell him?" 'No." "Maybe you should show him." 'What's wrong," Jeff states noticing her disappointment. "I told Adam." "And?" "He doesn't think of me like that. I'm not his type." "It'll be okay. It's his loss."

Early Morning (one a.m.)

Jeff enters his room leaving Amy walking to her room. Matt is asleep so Jeff chooses not to bother him as he gets ready to go to sleep himself. Jeff steps close by Matt's bed but cannot wake him. Jeff lies on top of the blankets on his own bed and falls asleep.

Later That Morning

Matt can't take it anymore. He has to tell Jeff. Matt isn't really sure how he should break the news. Matt gets out of bed and walks over to where Jeff is sleeping. Matt glides a finger along the bridge of Jeff's nose. Jeff wakes as he repeats this action. Jeff slides back giving Matt a place to lie next to him. Matt accepts Jeff's offer. Jeff turns his body away from Matt. He knows he won't be able to look at him without doing something he'll regret later.

Matt turns towards Jeff and slides an arm around his waist. Matt pulls him close to his body. Jeff's confused. He doesn't know what this means. He can feel Matt nuzzle close to him. Jeff places some space between him and Matt in order to allow him to face his brother. The two laying staring. That is until Matt kisses Jeff. Jeff pulls back but it doesn't last. Jeff kisses Matt this time with more passion behind it.