An Other Argument -All the mistakes are mine, sorry English is not my first language.The characters are not mine, my bad luck.
These words are still ringing in my ear, all what has been said between us. We both hurt each other and for what?
"You can stay in the room but get out of my head" Does he really meant it? Does he just want me to shot up? Or does he want to forget all we had been gone together?
The words flow to fast in those moments, "You so afraid to leave alone" I told him.
"And you afraid to die that way" he said harshly back
He is right I'm, but I never thought he will leave me. I guess I thought that I'm not alone. But with Kara back, will he leave me now? He lost her once; will he let it happen again?
But I think the thing that he was the most right about was that maybe, just maybe I'm scared that my death will be meaningless likes everybody else's, Does that make me selfish?
And he just left, and I wonder as I'm looking at my hair that is falling, what is worse the cancer or the treatment? To be right or to lose the man that I love?