I have had this on my computer for a while and while it was originally meant to be a really long one shot I got stuck so divided it in to lots of mini chapters.

Enjoy x

"We're thinking about naming her Peri." Her dad smiled at the newborn baby in his arms and Leela can feel her heart breaking. She had given birth over an hour ago, her mother was by her side the whole time.

"Hadn't really thought about it." She lies. Her baby was going to be called going to be called Rebecca if she was a girl after Leela's grandmother, but this isn't her baby. Not any more.

"Your mum hasn't committed to anything yet but it's just a matter of time." He cooed. "I was the one to name you and Tegan you know."

Her mum smiled leaning down to stroke the baby's cheek. "Exactly! So I should get to pick this ones name."

"You like boring names, you wanted to call Tegan Elizabeth!" Danny scoffed.

"What's wrong with Elizabeth?"

"How is Teags?" Leela asked.

Her dad smiled up at her. "The doctors are optimistic. They say she done really well."

"That's good." Leela said faking a smile. She was ecstatic the Tegan was going to get better it had been all she had wanted for months but right now she was more upset about the baby.

Her parents had decided months ago that she couldn't raise a baby and it was better for them all if they raised her but that wasn't what Leela wanted. She wanted to be a mum, she wanted to be Peri's mum.

"We still need to go see her actually." Sam said checking her watch. "I cannot wait to tell her about the baby, she'll be over the moon."

"I don't want to put her down." Danny whined making Sam smile.

"You've got the rest of her life to cuddle her." Sam teased. "She's going to be a right little daddy's girl, I can tell."

Her dad smiled putting Peri back into the plastic cot she had been wheeled in in. "I hope so."

Leela's thought's drifted to Cameron, her baby's father. Wondering if her mother would be saying that if it where her and Cameron raising the baby.

"You going to be OK love?" Her mum asked.

Leela smiled. "Yeah just tired, going to go for a sleep."

"Ok," Her mum said leaning over and kissing her head. "Your doing the right thing you know."

"I know." She lied. She had always been a skilled liar but she didn't think either of her parents believed her this time.

"We'll see you both tomorrow." Her dad said kissing her in the same place as her mother before leaning over to kiss the baby. "I Cannot wait till all three of my girls are home."

"Eh what about me? Am I not one of your girls." Her mother asked feigning anger.

"No." Danny said kissing her. "You're my woman."

Both parents laughed at his mushy comment as they left.

Leela watched as both her parents left before slowly creeping out of the bed acutely aware of the pain radiating through her body before making her way over to the little plastic cot that held her baby. Looking down she couldn't believe that she had created something so beautiful, so perfect. She vowed that she would never let anything in this world hurt her baby.

"Hello." She murmured slowly reaching her finger out and touching the tiny little fingers. "I'm you're mummy and you, you are so perfect."

"Do you want a little hold before we take her away to the nursery?" A nurse asked coming into the room undetected.

Leela froze unsure what to do. "Erm yeah, Yeah I want to hold her."

"Pop onto the bed and I'll pass her over." The nurse said scooping up Peri.

Leela climbed onto the bed waiting hesitantly unsure.

"Here we go mummy." The nurse said putting Peri in her arms before she had a chance to say she had changed her mind.

Mummy. It was the first time someone had called her that. The title made her heart beat faster. For one night she was this little girls mummy.

"Am I doing this right?" She asked feeling self-conscious when holding the baby, scared she was doing it totally wrong.

"She'll soon tell you if you aren't." The nurse reassured. "I'll be back for her in 10 minutes let you get some sleep."

"OK." Leela replied distractedly to besotted with the tiny baby in her arms.

"I don't know what to say to you." She said stroking her hat covered head. "I want to tell you I'm your mummy. I want to always be you're mummy, I just can't right now they don't think I can handle it..." Leela spoke softly against the baby's hat covered head, tears making their way down her cheeks.

She wanted to run. Just take her baby and run some place they would never find her but she couldn't. She couldn't do that to Peri.

"But," She smiled trying to be brave for her baby. "No matter how much it hurts me I want what's best for you, that's all that matters. You are going to have a wonderful life, I'm going to make sure of it and no matter what I will always be there for you, even if I am just your big sister. I'll be the best big sister you ever had. Don't tell Tegan I said that." She laughed through her tears, knowing how happy Tegan would be not to be the youngest any more.

"I want you to know that no one, no one in this world will ever love you as much as I do but that's why I have to do this, I have to let you go."

Leela spent the rest of what little time she had left holding just her daughter.