Full summary-
Whilst Rey is off 'finding' and hopefully being trained by Luke, Finn finally awake but surely recovering and General Organa trying her to best to keep it together, Poe has been hiding secrets from everyone and it's slowly starting to eat away at him. With the threat of the First Order still looming over them and a mysterious group 'Lotus' emerging from the shattered Republic capital, friendships and loyalties will be threatened especially when secrets and truths come to light.
Not all will be the same again.
Pairings: Finn/Poe, Kylo/Poe and Leia/Han
~Rating may change~
Notes;
Hi *Waves*
A great big thank you to Cecil and Laura for helping me edit this! Much kudos to you guys! :D I hope I make sense during the notes haha :')
So this is my first fanfic ever.. Super nervous! D: I got the idea for this fanfic just a few days ago after seeing the film for the second time..
Just as a heads up too, Poe's and a few characters, their background information will be a little same but different to canon (half canon and the other half not canon). So it'll be a different take (a new good take?) on things in a way which I hope doesn't annoy many people :')
I've also posted this onto archiveofourown :)
Thank you for reading! :D
(Italics are Poe's thoughts and Bold&Italics are voices that he hears- all will be revealed one day aha) :)
Balance- Chapter 1
Alone...
Fear...
Cold…
Warm…
Caring…
Finn…
Alone…
Nobody…
Finn…
Force...
Broken...
Pain...
Everyone..
The voices were beginning to make him feel like he was going mad.
Maybe he was mad.
If only he was mad…
Poe Dameron, resistance pilot, the best, shook his head as if that would stop the voices but they didn't stop. They kept going. He ran a hand through his wavy and tousled hair, dragging out a loud sigh as he looked around his room.
I really should clean this place up...
Poe thought of Finn who was slowly but surely recovering from his wound from his fight with Kylo Ren and he thought of Rey, the girl and soon-to-be-trained Jedi from Jakku who went off to find Luke. She hoped to be trained by him and bring him back to the base, back to his sister who is both General and Princess, Leia Organa. He thought of the General who has nearly lost everything and everyo- He really needs to stop thinking.
An hour went by quicker than expected but nevertheless, Poe grinned as he took in his now-clean bedroom. He stripped down to his t-shirt and boxers, climbed into bed and pulled the bed covers over him. He has to remember to find time to thank BB-8 somewhere between seeing and speaking to his team about flight tests and future missions, cleaning his clothes and seeing General Organa.
So much to do, he thought to himself with a quiet groan.
Sighing deeply and gazing up at the ceiling on his back as his thoughts ran amok again. It has been three weeks since Starkiller Base was destroyed, Rey going after Luke, Han Solo murdered and Finn being badly injured. It's only been a week since Finn woke up whilst Poe and BB-8 were by his side, Finn happy, worried and concerned, asking about everyone – especially Rey. General Organa walked in before Finn could ask and say more, he never said much over what had happened on the Starkiller base (in which Poe felt oddly happy yet concerned about). An image of Kylo Ren came to his mind. He flinched and gripped onto his bed covers as he tried to keep away the memories of what had happened with Kylo.
Just who was Kylo Ren? Just who is it under the mask?
His thoughts went back to what had happened with Kylo Ren, the torture and the pain wasn't missed at all but that wasn't the main concern. The main concern is the fact that Poe felt as though Kylo seemed familiar, seemed familiar like an old friend and before he could think more into Kylo Ren, his thoughts focused back onto Finn, Rey, the General, Skywalker and others. One thing for sure, General Organa might be hiding things from him and everyone else, having her own secrets and maybe it was a matter of time before they came out – just like his secrets that will one day soon come to light.
Oh crap, his secrets. They mustn't find out, Poe thought to himself. I'll be more in danger if they do find out. I need to be more on guard if Skywalker comes to the base. I need to be more careful around Rey, Finn, the First Order and Kylo Ren. I need to be more on guard from now on. They mustn't find out, he repeated to himself.
Pleasurable, calm warmth was felt in Poe's mind, thoughts draining away, voices becoming quiet and his eyes starting to feel heavy. He closed his eyes and as the seconds went by, his breathing became gentle and slow. Poe smiled just as a voice spoke softly to him.
Sleep…
And so, he did.