Happiness: A bitter memory of ours
Kagome sat patiently for Sesshomaru, his manor seemed like a far off plain residence for his dwelling, as always she'd never expect such exotic scenery from the man she never thought he was capable in finding joy in material things, for it'd be to human for his liking. Kagome waited for the demonic man to walk in, her visits had always been one of many activities; but their late nights together had never been one for words an unspoken relationship.(one Inu-yasha had no idea about) Something about the man just drew her to him despite his lack of feeling, she knew what she felt for him. Kagome wondered had it been his beauty, his eloquence...no it was more, something a little less tangible, that had drawn her to him the ebony haired woman sat down the light rain kept coming down though her attention immediately resurfaced to the door as it opened "..Sesshomaru..." she whispered as his eyes pierced her being.
Kagome's P.O.V
In this waiting darkness I can feel yet I can't see you, bluntly I felt your hands they we're cold and stiff and hard I grabbed them yet quickly let go and fell onto my back my face void of emotion it was pure stoic bliss, yet my own impudent emotions refused you, though I ignored their warnings of your love, of how wavering unkind and cold it could be, as you slipped my pants off I felt your fingers looming over the un caressed skin of my thighs, like a virgin, I was in a haze.
How could I've missed it the distant and uncaring gleam in your eyes despite the heat that held you...You stare down at me and I smile, reassuring you again I'd wanted your love and all that came with it, Yet as you came closer tears escaped my tightly shut eyes and pain opened my mouth, graciously you looked down upon me, I was hurting and so you let go as I felt you slip away out of my door and out of my life again I questioned it, Why? I laid there curled into a fetal position motionless and unyielding by any and everything.
I closed my eyes and cried to myself as I could still feel your soft yet hard fingers dance over my skin lovingly, but why when you touch caress or hold me did it hurt? My love why have you left me once again alone in this dark.
The rain seemed to get louder and heavier with each passing second, as my heart sings sorrowfully. It's a shame really but I rather have lost you bitterly than regretfully but I guess their both one in the same really, though I'd missed the most vivid of all pictures how in your eyes pass the anger you held toward yourself pass your love for me, and what we we're doing your eyes...they held uncertainty and dew to your unwillingness to take me into your arms, for you felt guilty thinking I'd be empty with regret after you'd broken through my innocence, but why did you have to leave me alone again in this dark with my sullen emotions, feeling distraught.
I speak aloud to no one but myself 'Is it true what they say? Does love truly come in only one form...Despair.
Thank-you for reading my first fic, R&R
Kazuki Nogi