N/A: This is my first serious fic ever, and though I have already started with a second chapter, I am not sure if it will work, so please review and tell me if I should upload the next chapter or if it looks better as a one shot (two shots, I guess)

Oh, and by the way, I do not own nothing but the plot. If I did, Gossip Girl would be so much different...

Blair looked up on him suspiciously.
- You wanna talk?
- I wanna talk.
It'd been a week since she had had her breakdown, and going back to school was quite awful, but revenge was coming on everyone who had contributed on her fall. She had plans for everyone, everyone but him. How could she think of destroying him, when all she wanted was to hear him say that he still wanted her? And now, after a week of loneliness, with Serena and Dan as her only company, he was talking to her.
- Come on. Just lunch, and then we can go back to ignore each other.
He couldn't help but smile when she said yes. He had no idea what he was doing, it had taken what seemed like ages to force Nathan into talking to him again, and now he was about to blew it. But she was there, and nothing seemed to make much sense when their eyes met. He just knew he needed to sit next to her, at least once more. He wanted to hear her sound happy, and to accomplish that, he needed to be close to her. At least once more.
They went to a small bar and ordered, and talked about nothing. The weather, Blair's dad, every subject they could think of that wouldn't lead them to dangerous grounds. And once they finished their meal, Blair stood up.
- Will you wait for me? I must go to the toilet.
Chuck watched her go with concern. He had noticed something awkward. Without thinking about it for too long, he stood up and followed her. He stopped at the ladies' door, and his fears were confirmed. Within no time, he heard a strong noise, as if someone had fallen down on the floor. As he opened the door, his heart beat raised until he felt it going out of his body. Was Blair sick? She had fainted, and as he picked her up from the floor, he suddenly realized what was going on.
Few minutes after, Blair woke up and looked around, confused. She was sitting in Chuck's limo, with him staring at her with the most caring look anyone had ever had.
- Did I... ?
- You fainted. - Chuck stared at her, not knowing how to start.- Blair, you'e beautiful.
She looked at him with her eyes wide open.
- Are you OK?
- Seriously. Do you know that?
- Of course I know that. - She laughed somewhat sounding fake. She wasn't sure where this conversation was heading to, but she knew she wouldn't like it.
- Blair.
- If you're planning on saying anything, please say it at once. - She had tried to sound polite, but if he was going to say what she thought he was going to say, it was better to solve it quickly.
- Are you bulimic?
Blair ran out of breath at that very instant. That was definitely not what she had expected. Stepping out of the vehicle, she didn't even look back. The last thing she needed was people finding out that fallen Queen B was not just not a virgin, but had trust issues. Because that's what she preferred to call it. Bulimia sounded so much like an illness.

A few hours later, she heard a knock on her door. Before she could say anything, Chuck entered.
- How did you get in?
- Eleanor Waldorf is an exquisite woman, I suppose you know that.
Blair tried not to show any signs of any kind of feelings that could be running inside of her at that very same moment. She couldn't. She was starting over, and that meant leaving everyone behind, except Serena, of course.
- Look, Blair, I'm just trying to understand what I saw.
- You didn't see anything, is it that hard to understand?
- Come on, I'm trying real hard to reach you.- As he said this, without even knowing what he had meant, he walked toward her and grabbed her by the waist, pushing her in front of a mirror. - I'm trying to understand why you'd do such a thing. I'm trying to see what you see in that mirror, and all I can see is an insanely attractive woman.
Her head turned and her eyes fixed on his. She couldn't keep the tears down, and so she let them roll through her cheeks. He couldn't see it, but she could. Oh, she could. She had been hiding from it for so long now, that she didn't even remember how it had started. First Nate kept delaying the easy thing that was to take what she had been keeping for him for so long. Even her own mother had always chosen Serena over her, and she knew that if she had been able to pick, she would have taken her friend as her daughter. Considering all this, something had to be wrong about her. And after so much time looking for the mistake, she had found it, and tried to fix it. And then, she couldn't stop. And she didn't want to. Everything that had happened had just confirmed once more that she couldn't possibly be pretty. Nate loved Serena, she knew it. Even Little J wanted to be like Serena, not like her. And then Chuck had chosen her, and for an instant, she had believed she had something beautiful in her. But that feeling hadn't lasted much. Her mother had made her feel awful once more. And as much as she had tried, the day when everyone found out about her and Chuck, the day he told her he didn't want her anymore, his word had got to her heart faster than he could have imagined. He had told her so explicitly that he couldn't see why anyone would want her, that she had just lost control of herself. From that day and on, she had only had lunch and dinner, and every time she threw it up just after finishing. No-one had noticed. No-one but him.
- You did see what I see.- She turned her head away, staring again at the mirror.- You said it. Someone no-one could ever like. Someone you take if there is nothing else at sight. Someone you can neglect so easily you wouldn't even notice.
His hand closed around her waist, softly, tenderly.
- No, Blair. - He whispered. He knew now what she meant. He had said those words to her, but hadn't meant them. He had known he loved her as much as to forgive her anything, but the disdain she was showing to wards him was too much to bare. She would never feel the same way. She loved Nate, he had to admit it and keep moving. And as hurt as he was, he had had to tell her something to make her go away. Because had she stayed another minute, and he would have done something he would have regretted. It sounded silly now, but that's what he had thought at the moment. Had he known he would hurt her that much, he wouldn't have said a thing.- I'm begging you, look at yourself. Aside from the amazing beauty you have, you are the greatest girl I've ever met. You're smarter than anyone, you are strong and fearless, you dare to do things, you always aim higher than everyone else, and you get there. One day, Blair Waldorf, you're going to have the entire world at your feet, and it won't be because of how you look, it will be because you are more than beautiful here.
As his hand slowly climbed up to her heart, Blair started to cry. Before knowing it, she turned around and lost herself in his arms, not able to stop crying harder than ever. Chuck held her as tight as he could, but he couldn't have been more confused.
- I'm sorry, Blair. I'm so sorry. I never meant to do you no harm.
She slowly stopped tearing, and as she did, she raised her eyes until they met his. - I know that. And what you just said to me has made me feel happier than ever. But you don't get it. You can't. You have no idea what it? like to live in the shadow of someone as perfect as Serena. To be forced to be extremely perfect as to get a little bit of attention, while she does what she wants and still wins every time.
- I am Nathaniel's best friend, you know that. I know what it's like to be overshadowed. To feel like people's always gonna come to you only when he's not available. I know what it's like to have pushing parents, Lord knows I have experience with those. And I know what it's like to be told that you're not wanted by the one person you want the most.
He sighed, as she put her head on his chest once more. - But this is no way of dealing with it. You're stronger than this, I know that.
- I don't think so. I don't feel stronger than anything. I just feel alone. Even worse, I feel left alone. And Serena is trying real hard, but she can't see a thing.
- We'll get you your life back, you'll see.
Suddenly, her hand grabbed his shirt, and she looked at him.
- I don't want it. I want another one. I want to start over for real. I really want to leave everything behind. But I need you.
- And you'll have me if you let me reach you.
She softened once again, laying down her head against him.
- There's no way I could keep you away now, believe me, not even if I tried.