**ATTENTION**

This is my first ever fic just thought of this idea the other day and decided to write it down

don't know if people are going to like it but I can only hope right?

disclaimer I do not own anything

JASPER

I need to get out of here and fast, I can't handle all of the emotions coming out of this house. It has now been 50 years since we had left forks and everything to do with forks and that includes Isabella Swan. I could never forget her 18th birthday even if I tried I can still see everything as if it happened only yesterday and no one in our family is the same since that day. Alice my once overly energetic wife so full of life is now just a lifeless body that goes about her day without even a smile on her face. And Emmet who always made people laugh even in the toughest times hardly even talks now never mind making jokes, even Rosalie is not the same she spends all her time in the garage fixing up cars over and over again. Carlilse and Esme try to get us involved in things but it fails each time. Lets not even get started on Edward I don't think that he has left his bedroom in any new house we move to since the day he decided that would be best that he left her. He wont even get up to go hunting we have now been reduced to bring him animal blood that we gather from our hunts. I have never felt the emotions of anyone like I do from him not even when I was taking human life away. The worst day yet was 49 years ago only a year after we had left when we got word that Isabella was dead. They had never been able to find a body but they had searched for her for over 6 months when they announced that she was dead. That day when we got the news was by far the worst of my excitance. It took all 6 of us to hold Edward down so he would not go to the Volturi. Since than I don't think he has spoken one word to any of us. All he does is sit up in his room and look at pictures of Bella and none of us seem to be able to get through to him. Even if I sit there and send wave of wave of calm his way nothing seems to help.

I walked out of the house after kissing my wife goodbye. I don't know where I was going to go but I just knew I had to leave each minute I stay there I am reminded that it is all my fault that the family is the way they are because of me. I got into my car and sped off I ended up at the local book store maybe I can find a book that I have yet to read. I go right to the history book and found a new one that I have yet to read.

I go to the girl book to maybe find a book for Alice. As I am scanning the books on in peculiar stands out to me. I pick it up and read the title "Guarding Angeles or Fallen Angeles" but what really caught my eye was the authors name "Mary Whitlock". I have never encountered someone with the same last name since I had become what I am today. I flip to the last page to see if there is anything about the author or maybe a picture. All it says is that the author is a female, which I could have gathered from the name but nothing else about her. I open up to the first page quickly scanned through the first chapter and quickly close the book staring blackly at it. What was this story about could it really be about my family it sounds like it but who would right a story about us? I decide to buy the book and return home and do some research on the author maybe I could gather more information before I tell anyone in the family about it. After I left the store I drive home the fastest I could without getting pulled over. I hope out of the car and run up to my own study and reopen the book decided to start reading from the beginning again.

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