Hey guys, this is my first one-shot! Hope you like it. I was gonna make it into an actual story but I decided to keep it short and sweet. Review if you can! (And 'I caught myself' is a song by Paramore, if you don't already know that! And if you don't-LOOK IT UP!)

Change of heart

The world is a cruel place…

That's what I used to think that was all that it was…and then I caught myself thinking that it could be more…

I watched him sleep soundly in my bed. His brown hair falling perfectly into place on my pillow. His eyes fluttered a little, and his breathing was small. I could only stare. I could only watch this boy, who not only barged into my life, but stole my heart in the process.

I don't know why. And I don't know how. But when I watch him, I can only imagine doing this for the rest of my days. He slept so soundly, so comfortably. I just wanted to hold him. To touch him. To love him.

I should've never thought of him…

I should've never asked him out…

I should've never kissed him…

I should've never held him in my arms…

And I should've never found myself wanting more. But I did. Ritsu Oda, was in a way, my savior. But I doubt I'll ever tell him that…

"Sempai.."

He mumbled in his sleep a lot. And usually, he would say my name. So delicately, so lovingly. I don't know why, but I knew I couldn't stop this feeling. I just wanted him closer to me. To be by me forever. Some kind of magic…

Whatever this was…

I hated it.

I ran my fingers through his hair, feeling the silk on each strand. The softness of his face, the urge to kiss his lips…I want him to myself…

At times like these, the moments seem to last a lifetime. A lifetime of happiness, though they only lasted seconds. I caught myself hoping for this worthless moment to last forever. I closed my eyes, and all I could think was 'how did this happen?'

I opened them, and I ran my finger across his lips. I desired them. I kept wanting more and more with each passing second. I suppose I asked for this… the moment I found that my heart was beating faster and faster as I watched him, thought of him, kissed him….when we made love, I found myself losing my composure inside.

Oda Ritsu was a beautiful creature indeed.

And just knowing that, made me all the more eager to keep him in my arms. He was my Haven.

The world is a cruel place….

But- it can also be very beautiful…

Well, here's my first one-shot! Hope you enjoyed it! And the "the world is a cruel and beautiful place" is from Attack on Titan- I do not own Sekaiichi Hatsukoi or the quote from Attack on Titan, or the song this is half-based on which was mentioned at the top. Yea- you get the point….I'll own this shit when zombies attack.