Desperately Wanted

Cardboard masks of all the people I've been

Thrown out, with all the rusted, tangled, dented God Damned miseries
You could say I'm hard to hold, But if you knew me you'd know

A rest stop in the middle of nowhere surrounded the forest's edge along an old highway road. Thick wild grass, unaltered by man touch, lined the trees as its beach. The air was crisp and picking up on this early fall day.

They tumbled into the waist high grass in a fit of laughter. Her cries loud and heart warming. She landed atop him; a look of excitement filled her eyes as she looked down on his sea green eyes.

Her hair surrounded him, sweet smelling and intoxicating. Her weight in all the right places upon him, as her curves melted against him. Dean quickly rolled them onto their side and swallowed the lump in his throat, calming the racing of his pulse to having her so near.

A giggle quickly escaped her mouth before she covered it with her hand to silence herself. She looked into his eyes, thrill hung in her pupil.

A grin covered his lips, her radiance contagious. "You're crazy." He laughed at her.

Reaching out, she quickly covered his mouth with her delicate fingers. "Shhh…" She instructed with a quieted laugh. "He'll find us."

He gave into her will, playing along. Studying her, watching her carefully as she lay in the grass, hair surrounding her like a halo, anticipation tickled her face. Her lip quivered, waiting for a reason to have her smile grow as she listened diligently for Sam's footsteps.

Her eyes flashed to Dean every once in awhile filled with the spark of amusement. Her fingers touched his lips, tempting him.

The wind picked up, sending the ends of her hair dancing across his face; tickling his nose as a realization hit Dean… she was supernatural. More supernatural than anything he had ever seen. A Muse, because she inspired him and made him feel alive. She was a Goddess because her beauty was stunning and breathless, with big brown eyes that swallowed him whole. She was a Siren because she called to him and bewitched him. Haley had cast a spell upon him. For once, unlike any other time he had encountered the supernatural Dean didn't want to destroy it…. He wanted to follow it to the end of the earth and revel in its magic.

Her fingers slipped from his lips and fell loosely to his arm as she began to squirm with anticipation. Sam's heavy feet ruffled and swayed the tall grass as he approached, his voice bellowing out loud over head. "You're relentless Haley." Sam chuckled.

Her smile grew from ear to ear as Sam's face appeared near by. A squeal escaped her throat as Sam jumped upon her, taking his hostage as he began to tickles her sides in punishment.

Lying there forgotten in the moment, Dean watched Sam's hands roam Haley's body. Dean watched her squirm between Sam's thighs, hair thrashing, smile covering her face as she begged for mercy and a rare moment occurred… Dean's heart constricted with jealousy.

Spending time with Haley, Dean understood why Sam insisted they keep her around. She shined like the sun, like eternal light and she made everything around her shine. Sometimes in silent thought, Dean wondered if she could make him shine too…

Things stood in the way, kept him away; Dean knew Haley was unsure of him. They got along well enough, moments like this becoming more frequent as they got to know each other better. But Dean knew how she really felt. When he'd remark on or hooked up with bar sluts, her lip would tighten with disgust. Sometimes on a hunt, her eyes would look at him with fear. Dean knew she thought he was jaded and cold.

But most of all, Dean didn't try to change her mind because she was Sammy's…

Watching his baby brother's eyes light up when he's around Haley, made him keep his distance. It was easy to see Sam adored her. Haley was the only thing that brought life back to Sam after Jess and Dean would never take that from him. No matter what happiness or peace he'd have to give up.

Feet on ground, Heart in hand, Facing forward, Be yourself.
I've never wanted anything…
No I've, I've never wanted anything…
So Bad

Jann Arden: Good Mother